In my veins

by detsmartypants13

Song fic! Possibly a two-shot, I'm not sure... The song is In my veins by Andrew Belle. This is really angsty but there isn't much dialogue, sorry. Maura's POV but can be read as Jane's. Feel free to review, I love them :) DISCLAIMER: Don't own R&I, all rights to owners. Same goes for the song, all rights and copyright goes to the owner :)

Nothing goes as planned
Everything will break
People say goodbye
In their own special way
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day

I can't believe I did something as stupid as that! She loves him not me. I should have just left it... I should have buried my feelings like I have all those times before. I'm such an idiot!

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out

I've messed up our whole friendship. I can still feel how her lips felt on mine. It's all I can think about. I was sure she wanted this. How could I have got it so wrong?!

Everything will change
Nothing stays the same
Nobody here's perfect
Oh, but everyone's to blame
Oh, all that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day

She said yes. She's agreed to marry him. I'm going to lose the love of my life and it's all because of some stupid mistake I made. She's going to marry him.

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you
Oh no, I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you

He doesn't deserve her. She deserves so much better. I thought that's what I was to her. I thought I was better.

Everything is dark
It's more than you can take
But you catch a glimpse of sun light
Shining, shining down on your face
On your face
On your face

I'm used to waking up and seeing her next to me. She was always there. Even when she wasn't supposed to be. Now he gets her. Every day and night. I'm supposed to be the one there for her! Not him. Not anyone. Me.

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out
Oh, you're in my veins
No, I cannot get you out
Oh no, I cannot get you

I just want her. I need her. I wanted and needed for her to say something. But no. I kissed her. She kissed me back, looked at me and ran. She ran away. From me. She ran to him. That's what hurts the most. She's leaving me for him. All I can picture is her. What she would look like in my bed. Screaming my name. I love her. And I thought she loved me too.