Chapter one: So Small
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small
Carrie Underwood
Rain rain go away come again another day
It had been pouting for the last hour, the sky dark grey and filled with storming clouds. Most of la push had been advised to stay in doors but the protectors to make sure everyone was safe.
In the middle of the forest on the mudding forest floor a grey wolf appeared to be sleeping. But if close enough you'd see the wolf was more alert than appeared.
The rain oddly enough was calming in this time of worry for the people. The wolf enjoyed the rain, rain symbolized depression while others took rain as a sign that they'd have healthy crops in the quilet tribe. Leah on the other hand looked to the darker outlook of rain.
Just my luck the rain isn't going to stop anytime soon.
Honestly rain was the most annoying thing in the world to the wolf, it reminded her-yes a female- of her past relationship with Sam.
"Leah honestly shut up! He imprinted and he's in love you know how the rules work," Paul barked at her.
Ironic isn't it, a wolf barking its anger at it's fellow pack mate.
Leah rolled her eyes. She got up from her spot and began to wonder in the woods.
"Paul talk shit when you've gone through what I've gone through" Leah snarled.
It's been one year since Sam left me for my cousin- Leah shuddered She hated the thought of them being together with a burning passion.
One moment he's talking about their future together the next moment he's leaving her in the rain for her so called best friend-no sister- constantly being reminded that she'd never be with him and they're a match made in heaven made Leah a little bitter.
"A little bitter? More like a straight bitch, just Imprint on someone else and let us live in peace already." Jared snapped
Leah hadn't noticed she was full on sprinting, she didn't know where but she needed a distraction
"Guys lighten up on Leah, it's not her fault we have to hear every single damn thought. I mean think about how awkward Sam must feel about this?" Jacob said.
I could practically feel their smirks
Leah saw the cliff where her pack would go cliff diving on. Leah phased back into her human form. She was naked but thankfully she found a shirt and some shorts. She smelled them before putting them on.
Smelled like Quill, looks like he phased over here before going patrolling.
Leah walked over the cliff and sat on the edge. They were supposed to be on the look out if the red leech named Victoria showed up. It was the only reason why they were patrolling and not in doors safe.
Leah looked to the sky the rain drench her already wet clothing. She just sat there with only the rain making noise.
If I'd never become a wolf I'd still have my father. I'd still be with Sam, he would have found a way to love me, and I'd be able to have children. But now because of these stupid leeches thanks to Bellabitch I'd lost everything I had wanted in life.
I can't even go to college and become a doctor like I had wanted because were too busy worrying about the imprints stuff, and stupid bellabitch.
My life is far from what I'd ever expect it to be. My life is a nightmare put on replay; I'd rather die than continue with this mundane lifestyle.
It's not like anyone would miss me, Seth apparently should be phasing soon and he's too optimistic for his age. He can protect mom, it's not like me and my mother got along anyway. She favored Seth more and my dad favored me. Now I have no one to favor me, only my self.
I'm just lonely, I want a way out of it all, I want to feel wanted again.
I want to feel loved and finally not pitted. But that will never happen.
Leah looked solely out to the ocean, her face covered in tears mixed with rain.
Rain rain go away come again another day.
Leah was too wrapped up in her thoughts to hear Quill come from behind; even with her advanced hearing her heart needed more attention than her safety.
"Leah?" Quill's voice shook her back into reality. She wiped her eyes. "What?" her voice was small and betrayed the famous bitch of the packs attitude.
This took Quill off his game, he'd never seen her so venerable. He was now in Big brother mode, even though she was older she was the only girl in the entire pack. They all knew when to joke but when someone was emotionally and physically hurt everyone went protective mode.
Leah made Quill nervous, she had her legs dangling off a cliff in the middle of a storm and when they're supposed to be patrolling for the enemy.
He made carefully deceive steps towards her, he didn't want her to get upset and do something she'd regret.
"Hey what's wrong?" He carefully asked her.
He kept edging towards her, nothing to quick but nothing too slow.
"Nothing it- I've just been thinking." She absent mildly played with her short hair.
"About what?"
She started to laugh like a maniac, it was sadistic, insane but that's how Leah felt on the inside.
Insane.
"Do you ever wonder what it's like to be fully happy?"
Trick question
"Um no not really, but I have my good days and then bad days. I just roll with the punches from life like you do."
"Well I'm tired of rolling with the punches, I want to be happy and I think I know how to be truly happy."
Quill was an arm length away from Leah; if she did anything drastic he could phase and catch her.
"Leah…"
Leah began to tenderly push off from her grassy seat; she was going to go cliff diving in the middle of the storm.
But Quill wasn't going to have that; he pulled Leah back and had a secer grip on her waste.
He could see he bug brown doe eyes, she was so beyond tired. Tired of feeling pain. He could feel her heart break from just the look she was giving him. She looked so hopeless and so lost.
She broke down and began to violently sob, Quill held her closer he whispered softly into her ear, she needed comfort and he was willing to give her some in this moment.
If Quill could stop her pain he'd do so in a heartbeat.
But he couldn't.
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When Quill had arrived with only his pants on and a half naked Leah both drenched fro the rain, surprised was the only thing he could use to describe the situation.
She was broken beyond repair and it was the packs fault for this, she needed to know she could count on them when she was broken.
When Emily saw her cousins state she quickly drew a hot bath for her, but Leah remained silent. It was scary to say the least. Sam blamed Quill for her silence claiming he had done something to her.
Quill argued he'd done no such things, he explained vaguely what happened leaving out major details. Claiming she was "exhausted" and collapse from sitting in the rain for too long, other words he claimed she had a fever. Which is impossible for werewolves.
Ironic how her temperature is 115.2, which is above average.
She's sick and got out of explain what happened because her being sick was reason enough not to talk to anyone.
But Quill knew her dirty secret and was waiting until she got better to confront her on what had been said that night.
Leah ended up sleeping for an entire two days; emotionally her wolf was going stir crazy. But physically she was fine. Which is why she's been up for two minutes to find Quill sitting in a chair with Jacob standing against the door and the rest of the pack watching her with closely.
"What are you all staring at, take a picture it will last longer you assholes!" Leah shrieked.
The tension was eased and replaced with Sam staring- no glaring- at her and Jared and Paul having a losing battle to not laugh. Quill on the other hand was concerned for his "sister" and Jacob sighed.
"Leah what were you thinking!" Sam yelled.
Leah flinched from his tone. She knew explaining time would soon come, but she didn't think it would happen once she woke up.
"Well I didn't think I would get sick, I was just doing my job." She retorted.
Sam threw his hands up in the air. Quill narrowed his eyes at her, she could feel his glare as well as Jacobs but she chose to focus in on the ugly wallpaper in Emily's room.
"Leah you almost died! Do you know how worried I was-no we all were about you. What would I have told your mother and what about Seth."
Tell them they excuse for a daughter is finally out of their hair and they can move on peacefully for once.
"I don't know Sam! But it was a mistake and it wont happen again."
A mistake that should have just killed me, I can't even do that properly.
"Your damn right it won't happen again, Your banned from any pack related things for two month's, until you can get your act together your a hazard to this pack and to yourself. I don't want you anywhere near this house for the next two months no phasing either, you control your anger." Sam yelled, he used his alpha voice. It wasn't just him angry it was the wolf inside of him that was angry.
I cowered my head in shame why couldn't I just be normal; honestly life would be so much easier.
Leah nodded in response and all of the men left her room. Quill gave Leah a meaningful look that said pull shit and I'll tell them what you almost did I glared at him, if he was to find out I did anything to harm myself he'd lose his shit.
Leah sighed to herself, this was going to be a long two months, constantly being by her. She was graduating high school in less than a month. She already applied to some colleges. She got into University of Washington in Seattle and into University of Texas In Austin, Texas.
She already knew from these past events that have taken place what college she'd choose, the only person who knew about all this was her "best" friend Sarah McCall, who lives in La Push and currently hates Leah fro being a bitch.
Leah closed her eyes and drifted back into her "peaceful" sleep. Where she dreamed about her "normal" life and her marrying Sam but then she wakes up and remembers it will never happen.
I'm back. I'll be posting/ redoing scream and new hero tomorrow it will be up. I've been working on revamping the stories for a while. Hope you like this story.