Alone
Kaoru
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran, if I did it would be filled with yaoi...
I watched him leave. Leave our world, the world we had built together. And it hurt. It really hurt. Every time I saw them walk away. Him walk away. I couldn't breathe. I smiled, I laughed, but it was just an act. An act, as usual. I'd acted through my whole life. From the day I was born. From pretending to be Hikaru, so he didn't had to eat his potatoes, to the host club and now.
I watched him. He never noticed. He was too absorbed in his little world. His new little world. The world he had created with her. I saw them laugh, smile to each other and I just wanted to cry. I just wanted to break down and cry my heart out.
He didn't notice me anymore. When he wasn't with her, he talked about her. I was just a listener, someone he could spend time with until he could be with her again. I was just something you could play with, and then throw away when something better showed up. A thing to make the minutes go faster.
He smiled alot when he was with her. I wondered if he was happier with her than he had been with me. He had never smiled that much when he was with me. Not even when we played pranks on Tono. I wonder, if he was truly happy.
He left me. He left me all alone. We had always been together, always been each others world. It was the two of us, and no one else. It was us against the rest of the world. As long as I can remember.
We both refused to let others into our world. No one was good enough. No one understood us as well as we understood each other. No one ever cared about us except ourselves. Except each other. No one bothered to understand that we were two different people. That we wasn't the same. The outside doesn't reflect the inside.
I watched him leave. Leave me. Leave me alone, even though we had promised each other a long time ago to always be there for each other. I didn't speak of my pain. I was afraid if I opened my mouth, I wouldn't be able to stop screaming.
They other was worried, I could tell, but they didn't understand. None of them had a twin. They were the only ones who saw me falling apart. I saw the looks they gave to each other, the eyes the sent me. I didn't want their pity. They all had someone to rely on, someone to trust. Hunny had Mori, Kyouya had Tamaki, Mori had Hunny and Tamaki had Kyouya. And...and Hikaru had Haruhi.
I was the one on the outside, number seven. I was the one who wasn't with someone, I was...I was alone. If I hadn't been there, they could be them self, three lovely couples, three pairs of best friends.
It had always been me and Hikaru. No one said Hikaru whit out saying Kaoru. No one said Kaoru whitout saying Hikaru. It had always been us and them. It had always us two, no matter what. Even after we joined the host club. If I needed someone, I knew that I could trust Hikaru. I knew that I could rely on him. Every time I fell, he was there to catch me. Now, when I fell, I scratched my knees. No one was there to comfort me, no one was there to catch me anymore.
I looked at him when he looked at her. His face glowed and his eyes shined.
I watched him leave me.
And when he told me that he loved her, I slit my wrist.
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