The One That Got Away Part 1 Goodbye

Summary

Eren and Mikasa have known each other since primary school what Mikasa doesn't know is Eren's in love with her he gained a crush on her when he was seven and it only grew but she knew nothing about it. He's in love with her and she's in love with the world. Throughout high school and college she's dated but he hasn't he only wants her then she meets someone during college who she falls for Eren can't take it so when college is finished he moves away but fate will bring them back together.

Eren and Mikasa have known each other since they were five along with their other friend Armin the three of them were always together in primary school in high school a lot of things changed they all gained new friends that was obvious but Mikasa also gained the attention of many boys.

Eren at this time had had a crush on her for about three years so it was extremely hard for him to watch as Mikasa flirted with any boy who flirted with her he hated how boys drooled over her some of his own friends included such as Jean, Reiner and even Bertoldt. What made it even worse is she would flirt back with whoever flirted with her.

He's watch this and his heart would break she never flirted with him so it just hurt that she would flirt with any other boy and not him. Girls would approach him but he's just say he wasn't interested in dating he only wanted Mikasa and if he couldn't get her then he'd be with nobody. Mikasa was a free spirit and had no idea of his feelings and it was just hard to be around her.

She didn't completely end their friendship but it was strained not that she knew it. They went to parties and he had to put up with more guys some he didn't know drool over her and she'd just flirt with them and he'd just walk away and either sit outside drinking by himself or just go home. Although he never told anyone his feelings Armin knew he was his best friend after all he's very smart. Eventually both Sasha and Connie also found out they told him to man up and tell her his feelings but he did nothing.

She dated Jean but that didn't last long a week in fact as Mikasa put it he's a complete dork who talked so much bs it was surprising he had any friends at all. There were other boys she dated but they never lasted more than two or three months but that was not good news for Eren she's only find someone else.

The hardest thing was hiding his feelings for her from her which didn't help that she spent so much time over at his house throughout high school if she wasn't with her current boyfriend or other friends. She also loved Piggy back rides but would only want Eren to give them to her not that Armin could carry her.

During college much the same thing happened and flirting boyfriends and more heartache for Eren. Then during the end of college she started dating Thomas/Tommy Wagner and she immediately took to him. Tommy wasn't a bad guy if Eren's honest but he's with Mikasa so he was hated by Eren. It went worse for Eren when after two dates she told him she slept with Tommy she told him she was infatuated with Tommy and by what Eren could see the feelings was mutual.

This just made it harder for Eren he was devastated. After that confession from her he lied to her saying he was busy but Mikasa took it the wrong way and only got closer with Tommy. Which was worse.

Two months after college Tommy and Mikasa got an apartment together and wherever she went he went also and that was the last straw for Eren he'd lost her. He was still living with his parents at the time Mikasa and Tommy got there place.

As soon as they moved in together Eren got to work on moving away he'd already bought his plane ticket in secret and it had just arrived the day before all he had to was wait for a time when he could leave. He hadn't seen Armin, Mikasa or any of his friends for about two days now saying he was ill Armin probably knew he was lying but said nothing.

He's lying on his bed when his mum comes in all dressed up she smiles "You OK Eren" He looks up "You going out" Carla smiles "Yes a hospital fundraiser we'll be back late around two-ish" He nods "OK have fun" She smiles "Love you" He smiles "I love you to mum now go have some fun" She smiles and kisses him on the forehead then she leaves he sighs "Guess tonight's the night I go" He looks out of the window and sees them drive away.

He immediately starts packing he feels sad he has to leave his parents he knows his mum will be devastated but he can't stay here not any more he wants to get as far away as he can from this life he hasn't been happy for years. It takes him about 45 minutes to pack everything then he sits at his desk and writes two letters one to his parents and the other to Armin why bother with Mikasa he's actually crying when he writes these letters this is extremely hard for him.

It takes him about 30 minutes to write both letters. When he's done he places them on top of his bags and walks down stairs he called a taxi so it should be here shortly. He walks to the kitchen and uses two of his mums magnets to pin up the letters he'd rather not post the one to Armin directly in case the doors opened then he waits for the taxi. It arrives after five minutes he emptied his bank account just after he paid for his plane ticket he has money that should last him for about a year.

He looks at some family photo's he sighs then picks up his bags and leaves the house dropping his keys back inside the letterbox. He looks across the road at the Ackerman's house and at Armin's nobody's looking outside that's good he then puts his bags into the boot of the taxi then climbs into the back he doesn't want to socialize. When the driver asks where to Eren sighs "The Airport" The driver nods and starts the taxi he looks back one last time.

It takes 45 minutes to get to the airport he gets there about 10:45pm his plane isn't for another 30 minutes how he decided to go to Canada was well a guess he just looked for a nice place and ended up looking at Calgary. He sits down and waits after a short while he gets the announcement for his plane so he picks up his bags and walks to his terminal and boards the plane and after a short wait the plane takes off he looks out of the window then closes the blinds and puts in his headphones and sits back.

Four hours later his parents return home they don't notice his keys on the floor they don't notice his letters either they just go upstairs to bed not even checking on Eren. The next morning Carla gets up and walks downstairs she doesn't notice the keys again she goes straight into the kitchen to start breakfast for the three of them when she goes to the fridge she stops when she sees the letters. Were they there before she doesn't think so when she gets closer she noticed the letters are addressed to both his parents and one for Armin? When she looks at the handwriting she knows it Eren's handwriting she's immediately worried then she hears someone coming down the stairs but she's just staring at the letters in shock.

Grisha sees the keys next to the door and raises an eyebrow then he picks them up there Eren's keys why would he just leave them by the door. He walks into the kitchen "Hey Carla Eren's keys were besides the door" Carla looks at him the back at the letters. She grabs the letter addressed to them and opens it and starts reading. Grisha looks at her "Is everything OK" Then he hears her crying "What's wrong" Carla starts crying and passes him the letter and he reads it he can't believe it Eren's gone he reads it again

To Mum and Dad

I love you both with all my heart I will never forget you but all my life I've loved a girl who loves the world and not me and now she's finally found someone special to her and my heart is broken forever. You know who I mean maybe you've always known I don't know but by the time you read this I will be gone I won't tell you where I've gone I might write I haven't decided yet. Don't look for me as I don't want to be found I love you both

Goodbye

Eren

Grisha can't believe he's actually gone he knew Eren wasn't happy but this he looks at Carla who's still crying he helps Carla sit down then sits next to her Carla hugs him "My baby's gone" Grisha's speechless he looks at the fridge and sees another letter addressed to Armin he stands up. "Armin will want this I'll give it to him I'll be back in a minute" Carla doesn't even acknowledge him she's still crying. He hates seeing her like this but Armin will want to know he's only across the street not too far away.

When he gets to the front door he knocks and its quickly answered by Armin's grandpa" Morning Grisha" He doesn't reply Armin's grandpa sighs "Is something wrong" Grisha sighs "Give this to Armin will you" Armin's grandpa nods "Is it bad" Grisha nods "Yes" He then walks away. Armin's Grandpa knocks on Armin's door and when Armin opens the door he passes the letter to Armin "Grisha just told me to give this to you something's happened I think" Armin takes the letter he notices its Eren's handwriting straight away and he closes the door and opens the letter and starts reading.

To Armin

Hey buddy by the time you read this I'll be gone I'll miss you a lot you can probably figure out the reason why I've gone if not its simple Mikasa is lost to me look after my mum she'll take this very hard. Tell Mikasa if you want if she'll even care I don't know. I won't tell you where I'm going and don't try and look for me. I love you like a brother but this is the last you will ever hear from me I won't write it's too hard for me I want to start a new life away from everyone and everything I know. I said to my parents that I might write to them but I don't know your my old life now.

Goodbye buddy

Eren

Armin's stunned what's he going to do now he knew Eren was sad but this it's extreme. Armin's granddad pops his heads in "Is it bad" He tells him and he's shocked "Oh my I'm sorry my boy" He pats him on the shoulder and leaves the room. When he turns back he actually hears crying from Armin's room and he sighs and walks away.

When Grisha gets home he can't find Carla anywhere he goes upstairs and first looks in the bathroom then there bedroom she's not there then he goes to Eren's room. When he opens the door Carla's laying on Eren's bed crying and cradling a picture of Eren. He sits next to her and hugs her she looks up "My baby's gone do you think he'll be OK."

Grisha sighs "He's a smart kid but it depends how much money he has I know he had quite a lot he was saving up for a new car after all and a motorbike" She sobs "That won't last him for long" He sighs "I know he also saved up from his job at the cinema I'll send him some money if he ever writes if not I don't know what to do" She just starts crying again.