Confessions
A/N: Alright. I don't usually do fanfiction…just not talented enough or something but this stupid idea popped into my head one day and just wouldn't go away so I had to write it out. Reviews will be appreciated. If you feel like killing me for the sheer stupidity of it, however, don't bother. It'll probably be already taken care of by Sesshoumaru-sama. Give it a chance though.
I watch the grace of his gait, the proud set of his shoulders, the beauty of his movements. I watch them and cannot help but think how like his father he is, oh how….No! It is wrong! Think of the consequences, Jaken! But I must tell him. I have to, I need to.
No! But how can I? Oh, my Lord, my dear Sesshoumaru, I Jaken must tell you this, I know. Perhaps you can forgive me for my insolence…not likely but how in heavens am I supposed to keep it from you? I mean, you are omniscient, my Lord. You will sense it eventually. I know you will!
Your father was so like you, my liege. He did not see it either, until it was much, much too late. Oh, happy days. Where did they go?...not that I mind being your faithful vassal, of course. Oh no! I don't in the least mind being thrashed to the ground, or pelted with rock, or sliced in half or…well, you get the drift. No, but then why does my heart thump so? Why this fear when I am so certain of my loyalty toward you? Why?
"Oh, why? Oh, why?"
"Jaken!"
Eep! Was that out loud?
"F…f…forgive me, my Lord."
Oh no! What if he saw it? But he turns and resumes walking. I sigh in relief. But…wait! Oh no! Is that smoke on the horizon? No! A village? And we are heading for it? What? Of all days he picks this one to go off socializing? Seriously, the infernal little…AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh! No! What am I thinking? Forgive me, my Lord! No!
But it is coming closer. No! Then we won't be alone anymore. This can't be happening! No, this is the time, my last chance. I must tell him now or I fear I may never tell him. I must do it.
"Uh…my lord Sesshoumaru?"
No! What am I doing? No! how can I do this? No!...Maybe he didn't hear? Oh no, bad Jaken. How dare you doubt your master's acute Youkai sense? Huh? Of course, he heard….but maybe, just maybe?...no. He turns.
"What is it?"
Oh, what will I do now? Now I must tell him…I must say something. But what?
Oh, the sky is so blue today?
Real smooth. Oh yeah, good one. Except that IT'S RAINING YOU MORON!!!!!!!
But then what?
Say something, idiot! Tell him!
But how?
He is getting impatient. Oh no, I must do it now. It is now or never. Okay, I can do this.
Think of the consequences, you dope!
No! I must!
I open my mouth. "My Lord…" My heart is hammering.
"Yes?"
My resolve strengthens. I must do it now. It's life or death and I Jaken choose death. I will tell him no matter what now. I'm going in.
"My Lord Sesshoumaru…..Sire….You have forgotten your pants."