I don't know what it was but maybe the ugly truth of the world and betrayal. Helped open my eyes and see the grim scene before me. My team was every thing to me. A family but they left for the gory of being world champion. It hurt but I wasn't alone. I still had Kenny and Hilary and Daichi was starting to grow on me. Though most important had to be Kai. I guess you can call him my life line. And after he left I fell apart. I barely eat anymore and sleep became a luxury I couldn't have. No one realized it except for Kenny. It hurt seeing him try so hard to hold the team together. So I did the thing I was best at. I hid, I put all my pain in a box and let it grow.
It was simple all I had to do was put on a mask of pure happiness. And let my self die inside slowly and painfully.
I had to get out and soon. So I decided when the world championships were over I'll leave. Where? Well I'll find out when I get there.