Edward never came back without any signs of him doing otherwise soon. So, what was I supposed to do? A normal person would have tried to move on and forget anything about it. But, then again, I was never like a normal person. I tried with all I could to hang on to those memories. I know that they seem to be stupid and worthless. Maybe thay are. But I just don't want to forget about him. How could I live my life without him?
So, here I am again. The road by the meadow, our meadow, expecting something. i don't know what, maybe a sign? A sign that he hasn't totally given up on me. I waited for a few more hours then headed home. I needed to feed Charlie,anyway. I saw the way he stared at me when I return home. It's almost like he's afraid of hurting me with just a word. Was my pain really that obvious? I tried not to cry infront of him, actually anywhere, ever since they left. If Alice would have seen me in that mood, she would have dragged me to Olympia,at least, in an attmept to cheer me up.
The thought had me choked up and I smiled bitterly. I didn't know that I'd miss Alice's antics so much. But, I didn't know that they'd leave, either. That's when everything broke apart. Small sobs came from everywhere and nowhere. My whole body rocked with these sobs. I cried for all the memories that I could feel fleeing from my head, all the promises that were broken and for the future that died before it was started. I wanted to scream and I did but I wanted to be mad at Edward for leaving me without postnotice. I still couldn't. It took me a few minutes to compose myself again then I started driving back to Forks and home. Charlie wasn't there yet and that was a plus. I still have time to cook dinner and cry, maybe. But, should I cry again? Charlie might come home and find me . . .
The cruiser rang outside and I readied my act. I hope it wasn't to obvious.
"I'm fine" I muttered to myself.
"Oh,hi,Bells. How was your day?" Charlie asked suspiciously. I don't usually meet him when he gets home.
I shrugged. "Fine,I guess. Yours?"
"Uhmm . . . fine. Are you alright?"he asked.
"Sure thing." I pretended to look up the clock. "Hey,Dad.I have to get some shut eye. Can you clean this up?"
I was already headed up the stairs before he answered. But I heard him call me so i ran down.
"Bells,we're going to Billy's tomorrow,alright?" Charlie said.
Jake. I'm gonna see Jake! My day almost seemed great when I look at it that way. I just smiled, tried my best, then headed up again.
Tomorrow might be different but it still doesn't change anything. Come back,edward.