Lost in your eyes

Sam P.O.V.

- I can't believe I'm here all by myself on a friday night...Oh yes I remember why is because I refuse to go to Shannon's party with Carly, Gibby and probably the nub was going to be there too. Why? well simple answer because Shannon still loves him after three years she still thinks she has a chance with him. Well that is since she saw him for the first time in the seven grade, but he was in a crush with Carly since the six grade. I just can't stand the idea of her and him smiling and dancing like a couple of dorks that they are. Well at least she is cause he is a cute dork because even when he doesn't like her he is way too gentleman to reject an invitation, he doesn't want to make her feel bad in her birthday and that sucks.- she said to herself while eating the last piece of ham that she took from the Shay's fridge three hours ago before heading to her house. Sam was puzzled with her head yesterday she realized a lot of things that she didn't saw or was pretending that were not happening like her love towards a certain AV nerd whose name was Freddie.

Flash back Thursday

Sam noticed that her mom was not in the house...again! and decided to talk to herself. She didn't trust her feelings to anyone not even Carly and when she was alone she use to think that it was the best way to let everything out without hearing someone else judgements. Suddenly her phone rang, she saw who was calling it was Pete that surprise her. They broke up two months ago and he still insisted to get back with her but after seeing Freddie and Carly date she didn't want to be with Pete; she wanted to avoid having couple parties and all the crazy stuff that Carly planned so she broke up with him. But she still answered.

- Hello

- Hey Sam how are you?

-Good...and you?

-I am good thanks -then an awkward silence. It sounded like he was thinking of what he was going to said.- Sam I was wondering if you want to come to Shannon's party with me tomorrow. It's her birthday and she invited everyone. I am sure is going to be fun but if you come it will be a blast.

-Naaah. Sorry can't go my cat Forthy is sick he ate a lot and his tummy is upset and I don't know when he is going to be better - she lied

-Come on Sam! that was a pretty bad lie coming from the queen of manipulation - he laughed

-Oh... fine you got me but I don't want to go. I don't like dorks parties and you know that I will just hit them right?

-True... well then I will text you tomorrow just in case you change your mind.

-Ok but I still think I won't go sorry Pete.

-It's ok then so how about this I will see you tomorrow at school with an extra-large bucket of chicken for Puckett.-he said trying to rhyme the frase he was just not that good though.

- You better do it momma already wants her bucket - she said and he laughed

-kk then see you tomorrow my Daffodil -he said

-Argg don't call me like that ! well for this time you are safe ... bye- she hang up.

She didn't know what to do. He was a really nice guy after all he had a clean record, didn't like Carly "yeah finally she found someone who didn't love Carly first unlike some brunette boy with chocolate eyes" she shook her head why was she always thinking about him? Why? The worst part is that everything that she liked or hated always ended up being relate to him.

-That can't be true- she thought- Well lets see. Lets start from my favorite color Brown. Why? because is the color of gravy!- she said happily and suddenly remembering his eyes. His big brown eyes that seemed to be pools of chocolate... looking calm and peaceful. Sam loved and hated his eyes they make her heart beat up faster every time she saw them.-I guess he is in the color damn it!

-Next my favorite hobby? ...ummmmmm ohh bother and bully some nerds- she said with her evil smirk. Then she remembered that the person that she use to pick on the most was him. Freddie why? because he was a nerd and the simple fact of having him near even when she was committing physical and emotional damage to him make her calm down instead of screaming to the world that she like him. - This is annoying he is definitely in this one.

After a few more things that she knew about herself ended up always linked to Freddie.

"I was supposed to see why I broke up with Pete and to see all the good things in him and I actually ended up doing this stupid list that show why I reject him" Sam thought.

-Probably that's why I can't be with Pete I don't love him. I wish I could so! I want to take Freddie out of my heart. It's frustrating to see that he is the one that owned my heart without me noticing before. I just hate that nerd for being so perfect and make me fall in love with him.- she said screaming the last part - I need some fresh air and a strawberry banana smoothie- she said.

Sam grabbed her pearphone, pearpod, and her blue jacket because she was dressed totally in black today and didn't want to look like she was going to a funeral (AN: personally I love and wear black 90% of my time =]) and stepped out of her house heading first to the Groovy Smoothie and then to the park.

Trying to forget what she just have discover Sam tries to concentrate in something else and put on her ear buds and turns her Pearpod on giving her another memory of him ... their song Running away was in her Pearpod in that moment. She remembered their first kiss in that moment she still hated him even though she had weird stomach aches ( well according to Sam that was what they were, she didn't want to call them butterflies) and she didn't even understand the hate that , it was until she saw Carly kissing Freddie that she knew that she had a crush on him; but know a few moments ago she realized it was not just a crush but real love for Freddie Benson.

She didn't change the song though she just keep it on until she go to the Groovy Smoothie and ask T-bo to make her the extra-large smoothie that way she will distract herself before hitting back to reality. She took her smoothie and headed to the park and sat made her way to the park's platform, near the swings, it was use for the bands to sing. It was big and clean and she decided to lay in the cement platform while watching the sky that looked so dark and full off starts. She didn't notice the other person that was at the other end of the platform until she heard a sneezed, got up and saw him.

-Freddie? what are you doing here?

- Sam?

-Yes Freddork it's me Sam. What happened to you? Your mother will get even crazier if she doesn't see you in your PJs ready to go to bed. - she said part of her didn't feel great insulting him like before. "argg stupid feelings now I can't enjoy this"- she thought

-Haha really funny Puckett. My mom left since yesterday and I have no idea where she is..she didn't let me any notice. I thought she was working and call her but they said that as soon as she finished her shift yesterday she left.- he said sounding worried

-I..I..-Sam struggle to said this- I'm sorry Freddie I didn't mean to bother you... well I did mean to but I didn't know about your mom will your forgive me?

That clearly shock Freddie he always expected things from Sam. Even when she was unpredictable he always thought that she will never apologize, but now he was proved to be wrong; she was definitely unpredictable and that make him feel happy.

-Don't worry it's not your fault about my mom not reporting to me ...and about the fact that you always bother I don't mind it anymore. It's your nature - he said giving her a small smile.

-Hey what is that supposed to mean?

- It means that I don't hate you anymore like when we were younger and I feel that the way we treat each other even when it's weird if other people see it; it's more like our friend-enemy thing that we have so I don't take everything literal even when you mean it...- he was interrupted by his phone- Sorry it's my mom.

-Go ahead answer Crazy and ask her where she is - Sam teased him

-Hello mom where are you?... what? ... mom you were supposed to calm me I didn't knew where were you all day... what do you mean don't worry... no mom of course I worry... ok, ok mom when are you coming back... in six days ok... you told Spencer that take care of me? mom you know I'm old enough to take care of myself... don't call me Freddibear please mom...OK MOOOOOM tell them I missed them too and I will see you in six days... yes mom I will shampoo twice and everything bye. He turned red his mom still treat him like a 8 years kid. He look at Sam and saw that she was smiling.

-I know I know I'm a dork and my mother is crazy but geez sometimes you are right even when I love her she gets me so mad.

-Don't worry the whole Seattle knows your mom, haha and well where is she?

-She went to Atlanta my aunt went to visit with her husband and baby Stephany fall from the stairs and my mom went to take care of her.

- OMG, the little baby that hates you? poor baby hope she is fine- Sam said sadly

-My mom said that she was in the hospital the whole day yesterday and that finally started to react she is going to take care of her until she feels better.

- So that means you are alone for a week? wow didn't know crazy will do that, but I guess Stephany needs her now. You are lucky she didn't ask you were were you. If you tell her the park at this time of the night she would have freak out- she said smiling

- I know but I guess I will enjoy the air a little longer- he said while laying down again this time next to her.

Sam also lay down and both keep quiet while watching the sky.