I don't know what to say. All my life I have been full of things to say, opinions to express. Yet, when it comes to one of the most important things I will ever, ever tell anyone I have no idea what to say. You have ALWAYS been there for me, ALWAYS been the first one to comfort me after a mission, You have ALWAYS been EVERYTHING to me. There are no words to express the way I feel about you; the way I have ALWAYS felt about you.
I still remember the day I first saw you. I was sent to kill the elusive Black Widow. The one and only. One of the deadliest, most feared person in the entire world. I thought that it would be just another assignment; another mission. I had NO IDEA how wrong I was. When I think back to that day I wonder how I could have ever thought of you as another mission. I couldn't go through with it. I couldn't kill you. I've never told you why. It's because I saw myself in your eyes. You were lost and all you needed was to be found. When the rumors spread about you and the only thing anybody ever saw you as was a killer. Nobody stopped to wonder about who you were. I have to admit I wouldn't have either. Yet I remember when I was lost, someone found me, Coulson. He gave me another chance. I had to give you the same opportunity. I don't want to think about what would have happened if I wasn't the one to have been sent to kill you.
I wish I would have told you sooner how I what you mean to me. What you have ALWAYS meant to me. I wish it could be under better circumstances. Through all the years and missions I have somehow fell in love with you. And I know that love is for children. If that is true then I am a 2 year old because I DESPERATELY love you. I cannot believe I am finally admitting this as I lay here. I wish I would have had the strength and courage to tell you sooner.
I don't blame you for not coming sooner, by the way. You didn't know. None of you knew there was anything out of the ordinary. I can hear all of you in the distance; all of you fighting your way into the compound. I know you came as soon as you could. I know something you don't though. You're too late. I won't even make it back to base. You will all be fine without me. I know you'll make it through. You ALWAYS will. If you ever want to stop pushing yourself, if you ever can't find a reason, then do it for me. Because, Tasha, if you look, I will ALWAYS be in your heart.
I will ALWAYS love you,
Clint