Author's note: This is definetly a Van/Hitomi, or it least it takes place before Hitomi realizes that she loves Van, this is most definetly Van's thoughts.
Disclaimer:I don't own Hitomi, Van or anything on EskaFlowne, but sometimes I wished i owned Van...lol

***~~If Only~~***

I think of you,
so far away,
a distant reality,
a yearning in my heart.

But I can't tell you how I really feel.
I love the way you laugh,
I love the way you defend me, no matter what.
I can't tell you how I fell,
if you only knew, if only.

I stand on the balcony,
singing and praying for you.
Tears trickle down my face,
I fight the aches in my heart,
if only my love, if only.

I wish you felt the same,
you mean so much to me.
Please don't leave me now,
I need you, but you don't know.
Oh god, make my wish come true,
if only, if only my love knew

By:Chantal King