Summary: Quatre loves Duo, but Duo needs some time to figure things out. Will Quatre be waiting for him when he returns?

Pairing: Main Duo/Quatre

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or its characters.

Warnings: Angst, Alcoholism

Quatre smiled happily as he put some bread in the toaster and pushed the lever down. Duo had been staying with him for a couple of months, every since they had been coerced under a mistletoe and shared a kiss. It was just a joke supposedly, but once Quatre's lips touched Duo's he felt a spark and wanted to pursue something more. Duo didn't complain as they decided to take the relationship slowly to see where it would lead.

Quatre couldn't be happier. It had been a short amount of time since he had been with Duo, but he knew he was in love and happily told Duo so. And despite the fact that Duo hadn't returned the words of endearment, that didn't deter Quatre from loving him.

Duo took a deep breath as he stood in the kitchen entrance way with his duffel bag at his feet and a backpack slung on his shoulder. This was going to be one of the hardest things he had done in his life, but he had to do it.

"Quatre."

Quatre placed the now toasted bread on a plate and turned around smiling at Duo.

"Good morning Duo. I was hoping we could have breakfast together and then maybe catch a movie or something."

"I'm sorry Quatre, but that's not going to be possible today."

"Oh."

Quatre noticed the bag at Duo's feet, but smiled anyway. Duo was always taking odd jobs that required him to be gone for some days at a time so even though he was slightly disappointed he knew Duo was going to be back soon.

"So where are you headed this time and how long are you going to be gone?

"I don't know."

"You don't know where you're going or how long you're going to be gone?"

Duo adjusted the pack on his back and looked everywhere, but at Quatre because he knew what he had to say was going to hurt the blonde.

"I'm going back to L2 for awhile. I have to take care of a few things."

"I'm not sure I understand."

Duo swallowed hard. "I'm sorry, Quatre, but I'm going back to L2 to tie up some loose ends and figure some things out about myself and about us."

Quatre's face fell and he stood right in front of Duo so he had no choice, but to look at him.

"You're leaving because of me? Because I love you?"

"Quatre..."

Duo caressed Quatre's cheek when he saw tears in Quatre's blue eyes, but he remained firm in his decision.

"I'm just not sure if being here with you is where I want to be. I need to make sure this is something I can do and for that I need to go and figure things out on my own."

Quatre bit his lip. This was all his fault. He shouldn't have pushed Duo the relationship into something serious.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you any discomfort." Quatre apologized.

"No, don't apologize Quatre."

Duo pulled Quatre to his chest and held him. "It's not you. You've done nothing wrong. I wish I could just accept the love you're giving me now, but I just can't."

Duo let Quatre go and held him at arms length. "I'm not telling you to wait for me Quatre because that wouldn't be fair to you, but I'll come back. I don't know when, but I swear to you I'll come back."

Quatre forced a smile as Duo kissed him on the cheek before picking up his duffel bag on the floor. Quatre watched Duo turn around and walk out the door not knowing when he was coming back. And yet that didn't make Quatre love him any less.

Wow this is sad. Hopefully no one is crying yet.

In the next chapter Quatre meets with the other Gundam pilots.