NOTE - This is dedicated to a piece
of my soul... the man you has given me a light to hold onto in this dark
world of ours.... In love we are immortal... and this is also dedicated
to a dear friend of mine, Sarah.... D & S if you read this you know
who you are....
To the light of my darkening ways,
Through twilight, darkness and moonrise, my scarlet tears of emptiness
fall down my face and onto the hollow ground which I stand upon. I stand
out in the rain on this full moon lit night. I stand just outside my window,
looking deep into the darkness as I watch the rain silently pour onto the
glass, making a beautiful tapestry of images as it taps...taps...taps...
Darkness envelops me as I sink further into the abyss of my mind. Haunting
images of that fateful night, stab into me like thorns. The pain of the
memory consumes me...
You came to me
one stormy night like this, and you lay me down amongst the mystical graveyard
under a crescent moon. It was under that same luminous light that I swore
you vows of my undying love "Never to part, lest jealous heaven stole our
hearts." My heart was firing, full of a forgotten emotion which you had
awoken with your soul. I used to sometimes lay awake beside you whilst
you were sleeping and gaze upon your face...so calm....so generous. I always
wanted to know what dreams kept you in such a peaceful sleep... The past
we shared is but a painful memory now....
I tumble down...down...down....into
the abyss of my soul and the myst that surrounds me. My soul falls down...down...down...
as it cries out for you , my love. I am forever bound to walk in your shadow,
as I feel your pain sore right through me like the stabbing of a knife
into my chest. I often visit the grave where we met, I often weep for what
we had and could never have again. Dreaming away for a while, my spirit
sighs in peace, gazing unto the stars. My soul will never sleep, it will
never rest, until you are back in thy embrace once more... But then, my
mind has flashed of memories I will to forget. The night in which, fate
it seems, turned his gloomy head away and tore us apart.
How the blood
stained the ground...so much blood... My body limp to the event surrounding
me and my eyes saw the world through a purple haze. The sound....bang....bang....bang...echoes.
Then my thoughts dwelled upon you as I saw you running towards me, as I
collapsed to the ground. Time itself had stopped and my soul was tempted
by the gates of a beaming light.... but I did not leave you, my love.
I have you in
my dreams at night. You were holding my hand as we gazed upon the ever
rising moon, but screams haunt my sleep. Then I awake and you're not mine.
You were the hero, the guiding light to my darkening shadow. Now fate it
seems has made me yours. I lay, looking at my hands, searching these lines
and find no answer for our departed love... But I weep my love. You were
but a hero to me, freeing me from my guilded cage. For the first time I
caught a glimpse of a better world, but it was that world that destroyed
us. Like the myst of midnight skies disappearing, leaving nothing but a
trail of tears and emptiness.
Do not stand at
my grave and weep, my love. I am not there, I do not sleep. I will wait
for you, my love, in the graveyard of ghostly cries. Right here in the
graveyard under the moon lit skies. Fate can not tear us apart, nor heaven
or hell seperate us. Our sould will be together in the winds of winter
as we prance around the grave as two souls together, forever. Our souls
together in eternity, so we may cheat fate and death once more and rise
from below to up above... I love we are immortal...forever in eternity...
From your Shadow in ghostly plains....
XXX
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To my ghostly goddess of beauty and
myst,
In a graveyard
of Angels, where thou liest low, I am grieving and weeping a love once
had. Black is symbolic of the shadow I walk in and I know my love, you
are one of my shadows, gracing my soul. It comforts me when I am alone
at night, but being unable to hold you, embrace you, is a fate far worse
than death's pale painted face. I stand amongst the rain, amongst the moons
beaming light as it mockingly smiles upon me. I face the heavens and scream
out to you 'Come back to me, for I was born in love with thee so why should
fate stand in between', but the sound of my voice echoes in the myst and
reminds me of the nothingness surrounding me. I want to turn cold ice in
my soul, got to freeze this pain inside. If only I could have wept in mourning
by your side. I would have embraced you so tight that our sould would come
together like running water to an open stream, and your pain would be no
more.
Death, spirit
me away, for I have no desire to feel the pain fate has inflicted upon
me... My love, wait for me in the graveyard where we first met under midnight
skies... To me you are the wind that howls at night, the shadow that follows
me and the presence that haunts me. My dreams are haunted by that fateful
night...
FLASHBACK THOUGHTS :: Sitting here
next to you. Holding you in my arms. Your black eyes full of pain, and
the obvious emptiness that has consumed you. What can I do to stop the
pain? You will survive this, I know you will...
Eternal darkness was bestowed upon
you that night.... Can not believe you thought on me as your hero, your
dark knight come to save you from the demons withing your soul. How can
I be a hero? I could not even save you from Death himself as he laughed
upon me as he tore your soul away from me. I should have been there to
challenge fate, to fight destiny, but it's too late... too late...
I often visit the graveyard where
we met and gaze upon the spot where thou liest low beneath the dirt. I
dream of you with me, standing beside me, haunting me. You are one shimmering
flower in a field of thorns. How can I be strong enough to live without
you, my love? You were the other half of my soul and I reminisce the love
we had, but will never have again. Unless we may cheat fate once more beyond
the grave, my love, and rise from this earth of myst and rain, to dance
with the moon up above...
But fate has never looked lightly
upon us, and I fear our souls to be doomed.... I feel you by my side....you
soul beckoning me to join you... but wait for me you must... Beauty slept
and angels wept for your immortal soul as I let the night and myst claim
you for their very own.
"And I often sigh, I often wonder
why
I'm still here and still I cry.
And I often cry
I often spill a tear. Over you,
not here
But still you are so near
Please ease my burden
And I still remember, a memory
and I weep
In my broken sleep
The scars they cut so deep
Please ease my burden, please
ease my pain"
( "Sleepless" - Cradle of Filth)
My love, wait for me amongst the gravestones
and myst of ancient times and of memories bitter sweet, that fill my dreams.
For even in death we will be together once more... For in love we are immortal...forever
in eternity...
From your Knight in mortal shades of grey
(More coming from me soon... R&R
please...)
