I don't know what comes over me when I see him. When those eyes come to meet mine. He used to look angry at me, but that's changed now. Have I changed? Not that I've realized. Amy remains the center of my life, my purpose, my reason to be and yet, on the side I have him.
I don't know where this attraction began. Fate? Possibly. I don't believe in such a thing, really, but it's hard to not believe that I was supposed to meet him. And what a meeting it was! A bloody affair. Even though he wasn't himself, I realize I found him to be quite striking. Part of me wanted to see him again. The moment he stepped into the cathedral I knew he was different than when we had first engaged in battle and yet, he remains the only one to ever beat me, and still, he lets me live. After he finished what needed finishing, he came and helped me up. He is good. A goodness I've only found in Amy before.
"Where are you going to go? To do?" I had asked as he propped me up on his shoulder.
"I don't know," had been his response.
"Well…take me home to start."
He has been following me ever since, remaining close to my side and following whatever orders from me he sees fit. He is the only one brave enough to argue with me when he feels I am wrong and the only one aside from Amy who's opinion I will consider. Amy likes him as well and in turn, he is very kind to her, an act which makes me smile and confirmed what I realized was a feeling of love.
As I lay here in bed, his well muscled arms holding me close as he slumbers, I think about what he sees in me. All I know is I am glad that he sees it. I kiss his forehead and whisper how much I love him. A smile peeks out from the serious look he has when he sleeps. "Good night, Siegfried," I finish as I lay my head back down and drift into sleep.
(Schu notes: Yah, this has nothing to do with Guarding, but it's cute, no? Ah, Raphael you secretly romantic little rascal you. I may do Siegfried's side of this in the future. God, I love this pairing. It's just so there!)