Darkness of My Past

By: Riley

Summary – "There are two ways to go about having a secret; confide in someone you trust or keep your mouth shut. Guess which option I chose." A past that was kept hidden is coming back full force. ABUSE/LANGUAGE/VIOLENCE/ACTION Kendall/OC Logan/OC

.:Chapter One – New Beginning:.

"Go, go, go, go, go, go, go, GOGOGOGO! YES!"

Katie Knight slapped her hands over her ears and leaned over the arm of the couch as her brother and his friends started to jump up and down, screaming at the top of their lungs. They were watching a Minnesota Wild hockey game and apparently they had scored a goal. Well, Katie wasn't even entirely sure about that, they screamed and cheered, and shouted so much she wasn't even sure if they were even watching the game or was trying to beat each other in a contest to see who could be louder.

All she knew was that when it look like they were about to scream, she had to slap her hands over her eras and get out of the way of their flying appendages. She had already received a blow to her forehead and she wasn't about to make that mistake again.

She watched as Kendall, her big brother, sat back down on the couch, his hands clasped together, his elbows resting on his knees, and his jaw clenched as he stared hard at the TV. His knees were shaking, an obvious reaction to the close score and the last minute ticking by. She hoped that the Minnesota Wild would win, because if they didn't, he would be in a bad mood for the rest of the day. He was so invested in hockey, he stupidly made it that his mood for the day was a direct reflection of how well the Minnesota Wild played. And if it wasn't there game for the Wild, there was a game for the Maple Leafs that caused his mood swings.

She looked over at his best friends and her 'brothers' James Diamond, Carlos Garcia, and Logan Mitchell. The three of them were watching the game just as intently as Kendall, but with different degrees of fascination. Katie could easily say that none of them were as invested to the team as Kendall was, but they were still HUGE hockey fans. Logan was watching the game as well as scribbling in a notebook, probably writing down their stats so he could come up with the probability of their win.

Or something as stupid and mathematical as that, Katie thought to herself, rolling her eyes as she crossed he arms over her chest, settling back into the couch. Half of the time I'm sure he doesn't even breathe without counting how many times he does it in a minute for some sort of stupid science experiment.

Katie's eyes shifted over to James. Katie and everyone else in the world knew that James Diamond cared about his looks and only his looks. It wasn't his fault though, most of that was brought onto him because of his mother, Brooke Diamond, who had her own line of cosmetics, and if it wasn't for the guys convincing her to let him stay in LA with them to continue as the band Big Time Rush, then he wouldn't be there at that point. Sure, he could be vain, but he loved hockey and all other contact sports almost as much as the next guy. When he had a helmet on, or when he was sure that there was no way his face could be touched, he was just as ruthless as any football player.

But you can't not expect him to freak as soon as a single strand of his hair is out of place. Katie tried not to laugh at the thought. Then you've got to get ready to have a beat down.

Last but now least, she looked at Carlos and she nearly lost it there. He had one eye on the TV and the other on Katie's mother, Kacy Knight*, who was bustling around the kitchen, finishing up dinner. When it came to his two loves, hockey and food, Carlos Garcia was not going to choose between the two of them. If he wasn't singing or dancing for Big Time Rush, he was either playing lobby hockey or eating corn dogs. He was easily the most energetic, and that was seen as he was bouncing up and down on the floor, sniffing occasionally and giving sighs of contentment as he got a good whiff of the spaghetti and meatballs that Kacy, or Mama Knight as everyone affectionately called her, was preparing.

"30 seconds left… Cullen makes a breakaway…he gets past the defense…brings back his stick and-"

Suddenly the door leading to the swirly slide was kicked open with enough force that it hit the wall behind it, accidentally puncturing the wall. Mrs. Knight let out a loud scream, dropping a set of forks onto the counter, which in turn caused Katie to scream and jump, at the same time that the four teenage boys leapt to their feet and started to jump up and down, screaming at the top of their lungs and exchanging high-fives.

"Hey," an accented voice stated calmly from above them.

"HEY," Carlos said as Katie turned and looked up towards the swirly slide and spotting her friends, the raven-haired and blue eyed Jackson-McGuires.

Katie gave a wave as Carlos started to wave both of his arms above his head in excitement. She couldn't help but laugh when she saw the odd looks on her fiends' faces as they looked down at the four boys that were screaming like banshees. "GUESS WHAT? WE WON!"

"Really?" Patrick gave a lopsided smile. "I would have thought that you had just seen a spider or something." He turned and flung himself down the swirly slide, landing on his stomach on the floor. "Oof!"

"Watch out!" Sydney, the youngest, cried as he and Noah then slid down after them, Rhuben quickly following behind, the three of them crashing down on top of Patrick. Katie laughed at Patrick's grunt of pain, his face turning a little bit red. She laughed even harder as he started to kick his legs frantically, trying to get free. "Oh look, we squished him, eh, good riddance." He giggled as he got off of Patrick's back and ran over to Katie. "Hey Katie!" He greeted with a bright smile and threw his arms around her in a tight hug.

"Hey Sydney," Katie gave him a hug back. "You seem to be in a good mood today." She remarked and then rolled her eyes as Sydney went over to the other boys …who were still cheering. Then again, when is he not smiling?

"Hi Mama Knight," Sydney added as he strolled over to help Katie's mother. The 10 year old boy smiled impishly up at her, noticing that she had a hand over her chest. "Sorry for scaring you, do you need help?"

"It's no problem Sydney," Mrs. Knight replied, taking a few deep breaths. "Don't worry, I needed a jumpstart to my heart today," she gave a chuckle before grabbing a handful of spoons and turning to him. "And yes, I could use some help setting the table, thanks for the offer."

Sydney beamed as he turned and started to walk around the table, putting out the spoons.

"Pie coming down," Riley called, brushing her red strand of hair from her face and knelt down towards the opening of the swirly slide and gently placed a warm pie that was covered in saran wrap on the edge of the slide and gently pushed it down. She stood up and leaned over the railing of the swirly slide and watched as Rhuben caught it before sliding down the slide herself. "Ow!" She cried as he butt hit the floor. "Man, you really need to put some pillows down here."

Katie moved close to Rhuben and glanced at the pie that she held in her hands, smelling the air lightly and smiling when she recognized it as Apple Pie. Her favorite desert, that totally made her day even better. She reached out to help Riley to her feet, but Logan beat her to it.

"Well if we knew you were coming, we would have, Landy." Logan replied, using his special nickname for her as he rounded the couch and pulled her to her feet with a sharp tug on her hands. She then took the pie from Rhuben's hands and walked over to the kitchen and placed it on the empty spot on the counter. "Where's Ronan?"

"Right here," Katie turned with the others as Ronan McGuire announced his arrival from the front door, where he was leaning against the doorframe, loosening his tie. "What?" He raised an eyebrow, giving Logan and odd look. "Did you think that I would fit down that slide?" His eyes then slid over to Kendall, James, and Carlos, who were flailing around in front of the TV as the audience at the hockey game went nuts. "What are they doing?"

"Their happy dance," Logan replied as he turned and looked over his shoulder and watched his friends act like idiots.

"The Wild just won their game." Katie explained, rolling her eyes.

"Oh."

"Have you guys always been this drongo or am I just noticing it?" Rhuben asked as she raised an eyebrow, watching the three of them dance oddly. She looked over at Noah, who just smiled and shook his head.

"I don't know what you just said, but they've always been like that." Katie replied with a laugh of her own. She grinned at her five friends. All five of them held different measures of amusement in thier faces, but she could tell that they were each thinking that the guys were acting like doofuses.

Riley, Rhuben, Patrick, Noah, and Sydney Jackson-McGuire were some of the first people that Big Time Rush had met when they first arrived in LA to start Big Time Rush, a little over a year ago. Their father, Robert Jackson, had been their manager at the time and Ronan their music producer for their family band the DarkElements. Australian natives, the five of them had gone to LA shortly before Big Time Rush were created to break the American market after they had MASSIVE amounts of success in their home country for the past 8 years, having started heir band at such a young age. The first year, BTR realized that they were acting different and found out they were being abused. They helped send Robert to jail and then Ronan started their adoption process and three and a half months ago Ronan officially adopted them and their oldest brother Julius officially, so he stepped ups his role to be their father, manager, and music producer.

After BTR had met the DarkElements, they had quickly been taken under their wing to try and have a lot of success in the music industry and so far they had been doing a good job as they had released their first CD, BTR, and it had gone gold and they were currently working on their second one. The DarkElements consisted of 17 year old twins Riley and Rhuben, 15 year old twins Patrick and Noah, and 10 year old Sydney. Ronan had been in the music industry for years and when the DarkElements started to help BTR with their music, he started to collaborate with BTR's music producer Gustavo Rocque and his assistant Kelly Wainright, whom he had known for years as well, then they brought in Mrs. Knight, the guys' momager and all of them became one big group of friends/co-workers.

Katie looked over at Riley and Rhuben, similar yet different in their own style. To help others tell them apart, Riley had a lock of her mid back-length black hair dyed red, an up in a simple ponytail while Rhuben had a lock of her hair dyed purple and in a ponytail, two pieces framing her face. The two of them were Kendall, Logan, Carlos, and James' age, but they easily became her friend after they bonded over their mutual thought of the guys constantly acting stupid. Riley was the 'leader' of her family and thier band, always deciding what they were going to do and could sometimes be mean, but she had a good heart and cared about her friends. Rhuben, on the oher hand, was Riley's 'right-hand-man' and would give her two cents in on the plan. Usually you wouldn't know what she was thinking, but she had a way of looking at you that could make you feel like the lowest creature on the planet. But like her sister, she was caring about her friends.

Katie then moved her eyes over to Patrick and Noah and she had to will herself not to blush. The two of them were her absolute best friends and while they were twins like Riley and Rhuben, they were no more opposite than anyone else she knew. While Patrick was loud and outgoing, Noah was quiet and somewhat shy. But Katie was one of the first people that didn't make fun of the two of them for the same reasons that other did, Noah for being so quiet and seemingly unwilling to defend himself, and Patrick for being kind of slow at times. She enjoyed having the two of them around and honestly wouldn't know what she would do for fun without them, because they were always willing to her her 'get rich quick schemes'.

She looked over at Sydney and chuckled, when she noticed that he was secretly videotaping Kendall, Carlos, and James. Although he was 10 years old, he was smarter than her, Logan, and anyone else she knew. She didn't believe Patrick at first when he said that Sydney was a genius, but she now knew it was true, especially after he had completely upgraded her laptop's RAM, memory, and speed all in the span of an hour. Although he was the youngest of his siblings he was always listened to and abused the fact that he was cute. He was always smiling and seemed genuinely happy about almost everything.

Finally, she looked over at Ronan, who was talking with her mom. Katie had to admit, he was very good looking, and she was surprised to learn that he was only 35, when he didn't look that old, resembling someone in their twenties. He was a music producer like Gustavo, but unlike Gustavo he was laid back and so successful he owned his own record company and was the boss of the whole company, but stuck with producing music for his kids. He hardly got mad, and seemed to know what his kids were doing before they did it, and only kept sane by asking that unless someone was hurt they didn't tell him about it. He was probably the only adult that she thought was pretty cool.

"So I'm guessing that because they won we can be sure that Hockey-Head is going to be in a good mood," Riley stated as she placed her hands on her hips and smirked over at the leader of Big Time Rush.

"Haha," Kendall replied as he stopped dancing. "Not even your very annoying nickname can bring down my mood today."

Riley raised a hand and gestured towards the TV where the Minnesota Wild players were taking a victory lap around the ice rink. "If the nickname fits."

Kaite couldn't help but smile at their exchange. It's not like he doesn't deserve it, he eats, sleeps, and breathes hockey.

"You're late," James stated as he finally turned away from the TV and looked at his watch. "Normally you guys are here right at 6:30." For a while the Jacksons had managed to have dinner with the guys and Katie every Friday, so they decided to make a tradition about it.

"We had some extra work to do at the studio today," Noah explained in his quiet voice, flicking his head to the side so his hair moved from his face. "Some of our stuff was erased and we had to re-record it." He looked amused. "Plus there were a lot of Taylor Swift fans running around because there was a rumor that she was there."

Katie laughed and then pointed over to Carlos, while holding her free hand beside her mouth, pretending to whisper. "If she was there, you should have gotten her autograph for Carlos, he would have flipped."

"You're actually admitting that you, a guy, like Taylor Swift?" Sydney asked as he paused in his setting the table, giving Carlos and odd look.

Carlos nodded defensively. Something about the way that Sydney had asked the question, and the way that he was looking at him, caused him to suddenly feel defensive. But he couldn't help but continue to smile anyway; nothing really ever got Carlos Garcia down for more than a few seconds or minutes. "Yep!" He stated with a proud nod and then grinned even wider. "But wait till I tell you guys how much I like High School Musical!"

"Trust me, you don't want to hear this," Logan said, totally deadpan, and turned back to the TV that had caught his attention. Something about being a little more careful…? Logan's eyebrows furrowed together as he grabbed the remote and turned up the volume a little bit, keeping his eyes glued to the TV.

Katie turned, noticing the volume had risen and watched as well, moderately interested.

"In local news, a suburban man named Lucas McMahon was found shot dead outside of his house this morning. Apparently he was on his way to work, and had just stepped outside of the door when he was shot. His wife, Macy, had heard the gunshot and ran to see what happened, finding her husband on the front porch, shot in the chest. There were no witnesses and so far there are no suspects to the crime. Luca McMahon was pronounced dead on his arrival at the hospital."

"Logan, turn that off and come sit for dinner," Mrs. Knight called as she set the table, ceramic plates clanging together as she gathered them from the cabinets. She handed them to Ronan who walked around and placed them on the table as the others quickly rushed to grab their places.

"Coming," Logan said slowly, watching as the picture of the murdered man came up on screen. He was somewhat young, probably in his thirties. He had a wife, maybe he had kids. And now her husband, their father was gone. Just like that.

"Logan?" Katie called again as he continued to look at the TV. She walked up behind him and lightly rapped him on the head with her knuckles. "Come on, it's Spaghetti, remember?"

Logan shut off the TV and placed the remote on the table in front of him. He got up from the couch and turned to go join his friends at the dinner table, but stopped when he noticed Patrick looking at the TV, a thoughtful expression on his face.

"Something wrong, dude?" Logan asked, giving him a friendly squeeze on the shoulder.

"No, not at all."

A/N: First chapter was kind of slow, but it's a recap of my characters to those who don't know them, but a refresher to those who do. I don't own BTR, only my OCs Ronan McGuire, Julius, Riley, Rhuben, Patrick, Noah, and Sydney Jackson-McGuire, and Brittany McNabb. (Not all of them appeared in this chapter, but I wanted to name all of my OCs) There are some other ones appearing as well.

Yep, finally, a new BTRxDE story, since I haven't written about them for a while, I started to miss it. For those of you who don't like BTRxOC fics, please check out my strictly BTR only stories called Fairy Tale Nightmare and Ready To Roll I know you'll love them.

Alright, so this idea I have had for a loooooooooong time and had been contemplating putting in my 'With Friends Like These' series, but eventually ended up not doing that, because I didn't want to make it seem like EVERYTHING bad happened to my characters at one time, so I decided to make a separate story of it. While the plot/drama does focus on my OCs, I'm going to try really hard NOT to make the first few chapters focus on them, because I want you guys to guess what the deal is with them.

Do you have any guesses yet? And if you're confused, each chapter is a song title, and they may/may not have something to do with what's going to happen later in the story…

So with that, I hope you guys liked this chapter, although it's kind of short, and I'll update again soon.

Cheers,

-Riles