A Letter To Dean

by Imagination-Ignites

Dean finds a scrap of paper tucked in the backseat of Baby. He's prayed to Cas for months, but hasn't received a response. Is he alright? Is he in danger? Nothing can prepare him for the contents in Cas's letter. (Wrote this on the fly, so please let me know if you want more letters like this in the future!)

Everyone said I shouldn't do it, but I'd watched you since you were a child, and I just couldn't leave you to rot in Hell. You, Dean Winchester, deserved to be saved, and I will forever treasure that decision as the best thing I'd ever done.

You taught me the value of free will—in fact—I think I've learned more from you the short time I spent with you than all of my existence. I learned the beauty of simplicity, the beauty of a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I learned the worth of speaking your own mind, being unique, being defiant. I learned the pure nature of forgiveness. I learned how to care, how to love. Although, I never understood why you leave your name and number before the beep. Besides the point, you were my source of inspiration, and I will treasure every single word you spoke.

Dean Winchester, no matter where I was, you were always there for me. I'm sorry I wasn't always there for you. I never deserved your love and forgiveness, not after all I'd done to you, to your brother. Yet somehow, you relinquished your anger, and forgave me. You have no idea how much I craved to hear the words, "Cas, it's fine" or "You don't need to apologize. Don't worry about it." Despite everything, you were my one constant. You deserved so much more than me. You deserved everything in the world, and yet you still cared about me.

Hopefully, I haven't bored you yet Dean, but if you are reading this I am gone. Dead or just plain gone, I want you to know that I won't be coming back. Against all odds, we've been together for so long, but now I guess it's time to say goodbye for good. I hope I got to say to you everything I wanted you to hear. Shown you everything I wanted you to see. I pray that you and Sam will go and continue to do amazing things, and maybe, just maybe, from where I am now I will get to see you do it.

I wish I could say goodbye to you in person I want to look at you, feel your embrace, hear your voice for the last time.

Thank you for everything.

I will miss you Dean Winchester.

Please don't forget me,

Castiel

P.S. Just in case I never got to say it… Never mind… I think you already know it.