~ ~Pippen~ ~
It's my fault. There's no point pretending otherwise. If I hadn't knocked that skeleton down the well, the orcs never would have found us, and we wouldn't have had to fight, cross the bridge, and Gandalf wouldn't have. . .died. I just can't believe it. Gandalf died and it was my fault. My fault. After we got outside, the others just looked at me. One by one. First Aragorn, then Borimir, then Legolas, then Gimli, then Sam, then Merry, and then, finally, Frodo. Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap. That's what it felt like. I never knew looks could hurt so much. I remember what Gandalf said right after I knocked that thing down the well.
You fool of a Took! Next time, throw yourself in and save us all from your stupidity.
He's right of course. That's exactly what I'll do if I ever lay eyes on another well.
Poor Gandalf. It's ripping Frodo's heart apart. You can see it on his face.
And it's all my fault.
~ ~Sam~ ~
Poor Mr. Frodo. Poor Merry. Poor me. Poor everybody. Even Pippin. I know I should be furious with him because it's his fault, but I just can't be. He's mad enough at himself. I walked up to him a little while ago and asked if he wanted leftover sausage for elevenses. He just stared out into space and told me to go away.
I wish I knew how to cheer people up better. I thought elevenses were the way to go, since he hadn't had them for so long. Maybe he's just too upset to care about anything.
Wait a minute. Should I try elveneses on Merry?
~ ~Merry~ ~
Elevenses?! At a time like this?! A few days, yes, absolutely, but not now. I can't think about food. I can't think about anything. Wrong. I'm thinking way too much. There a thousand thoughts racing through my mind every second and I can sort them out.
Gandalf dead? It's impossible. He can't be dead. I don't believe it. I won't believe it. I'm going to convince myself that he's still alive.
Because. He. Is.
I know it.
~ ~Frodo~ ~
I hate Pippin. Hate him, hate him, hate him. I know it's not fair, but I can't help it. If it wasn't for him, Gandalf would still be alive. I need Gandalf. Gandalf always made the right choices and helped me in every way he knew how. Besides that, he was one of my oldest and best friends. He was Bilbo's best friend. How will I ever tell Bilbo that Gandalf died? How will I ever get on with out him?
I don't think I will ever forgive Pippin.