Well, fellows I am back once more. And guess what? More Bensaro is here! It takes place during "Pattern Seventeen" and it contains some kinda spoilers. Attention everyone! In this story Rollaro NEVER happened (sorry Rollaro shippers). Probably an one shot but if you guys want more I'll be happy to continue.

Enjoy and review! Oh and don't forget: I own nothing just this crazy idea!

"She's not answering " He announced urgency evident in his voice. He got no answer for the fifth time for the last half an hour and crashed the phone's holder back to its place. He looked at everyone gathered around him, anxiously waiting for a response. He started pacing back and forth in her office. Silence was set in the room, but was soon broken.

"She told you this was not a good idea, but you insisted anyway. It's been two hours she's been gone. What is taking so long?" Amaro accused him raising slightly his voice and geting more and more irritated because of the situation.

"Just calm down, Nick, I am sure she's fine, maybe she's driving and can't pick it up"Fin tried to reason him in vain.

Amanda was as pale as a ghost and she was frantically typing at her laptop, trying to find another camera of the building that was actually working.

Deputy kept pacing around and retorted Nick : "Well, Detective if my memory is not playing games I remember that Sergeant Benson was the one that she insisted going alone on this."

Nick approached him greeting his teeth : "Anything and I mean ANYTHING happens to her, you find a place to hide for the rest of your life" he warned him.

"You do realize that you're threatening a Deputy Chief, right?"he answered back angrily.

"You do realize that I am damn serious about this, right?" Nick retorted.

"Guys I got something. I found another security camera on the second floor" she kept typing and then the footage came into view.

They froze,they couldn't think, talk or even breath for what felt like an eternity. Rafael who hadn't said anything till then gasped loudly and asked uncertainly : "Is she...?"

Nick said back a fainting "yes" and felt his eyes burning and his heart melting. This could not be happening, not again, not after what she's been through the past year, not when she was starting to be herself again with her baby. It was his fault. Again. He left her go back home and Lewis got her. Now he let her go alone at the remoted area, following a lead. He should have been there to protect her, but he failed again. Amanda felt her heart stop for seconds as she locked eyes with Fin's frightened ones. Deputy Dodds as the more unbiased by any personal relationship with Olivia, acted quickly. He grabbed the office phone and dialed 911.

"This is Deputy Chief William Dodds, I need a bus at the corner of the Anderson and Langston Street, East Manhattan. I need it now. I got an officer unconscious. She's not responding. Sergeant Olivia Benson, Manhattan SVU. I need all units to swipe off the whole building for the assailant. White, male, 5.6'.Last seen on the second floor of the abandoned building where he knocked Sergeant Benson unconscious. The suspect is considered armed and dangerous, had committed three rapes in the past five weeks." he yelled at the 911 responder.

"All units are headed to the Anderson and Langston Corner and an ambulance is on his way, Deputy" the responder answered coldly and Chief hung up without another word. Nick snapped out of the initial shock and started jogging to the door heading for East Manhattan. Fin and Amanda followed him wordlessly.

"Put your vests on now"the Chief ordered trying to avoid any collateral damage and followed them right behind. Barba was left standing in the middle of her office, feeling completely helpless.

They got out of the squad car before it come into a halt and made their way through the squad cars and the officers. The daylight started fading away and the blue and red police lights were creating shadows on the surrounding buildings.

Nick followed right behind leaving the car engine on and soon the building was full with SWAT teams and officers. Fin and Amanda made it first to the second floor and headed quickly to the right looking for Olivia. Nick with Dodds turned to the left following the other corridor. Soon officers followed them. They searched every turn of the floor, opened every door and Olivia was nowhere to be found.

"Are you sure she's at the 2nd floor?" Chief questioned Amanda as they met in the middle of the corridor.

"Yeah. I am positive she's here" she verified.

Nick started again searching the rooms yelling her name, but silence was the only response.

"Clear, all the floors are clear, Deputy" an officer said through their earpiece.

Their eyes locked and panic set in. Where was she? Did he take her somewhere? Was she alive? Was he alive? Their thoughts were abruptly interrupted by another officer in the earpiece.

"Search again. Every single inch of the building and ask for more backup to search the perimeter. Find him and more importantly the Sergeant" he barked and again everyone started searching every space of the building.

Nick and Amanda shared concerned looks as Fin check his watch. 15 minutes had passed and she was nowhere to be found. The feeling set in. The same damn feeling of helplessness that they all experienced not far back, last April.

"We may got something, 4th floor,second door to the left is locked. There are some bloody fingerprints right in front of the door."

"Wait for me" the Chief ordered and the four of them made their way to the fourth floor. As they approached Nick called her name without getting any answer. He tried again.

"Liv, Olivia, it's me, Nick. Can you hear me?... Are you ok?" He held his breath as all of them waited to hear her voice.

"I am fine, it's ok..." Her voice sounded distant, in pain as if making a huge attempt to talk or even breath.

"Can you open the door, please?" Nick asked gently.

"Is this douchebag, Dodds, here?" She asked causing some discreet laughter to all the officers around.

"Yep, I am here, Sergeant"

"Did you find the bastard?"

"..."

"Did you Dodds?" She demanded gasping because of the pain.

"No. Not yet. But there are SWAT teams searching the perimeter and the surrounding area" he said defeated.

She unlocked the door and came into view. A collective gasp was heard as she stumbled, blood dripping from her lower abdomen, a huge bruise on her left cheek and some tearing on her temple. Fin and Nick approached her making sure she wouldn't fall and Amanda run to find the paramedics.

"Hey, what happened, Liv?" Fin demanded.

"He stabbed me with a military knife while we were fighting. I punched him back in the face, he lost his balance and..." She whispered.

"It's ok. We got you. Just breath, just breath" Nick held her hand and applied pressure to the wound while Fin helped him to lay her down.

"He threatened to hurt Noah. Where is Noah?" She asked anxiously waiting for a response.

"He's fine Liv, he's with my mother, ok? Don't worry, just breath" Nick reassured her.

She did as she was told and soon the paramedics arrived taking her to the ambulance and straight to Mercy Hospital.

"Deputy we got him" the arresting officer shouted at Dodds, who was ready to leave the scene, and approached him."Where is he?" Dodds demanded and scanned his perimeter, founding no sign of the suspect.

"Um... He's right there, Sir." The officer pointed a black body bag entering the M.E.'s van.

Deputy sighed and looked at the young officer.

"Who shot him?"

"No one, it seems like Sergeant Benson stabbed him and he made it to the alley at the back of the building, probably trying to escape. We found him there"

"Ok. That's enough for me. Save the rest for IAB" the Chief told him and the rookie went pale. Who wasn't afraid of the IAB, anyway?

"You can see her, now, but one at a time" the Doctor informed them as they all stood to enter the room.

"How is she, Doctor?" Amanda asked concern evident in her voice.

"We lost her some time in the I.C.U., she has lost a significant amount of blood but now she is pulling through. The CT scan came back and there is no brain damage or any internal bleeding. Right now she is pretty out of it because of the pain medication and she needs rest. I suggest at least three days under close observation in order to make sure that there are no other complications" the Doctor sounded optimistic and the four of them smiled at her, thanking her for her services.

"Can I go first, because I have preliminary hearing in 20'?" Barba asked.

"Yeah, go" Nick urged him as he entered her room.

Olivia opened her eyes coming face to face with a smiling Rafael. She smiled back and opened her mouth to speak.

"Don't talk, the Doctor said no talking at all" he joked

"Well... That would be very convenient for you,Counselor, wouldn't it?" She answered groggily and smirked at him.

"I am glad you're ok." He smiled genuinely.

"Me too."

"Well, I have a..."

"Preliminary hearing. I know, I remember you telling me about it yesterday."

"Well, now we don't have to worry about you having a concussion or memory loss, for that matter" he smiled and with a nod and a smirk made his way out of the room.

As Barba left the three detectives sneaked into the room and Olivia smiled at them.

"Let me guess, you sneaked in here because the Doctor said one at a time?" She asked as she closed her smiled at her as Fin and Amanda locked their eyes and shared a knowing look.

"Did you find him?" She asked anxiously.

"You did a pretty good job at slicin' the guy. That good that he ended up in a body bag" Amanda said proudly.

"Good" Olivia let out a long breath and opened her eyes to make sure this wasn't some stupid hallucination caused by the medication. She tried to sit up but cursed under her breath as an excruciating pain cut her like a knife.

"Hey, take it easy, baby girl. The Doc said you need rest" Fin tried to reason her using his characteristic nickname for her.

She smiled at him and felt her skin burning because of the slight movement.

"Can you hand me a mirror?"she asked locking eyes with Nick.

"Umm... Let me see" he searched in the nearby drawers and found the item he was looking for.

As he passed it to her she gently touched her now turning into a deep shade of grey cheek and looked at the mirror. She sighed deeply and then touched her bandaged forehead and her lightly swollen lip.

"God, this is worse than the last time." She whispered so discreetly that they almost missed it. But none of them did. Olivia's words set in and an echoing silence filled the room. Their eyes remained glued at the floor and their minds went back to May of 2013. She was right. Maybe she wasn't as far as traumatized as the last time, but Lewis haven't hurt her so badly, at least not physically. This time the assailant was full of rage, anger and he had none self control and he was ex military. He had beaten her up and it was a true miracle that she was still with them. She got "lucky" once more.

"When can I get home?" she asked expectantly.

"The doctor said in about three days" Amanda told her the bad news.

"Oh God, just kill me already! I have a squad to run and a baby boy to take care of at home." She complained quietly while her eyes started getting heavier.

"Just take some time and we will take care of the rest, don't worry, we gotcha." Fin reassured her.

"That's what scares me the most" she joked as she dosed off.

Fin and Amanda made their way out as Nick decided to keep her some company, even though she was asleep.

She opened her eyes abruptly and she tried to get up but the immediate pain on her abdomen made her regret her action and instead tried to control her erratic breathing. She looked around her and the first thing that came into view was her partner's big brown eyes looking at her with worry.

"Hey" she whispered.

"You had a nightmare?" His brown eyes full of fear, concern, care, love.

She couldn't lie, not to him. It was pointless to say otherwise when he had just seen her acting like that.

"Yeah..." She whispered again.

"You want me to call the nurse?"

"No" she said quietly.

"You ok?"

"Not really." This time a little louder.

"Wanna talk about it?"

"Not really"

And then it hit them both like a ton of bricks. It was like a déjà vu. Their eyes locked and they knew that both of them remembered the exact same words that had been spoken before. The night before her world was turned upside down. The night that hadn't only changed her but the whole team in an ultimate way. Nick immediately reached for her hand and she accepted his gentle touch by squeezing his hand.

"I am sorry." He said while a single tear made his way down his cheek.

"It was not your fault back then and it's definitely not now. Don't beat yourself up. You are the best partner I could ever ask, even when you get a little out of control. You have nothing to apologize for, ok?" Her own tears dampened her face as he brushed them away with his free hand.

"I can't help but think that I should have done something differently, but now it's too late. I can't lose you, especially not now" he said firmly and caressed her hand.

"You won't." She simply said and with that their moment was gone. He let go of her hand and after a while she dozed off once more feeling safer with Nick being next to her.

"You do realize I can take care of myself, right?" She complained as he picked up her bag and helped her put on her coat.

"Of course you can, Liv , but be nice because if it wasn't for me you would be in that room for another two weeks. Four days and you were ready to kill yourself. Sucks, right?" He mocked at her as she punched his arm.

"Ok. Here are the papers. Sign right there please and your husband should sign over here" the nurse instructed both of them as they shared an amused look being called a couple and a married one indeed.

"You are free to go Mrs Benson" the nurse announced cheerfully as the two of them made their way out of the hospital.

"Look who's home, Noah. Mommy's here, look."

The little boy squealed with joy when he saw his momma after four long days and squirmed in Lucy's arms craving for a Mommy's hug."Oh Noah, baby I've missed you so much" Olivia smiled brightly and kissed Noah all over his little face, still sad that the Doctor hadn't allowed her to carry him around.

"Baby I want a hug so much but Mommy is in a little pain and she can't carry you, because you're a big boy." She explained to him and the boy started fussing as if he understood the meaning of her words.

Nick placed her bag on the floor and took Noah from Lucy giving him a huge kiss and a hug.

"Well, Noah I am gonna be your substitute hugger as long as mommy can't hug you. I know I don't smell girly or have soft hands, but you gotta bare with me, little man, ok?"

He placed him steadily in his arms and Noah was immediately southed by his scent.

"Lucy thank you so much, you've been a great help" Olivia send the babysitter home as Nick changed Noah and put him to sleep.

"He fell asleep seconds later. I really think that I am a baby whisperer."

"Do I smell girly?"she asked looking at him while she was laying on the couch.

"What?"

"You said before to Noah that I smell girly" she smiled at him.

"...Yeah, I mean your perfume and your shampoo smell girly so I guess so"

She smiled again at him.

"You do realize that this insane, right?"

"Why? You do smell girly!" He laughed at her and she started laughing back.

"Shh, we'll wake up Noah"

"But you're a baby whisperer, remember?" She mocked him while he fetched her a glass of water and sat next to her at the couch.

"I am not thirsty"

"Well, as your medical care man I will make you drink that because the doctor said ten glasses of water per day to avoid dehydration."

"Well, thanks for agreeing on this, you know it's not easy to bear with me for two weeks 24/7, but I am not a baby." She sighed as she drunk the water.

"I am just looking out for you"he smiled and placed his hand above hers gently caressing it.

"I think it's bed time." Nick announced.

"Nick, it's 9 p.m. I can't go to sleep now." She complained.

"The doctor said rest so you will rest"

"I'll rest when I am dead" she retorted.

"Liv..." He said pleadingly.

She slowly got up as he guided her to the room.

"I know where my bathroom is, thank you"

"I am merely trying to help" he said back exasperating. She could be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

"Ok now I am just gonna look away so you change into your pajamas."

Olivia took off her shirt and jeans and started searching for her sleep t shirt and short at the lingerie basket.

"Are you done?" He asked.

"Yeah... Uh no I mean no" she corrected.

Nick turned around and Olivia just froze. Damn it, why she said yes?

"I am sorry. I..." Nick trailed off as a semi naked Olivia stood in front of him, her black lingerie covering only her most private parts. His eyes unwilling roamed to her body and he gasped when he saw a huge mark on her abdomen right down her bra. It hadn't faded away. It was still there even after a year and a half. He wordlessly approached her and gently placed his fingertips on the scar. She flinched and shivered under his touch, but she said nothing. They both knew this was far from professional, but at the time neither of them seemed to care. Nick swallowed hard.

"He did this to you?" But he already knew the answer.

She nobbed and he caressed her wound just like he had done in multiple occasions in the last few days with her hand. His touch was soothing, gentle, caring. She didn't know why she accepted him to do it, but it felt right. Their eyes locked. He kissed her temple and she smiled timidly.

"This is a sign of your braveness and strength. This is not an imperfection. This tells everyone that you survived and you're here stronger than before"

Her vision blurred as tears made their way down her face.

He leaned down and put a light kiss on the scar and she gasped from the surprise and the sensation of his lips against her damaged skin.

He kissed it again and whispered to her. "You are truly beautiful"

She smiled through the tears and felt him snaking his arms around her. She accepted his warm hug and snaked her nude body on his as he carried her to the bed.

"Just stay here" he said and came back after a while having brought her t shirt and shorts. He helped her put them on and covered her with the blanket.

"Good night, Liv." He kissed her temple and she held his hand refraining him from going away.

"You can sleep here" she simply said not looking at him.

He smiled as he stripped from his clothes and got under the covers wearing his underwear and a t-shirt.

"Thank you" he whispered.

"For what?"

"For trusting me"

"Thank you for accepting me" she said back and turned to his side hugging him and falling into a deep sleep.

This is it, guys! Any thoughts? Leave a review to share them with me!

Continue or just leave it be an one shot? Depends on you.

Till next time, take care!

~ xxx JoyfulRiri