Anshii is such an interesting character, longing to be free, but pretending she doesn't. Forced into a subservient life, even as she watches the free people around her. It really makes her interesting to watch, and wonder, what's she really thinking. So here we have a shot at what she's thinking, at the series beginning ('cause its also fun to watch Saionji eat his fated defeat, it really is =^_~=). And by the way, Utena and everyone else still belong to Saitou Chihou, and the BePapas, not me, just in case you didn't know. =^_~=
Little Victories
LH-chan '03
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I'm your slave.
Your prisoner.
No matter where I go…
…no matter what I do…
…when I am permitted.
It is my master's choice in all those things.
My master…
You, by virtue of winning a duel…
A petty fight against other petty fighters, for whatever power or glory you believe will be granted to you by possessing me.
For whatever petty reasons you hold dear.
You're a fool, master.
You would never believe I could think that, would you?
Never believe that I could think something other than what you tell me.
I always submit to you, after all.
Oh, I can not say what I'm thinking. No. I can't even wish this girl you fight good luck without being assaulted.
I can't say anything, master, without your permission.
I can't be anything, master, without you permission.
I'm your silent doll, if you wish.
I have no control.
I'm even your lover, if you wish.
But my thoughts. Those are my own.
You can't control my mind, master, whatever you believe.
I can think you are a fool.
I can think this stranger is going to defeat you. I can know it, believe it.
Things will change, get better…everything will be different soon.
Maybe its that power you want telling me so.
I can think how glad I am to see you defeated. To see your shocked face as your rose falls to the arena floor.
I can laugh inside at your expression.
Its something…even if its all I can do.
It's the little victories that count, ne?
"Saionji-sempai."
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Owari.