Okay, this is my first Instant Star fanfic. It's just a simple one-shot, but I'm curious on how it'll turn out.
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I sit here in my studio, writing a new song. I sit here testing it out on my guitar, striking each chord to see if it flows with the music. He is supposed to be here beside me, helping me with this, but no. There he is over there in the lobby, flirting with that blondie.
I want him.
But that's not any girl, either. That's my older sister. She has him, but I know where his heart really belongs. Or at least I think I do. Maybe it's just me and my imagination on overdrive, but I catch those stares that he sends me. It makes me feel cherished and loved. But no, he's with someone else. There he is, kissing her now.
I want him.
He was going to help me with this. In fact, he promised. Instead, as soon as she walks through the door, he drops everything. He runs to her and embraces her with false love. He tells me that it's serious. He says that they are together for real this time. I don't believe him, not one bit. There is too much history between us just to throw it away. I can see it in his eyes.
I want him.
I can see it now. He dumps her, kindly of course, and then he finally admits that I'm the one he wants. We'll have to keep it secret though, because I'm sixteen and he's in his early twenties, but age is nothing but a number. That is only one small hurdle to get over. We would make beautiful music together. The tabloids would report on how strong this romance is. Together forever, right?
I want him.
But that's only in my dreams. The ones that makes you angry when you wake up in the morning. I turn around and look at him. He has let go of her for a minute, but only because his ex-wife has stopped him. She stands there to the side, smiling like the world has no end to it. He glances my way and I can see it in his eyes. He wants me, the feeling is so strong that it hurts. But then two seconds later he turns away, talking as if nothing has happened.
And that's when I realize it.
I'll always be in wanting.