I got another idea for a songfic buuuut I don't think this one will have pairings. I don't know, prolly will since I'm a sucker for happy endings. I used a song from my most favoritest band in the world Papa Roach!! It's called Last Resort, most of you have prolly heard of it! XD
Disclaimer: I don't own the Covenant. I don't own Last Resort either, the Awesome Papa Roach does. XD
Cut my life into pieces
This is my Last Resort
Suffacation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my Last Resort
Reid curled up in a ball against his father's drunken assault. He knew it was better not to fight against him, he only got hurt more when he did. Reid lived in an abusive hell with his father that the other Sons didn't know about, he had kept it a secret from them. Each day he had to make up excuses for the new bruises and cuts, laughing off the stupid excuses he made up with his friends. Sometimes he wished they would notice but other times he was grateful they didn't know. He didn't want to be weak, so he kept all the pain inside never telling anyone. His father picked him up by his throat and threw him roughly into his room. Reid hit the floor with a loud groan.
"Shut up boy. I'm going out to the bar and when I come back we're gonna have more fun." His father said grinning wickedly. Reid could only nod numbly, terrified of the monster his father had become. His father left locking the door behind him with a soft click. Reid dug under his bed for the roll of bandages he kept in his room. He quickly cleaned himself up and hid them again. He didn't want his father finding out. He walked to his bathroom and splashed cold water on his face. Opening his medicine cabinet he was shocked to find the pain medication he bought a few days ago was missing. He sighed deeply knowing his father had found and disposed of it. He went back to his room and decided to try and sleep before the return of his father.
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my Last Resort
Suffacation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight and I'm contemplating suicide
Reid awoke to the front door slamming loudly. He didn't remember closing his eyes, he groaned loudly from his place on the floor. He looked up and checked the clock on his bedside table. It read in blaring red numbers 3:00 AM. Reid sighed deeply, hearing his fathers heavy footsteps come up the stairs. His father swung the door open, expression angry and full of hate. His father stormed over and raised his hand ready to hit Reid. Reid readied himself the best he could, and he briefly wondered if his father even cared if he died. "Of course he will, because then he'll have no-one else to take his pain out on." A voice answered. He was broke out of his musings when he felt his father start to kick him in the ribs, earning a loud moan of pain from Reid. His father did this repeatedly until a loud sickening crack resounded through the room. His father suddenly stopped his assault. Then, to Reid's suprise, he quickly exited the room locking it behind him again. Reid pulled himself up and reached under his bed for the roll of bandages again. He wrapped them around his torso, bracing his now broken ribs the best he could. Then he crawled over to his bedside table and opened the drawer. He pulled out a gleaming metal razorblade. He knew it would be so easy to just slit those to vital points on his wrist and leave his life and all the pain in it behind. He brought it down to his wrist and was ready to cut when his phone rang. Sighing he put the blade down and grabbed his phone.
'Cuz I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
"Hello?" He said answering the phone.
"Hey Reid. It's Caleb. Just wondering if you wanted to come to Nickys tonight with me and the guys."
"Nah I can't tonight." Reid said sadly. He hissed in pain as one of his many cuts flared up, he suspected it was starting to get infected.
"Hey are you alright? You don't sound too good." Caleb said worriedly.
"I'm f-fine." Reid stuttered as the pain started getting worse.
"You don't sound fine! I'm coming over there!" Caleb said determined.
"NO! I mean, there's no need Caleb. Everythings fine." Reid said trying to reassure his friend without crying out in pain. It was starting to get unbearable as his ribs started to flare up angrily as well. He let out a choked sound he was sure Caleb heard.
"Damn it Reid! I'm coming over there and that's final!" Caleb said hanging up the phone. Reid sighed and put the phone back on his bedside table. His father was going to be very angry, but he wouldn't give him the statisfaction of taking it out on him again.
I never realized I was spread too thin
'Til it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
He quickly reached for the blade, a determined look on his face, and in one swift and fluid motion he had slit both wrists. He soon realized the cuts weren't deep enough to kill him, but had he really wanted to die in the first place? Yes he had, but he wasn't so sure anymore. He wanted to leave the pain in his life behind him and escape this living hell his father had created, but he found he no longer posessed the strength to raise the blade. He slumped his shoulders in defeat and thought back to when this all had started.
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
This all began when he turned thriteen. His mother just couldn't handle her son having powers so she took her own life. His father had warned him not to use them in front of his mother, but her life had been threatened at the time and he saw no choice but to use his powers. He saved her life and later found her dying in the center of a mess of pill bottles. She had died in his arms as he sobbed over her, not able to focus enough to use his powers to save her. The feeling of her stilling in his arms and her blank and unfocused eyes still burned fresh in his memory. His father had made up some excuse that she had died in a car accident, keeping it a secret from the world including the members of the Covenant. The only two who knew the real truth were Reid and his father. He vaguely heard a car pull into the drive way and someone barge in through the front door. He heard his fathers shouts then silence. He focused his blurry vision on the door to his bedroom which was now open with a figure standing in the threshold. His vision finally cleared and revealed Caleb. Reid felt tears silently stream down his face, knowing that someone did care for him. And that thought made him happy.
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I
Can't
Go
On
Living
This
Way
"Reid, why?" Caleb managed to get out as he knelt next to the younger boy. He had been shocked to find Reid's wrists bleeding and a razorblade sitting next to him stained with the crimsion liquid.
"I couldn't take it anymore Caleb. It's not like anyone would miss me. No one cares about me. I knew that bastard would kill me sooner or later I wasn't going to let him have the satisfaction." Reid said quietly.
"I care for you. So do Pogue and Tyler. We would miss you. Your father wouldn't kill you."
"You don't know him like I do Caleb. Besides the cuts aren't deep enough to kill me." Reid said his vision swimming.
"Can you walk?" Caleb said standing and pulling Reid to his feet with him. Reid took a shaky step forward and he collapsed. Caleb caught him before he reached the floor. He picked Reid up and carried him out of the room to his car. Reid felt his world start to go black but it didn't matter he felt safe, and knew his father wouldn't be able to hurt him ever again.
A/N: Bleh. My ending changed. I was gonna have Reid die but as I said I'm a sucker for happy endings, annnnnd Reid's my favorite character and I hate it when my favorite characters die. I know I didn't use the full song, I'm sorry. Soooooo Good or bad? Thanks a bunch for reading!! Please review!!! XD