Disclaimer: If I owned anything to do with instant star why the hell would I be writing about it when I could be making this happen on the show, duh! Lol.

Kay guys, this is my first ever instant star fic, so don't kill me if it blows, just don't read it, but anyhow I do hope that you all like it and I get at least a couple reviews smiles sweetly. Here's for your full summary, my story is set just after 'Date with the Night' and it explores Jude's reaction to Tommy leaving.

Everybody leaves her, gives her up, hurts her, or betrays her. Shay. Jamie. Kat. Spied. Her Mom. Her Dad. And now Tommy. All she has left is Mason, and she loves him more than anything. But she can't take it after Tommy, the hurt and betrayal is just to much. If everyone leaves why shouldn't she? So she disappears without a trace. Who will find her? Who will look? Who will give up? Who will never stop until they get her home again?

Chapter 1 – Eyes Cry Real Tears

Her eyes were red from crying and she was sick of it. It was a week later and she still couldn't stop the tears from falling. She closed her eyes as a fresh set began to spill down her face burning her cheeks with memories of him. Jude wanted to laugh at how pathetic she was being, about how worked up she was getting. It was all over him, a worthless guy. She tried to get herself to believe that, to believe that he really didn't mean anything to her. But he did, and the more she tried to deny it the more she realised it.

Jude Harrison loves Tom Quincy.

As he stared at the little girl fast asleep on the bed in front of him he gasped realising just how much she looked like him. Like it or not. He had a daughter, and this daughter didn't have a mother. She was dead, and that was why he was here. He could so easily have told the girls grandfather that he wanted nothing more to do with her, god knows he had been given so many chances, but he just couldn't bring himself to say the few simple words. She was his daughter. He was angry at Aby for not telling him, maybe then he would have stayed with her and never met Jude, and never fallen so hard for her. There was just something about the girl, yeah she was seven years younger than him, but when he was with her things were just electric. He knew he could never really wish he had never met Jude. Every time he looked at the little girl sleeping he wanted to cry. This time he gave himself the satisfaction of letting a few tears roll down his cheeks, and it was then that he said it out loud.

'Tom Quincy loves Jude Harrison.'

No matter how many times she had wanted to say that out loud she just couldn't, and he could. That made his feelings for her a lot stronger than hers for him, even though it was her that had initiated the romantic interest. Wrong. It just meant that she was afraid, and she was not ready to get hurt again, by him. She thought that maybe if she said it that it would be finalized and she would never be able to take it back and if she just thought it she could always deny that and there would be no proof. She knew that wasn't true but it made her feel so much better. She knew it didn't work like that, but she didn't care, it made her feel better.

She moved over to the cabinet in her bathroom and lifted the razor blade from the shelf, lifting up her shirt she stared in the mirror at the cuts that littered her flat stomach. That was the only place she could hide them, the people at G-Major knew that she didn't like to show her stomach so they left her alone on that, and they were hidden. She laughed as the blade pierced her abdomen the crimson blood shining against the brilliant white color of her skin. She cleaned up the wound satisfied, for at least another few hours. Dropping back on her bed she was deep in thought about, well, everything. She didn't want to think about him but she just couldn't help it. She began to sob almost silently as the rolled over under her comforter, falling into yet another night of restless sleep.

Sadie sighed and for what felt like the millionth time this week released her had from the doorknob of Jude's room. The sobs had finally began to fade and Sadie realised that Jude had fallen asleep. She found herself in the same position every night, always wanting to break that barrier and go inside Jude's room, but something always stopped her. Sure the sobs had faded and she realised that Jude had fallen into some kind of restless sleep but it was a lot deeper than that and she knew it. There was always something else that stopped her setting foot inside Jude's room. Something different. Something deeper. It was like her sanctuary now, her safe place to run to whenever things got tough, which just happened to be a lot lately. She never let anyone up there anymore. If Mason ever came to hang out she always made an excuse to stay out of her room, it was her hideaway, her safe place. She was so worried about her little sister.

Sadie was right, Jude's room was her safe place, her escape. The one place she could go when things got tough. But she couldn't escape from her thoughts, and they maybe, were the most dangerous thing of all...

Thank you all for reading and please review, it means a lot. Just so you know I got this whole story written so if anyone decides to read it then it should all be up pretty soon. What can I say? I had a lot of free writing time on holiday in Spain and from reading a couple stories by some of you guys I got inspired :D.

Cheers Dudes pls R&R Hope ya liked!

Luv Y'all

Sofi x