my heart hurts i don't know what to do, i was told by my only best friend that she dosnt love me anymore, that she pretty much dosnt want to be be my friend anymore, one of the only people that i actually trust decided that she dosnt want to be my friend it took a lot to trust her, i believe she was a good person, shows what i know! im so fed up with it all! I fell like crying but i refuse to let any tears to fall... what should i do, every time i try to figure out what i did to make her hate me my chest feels tight like someone is holding my heart and is squeezing it tighter and tighter, i get a burning feeling behind my eyes, and when i feel like im about to explode, I get angry! what right did she have to say those things to me! i was nice i broke down my walls to try to be a different person! i actually thought everything would change when we moved here, sure you still have some assholes to deal with but they where nothing, then i meet her and brook and Libby! i thought of them to be my only true friends but then Libby moved a year later, i was sad but i still had HER and brook, when we got to high school i thought nothing would change and i was a little right but then i noticed some changes in brook but i thought nothing of it when she said she was fine, but we stop talking as much, but every time i sall her with HER she was different she was back to her old self so i thought she was better but when i walked up to them she said she had to go do something and it just continued from there i felt like i didn't know brook any more, but at least i still had HER everything was fine we where happy she was my last true friend but i never told her, i felt even sadder when i lost brook, but me and HER where still good at least, today me and her where talking like nothing was wrong but i have been noticing some changes in HER to, after lunch I went to the locker room to change and sall her me and one of the other girls i know where talking she jokingly said that she didn't like me anymore, i faked a gasp and looked at HER and back the girl and told her i didn't need her to like me, i looked to HER and said she loves me, don't you?, she said NO i thought she was joking at first but after a little bit i asked if she was serious she looked at me and said in a serious voice that she didn't love me anymore that SHE was tired of me being happy all the time and just TIRED of ME! i felt like my world shattered then and there but i didn't show it, i stayed silent and walked away, i didn't want to bother her life any more if that's what she wanted, at least then one of us where happy... i felt like the little weak girl i used to be all of the memories of growing up with no friends being beaten by the other kids, those images just wouldn't go away! i didn't know what to do! so her i am tiping this listening to music i my dark room, fed up with all of this... i wish that something would happen to make it go away that one of my dreams would come true, because that would mean to leave this world and go to a different world and meet people that wouldn't betray me like her! i must sound pathetic just here i am tiping this when someone else must be having a worse day then me i sound selfish right now, so maby its time to bring this to a end, and just see what happens...