Chapter One - Farewell

I am never going to see it again, I never ever want to. I looked back at King Cross Station as I thought Hugo might be coming back to me with tears all over his face. It was his first year after all, but kids are more mature now than we were at their age. I breathe deeply and settled myself in the car, he took the back seat neglecting my eyes and his vision outside on the sky without any reminiscence. He must have been scratching over letter for me last night. Last night after dinner I was busy packing children's luggage and he came up in the bedroom running towards while holding a letter which was typewritten along with company's logo on both sides. He was anxious about it and didn't dare to open. Though he knew about it, he just flowed it to me and went back down. It was my job confirmation mail from New York City.

And I went to Ronald at first, handed him the letter and he looked through it at every single word and then flashed his eyes on me. My heart started sinking as if I was unable to utter a word and he himself came near to me, held my hand and asked me whether I literary want this job or not. And I nodded, he released them free and then Rose grabbed them whose face was questioning about what is really happening. Ron left the house without telling me whereas Rose continuously tried asking me about the letter. I gave it to her and my little grown up understood what my heart was unable to let itself understand. She held my hand and kissed it by her pure pink lips and gave me farewell. I was in my bed for the last night here when I heard he returned home and entered his bedroom. Things between Ron and myself have been not on the right track, worsening of things resulted into separation, it was never a happily ever after actually. Twenty-one years after school, life had something new for me. My life gave me marriage, a nice husband, two beautiful angels and one piece of regret. I lived my school life with my two best friends and what I received was nothing, all recognition went to them. I was the one who saved them from all things but Harry was known as the one who lived. He wouldn't have survived without me in the schooling years, Ron too. I know it's very late now. But nothing late than never. All I want is to be on my own, for my own, I want recognition in this world. I was known with my own name earlier, now all that I have is being somebody's wife.

I reached airport so I parked the car, and pulled my luggage outside. Ron kept on looking at me and I continued on my own. I was a bit afraid of what would happen to Rose and Hugo and what will happen to Ron. But I have to move on, to gain something, I have to lose something. It becomes harder when we realize all what we had was actually never ours, it never belonged to us. Ronald never belonged to me. I took my stuff and started walking towards the entrance where I spotted Harry holding flowers for me, and I stopped. But one thing I remember he was not in town and he never knew about my plan. So I continued walking and that image was just an illusion. Somewhere I wanted someone to stop me, even if Ron did. I was going to stop and stay right here. But thankfully he just stayed there and kept his eye on me. As what he was going to do, he was the one who betrayed my feelings, who faked our marriage and who made me feel guilty to not to live with his parental home. He is the reason I am leaving without even getting a farewell.