I DO NOT IN ANY WAY OWN NARUTO OR THE CHARACTERS IN IT! THIS IS PURELY FAN MADE AND FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY! NOT COPY WRIGHT INFRINGMENT WAS EVER INTENDED!!!!!!

Okay this is my very first fanfiction so please don't flame me, feel free to critique and give ideas, anything you think I need to improve on. I am always open to opinions and ideas, if I use and I dea you give me I will give special thanks as long as I have permission to do so. Thank you very much….READ!!!!

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It never ends…I am always the one that suffers in the end…no matter how kind, no matter what I do…I am forever left behind. As people move forward I am left in the past. My heart beat slows and comes to a stop…yet I continue breathing…I look in the mirror my eyes, dark hollow and knowing. My eyes are full if wisdom yet a child like hope, that with each passing second fades into night… I allow my spiky blonde hair to fall in my face, hiding me from the outside world… there is nothing for me here yet I stay…why…why was I destined to suffer like this…haunted and alone….the tears running down my face are hollow pools of what used to be joy and love and innocent laughter…I lash out….

Plip…plip...plip…plip…

My blood drops into the sink, pieces of the shattered mirror embedded in my knuckle…

I stare with morbid fascination as the crimson life, falls from its rightful place…odd…that something everyone hates….is the one thing that keeps us all alive…or at least keeps me from completely dying. One at a time I pick the pieces out, studying them as I do so. Even coated in the crimson hue, they sparkle. I lay them in the sink leaving the blood where it lay. I go over to the first aid kit and stare at it. Why bother? No one will ask what happened…No one will look at my hand as it drips red. I close it and walk into my room…I stare at the picture on my nightstand. I pick it up and tears flood my hollowed eyes. Everything I love goes away in the end…

I threw the picture in my trash can and pulled on my ratty hoodie. I walked downstairs and into the kitchen.

I walked down the side walk silently as everyone around me seemed to be laughing and smiling. I just kept walking letting my feet do the thinking. I ended up by the river. My feet always led me to this spot. Never did know what it was about the water…it was always where I felt safest…in the water and in the dark. Those where the places, where I was never judged … never hated…I could just be me and surrender to the silence… I didn't have to smile for anyone. I didn't have to laugh like the big dope everyone took for granted. I looked at the water as It flowed wishing I would just flow with it, where ever it ended had to be better then here…

"Naruto! You look like you're deep in thought, whats wrong can't decide what kind of Ramen to eat tonight?" Shikimaru laughed. I grinned that stupid grin and laughed.

"Nah! I was debating in asking Sakura out again!" I laughed scratching the back of my head.

"Good luck with that Naruto…" Shikamaru muttered as he and Choji walked past. As they passed I looked back at the water and walked out onto it. I crouched and stared down and watched the fish swim and a crayfish snatched a minnow up in its large powerful claws. I watched in morbid fascination as the crayfish devoured the fish. I looked up at the face of the Hokage monument….my fathers face so many adored…and my face they hated…

I walked back to my apartment. I opened the door and looked around at the dark room, light flickering, cracked walls, the floor covered in dust…

A rat nibbled at some crumbs, I entered and he ran into his hole. I knew in my broken heart it was time to leave this place. I cleaned everything up and began packing my bags. I took some of the food left in my fridge and left the rest for Mr. Rat on the floor. I took on last look around and my eyes fell on an old picture of team seven and a picture of me and Sakura. I was happy because Sasuke wasn't there…but after the picture was taken she had said,

'if only Sasuke were here too…' and that is when I knew…I knew she would never be mine…she would always belong to him, and no one else. I removed the picture of me and Sakura and wrote a quick note on the back…

"Proud of my broken heart…since thou didst break it…Proud of the pain…I did not feel till thee…Proud of my night…since thou with moons does slake it…Not to partake in thy passion…my humility…."

I placed it back into its frame and stared at it a moment longer. I then gently put them both face down on the desk unable to form a coherent thought as I stared at them. I took a deep breath as I placed my headband on the counter. I took all of my weapons and silently closed the door behind me.

Goodbye Konaha…