A/N: This is my first story so I hope that you all like it

A/N: This is my first story so I hope that you all like it. It's also my first lemon, but I did my very best to make it interesting for their first time.

I do not own 'Twilight' or any of the characters.

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EPOV

I know what my dearest Bella wants, but it just can't happen. No matter how much we both want to give ourselves to each other, it is impossible. I love her too much to even risk hurting her or even killing her. Bella just doesn't understand that I am only truing to keep her safe.

BPOV

"Edward, why do you have to stay on top of the blankets? Why can't you stay with me under the covers while I sleep?" I asked as I was getting ready for bed.

Every night, when I am getting into bed, Edward tucks me in and lays on the top of the blanket. Tonight, he even made me wear more clothes to bed and he wouldn't even tell me why.

"Bella, it's for your own good. I wouldn't want to get too carried away," Edward said lying down on my bed with caution.

"Please, Just for tonight can you get underneath. I know it won't be that cold, I just want you to put your arms around me for one more night. Please, just this once?" I pleaded with him.

Edward lay there, staring at the ceiling for what seemed like quite sometime. Suddenly, he was on his side looking at me as he finally spoke.

"JUST this once"

At those three words, I quickly got right out of bed. I started to take off some of the layers that I was wearing. Before I could understand what he was doing, Edward was at my side shoving my clothes in my face.

"What are you doing, Edward?"

"NO, the question is what are YOU doing? Put these back on." He answered harshly.

I grabbed the clothes out of his hands and threw them to the floor.

"I am taking them off. I don't want to have layers of clothes on. I want to be able to feel your arms around me and I want to feel your ice-cold body next to my warm body.

"Bella, why are you so god dang stubborn? How many more times do I have to tell you the word 'no'? You don't understand. I would love to do everything that you want but right now it's impossible, we have to wait until you're turned and less breakable." Edward said with a hint of doubt in his voice.

"Oh my god Edward, will you cut the shit. You know that we could if you wanted to. Now, I am going to get undressed, then we are going to lay together in bed, you are going to wrap your arms around me, and you are going to shut up and stop all this nonsense" I stated to him firmly.

He stood there with his eyes wide open. Usually, I would have been afraid to talk to him like that, but this time I didn't care. I was really sick of this, not being able to be close to him, it was driving me mad.

I walked over to the bed after keeping myself dressed in only my bra and underwear. I layed down and tapped on the other side of my bed. Edward walked over, looked at me and took his place next to me.

"Bella--"

"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped like that. Its just that I want to be with you and you keep making excuses as to why we can't be together" I interrupted.

"Bella, I'm sorry. How about this, we can try... sometime, just not now. I promise." He said sweetly.

I turned to face him and he immediately wrapped his arms around me. I snuggled a little closer, maybe a little to close. I shivered and he pulled away.

"No. It was just the initial shock. I told you that I won't get to cold." I grabbed him and pulled closer so that we were touching.

We stood like that for a while. I started to kiss his neck up to his jaw. I looked at him before I kissed his lips. I moved so that I was on top of him. I knew that if he wanted to, he could easily push me off, but he didn't. I parted my lips and I felt him hesitate under me, but he did the same this. He invaded my mouth with his tongue and he wasn't careful like he usually was.
He flipped us so that he was now on top of me.

"I love you so much Bella"

"I love you to, more than you could ever imagine"

He grabbed my face.

"Are you sure?" he asked.

I nodded.

"If it becomes too much, tell me."

"Ok."

"Do you promise? Because I know how you are when you want something."

I put a finger to his lips to silence him.

"Yes I promise"

So I hope you enjoyed it. I will be posting the second chapter as soon as I can. Review it and tell me what you think. Criticism is welcome.