Title: First and Very Last Beloved
Author: Lilley-hime
Pairing: Conrad/Yuuri
i do not own kyo kara maoh... but i do own this idea...
Summary: Yuuri knew ,that Conrad is faithful to him. Especially when it comes to love as a lover. But what will happen, when Yuuri knew something unbelievable
It's very difficult to smile
Especially when you're hurt inside
Thinking that you're by my side
Makes me want to hug you for a while
Even though Yuuri saw Conrad kissed someone and even hugged Conrad. He pretend to smile and be happy, just for the sake of not worrying about him. He knew that his world would break with his heart torn and crushed into small pieces.
He only saw darkness in the daylight. His laughters and joy turned into cries and regret.
Regret for loving him and believing in every word he said.
Cries for remembering all those cherished moments that only became a way for him to be close. All day, he couldn't talk, sleep, or even eat.
Thinking lovers have fun together
And worry life about each other
Is one of those very precious lies
That I preserved with my sad goodbyes
Every problem that the lovers had gone through, had been wasted. Just because of this simple action. Everything between them shattered. For Yuuri all that happened had been a lie all along.
All those gentle smiles, warm hugs, and soft kisses that make his mind drift away. Those had been fake from the start. Even though he knew he couldn't say anything. He just tried to ignore the things that happened.
And say goodbye to those happy and cherished moments.
I tried to go far away from here
And tried to forget about you
So everything is very clear
That my love for you just glued and grew
The teen tried so hard just to ignore every little detail about his lover. He pretend to be busy everytime Conrad wants to speak with him. Everytime he heard the adult's voice calling him.
He can't help but just cry and run away from him. To see him in a state like that, everyone in the castle will be worried.
Trying so hard to forget, is very useless. And realized that even though it's a lie, he can't forget him.
Before he knew it, his tears fell down, like the rain without thunder or even lightning.
Because of the fact that Yuuri can't do anything but.......... just love him.....
I want to be happy with you
But it is so good to be true
That i'm just hurt and continue
To believe in the lie I knew
All Yuuri wanted, was for him to be happy with Conrad.
Together forever without any regrets. And now, he can't even believe. That all that happened between them, was just a simple lie. The teen knew that his goal is so hard to achieve. Especially now, that he regrets everything that happened.
Specifically loving Conrad with all his heart without any doubts, that had been just wasted and torn. Even though the adult had been seen by his lover for how many times. Kissing Yozak to be exact, he didn't even want to believe in the truth.
And just continued to believe in that precious lie, that he kept in the bottom of his heart.
I really missed you so much
More than I could imagine
I want to feel your warm touch
Cause now I am gone and still frozen
Like the wind, all his cries just passed through everyone in the castle.
And at the veranda of his room, Yuuri remembered the last time Yozak kissed Conrad. And it continued playing in his head. Thanks to that, his black pupils vanished. He felt very light, he knew that his world has come into an end. Falling from a very high place, nobody didn't even notice that scene.
It was the perfect time to be happy and contented in what happened.
I cannot help but realize
That night with many fireflies
You came by and said 'I love you'
So simple and being true
The evening Conrad came by and confssed to him. He knew that he is being true to his word and even kissed him. But now regret and hallucinations is all he can see. All he could do is cry and let his feelings burst out.
Cause this is the first time... that Yuuri... fell in love.... deeply in love with someone...
And this will be the last...
Because he'll be sleeping more than days.. weeks.. months... and years...
And not even once he won't wake up in his sleep.
Because all he knows, he now lives somewhere in the deep blue sky. And can be with those precious stars. That kept Conrad and Yuuri together markedly every night time, when everybody is sleeping. And at least, he is very glad that he did loved domeone. That can give his own life just for his sake. And believed in him without any doubt or second thoughts.
I hoped you liked it.... XD
i don't claim kyo kara maoh XP
but i do claim my own poem and story notably!! X3