She's really gone. It's just so hard to believe. Only yesterday she was yelling at me to do my job and today, nothing. It was this morning, she was on her way to work when she was hit by a drunk driver. She didn't even have time to react.
When I got to work I immediately knew something was wrong, everyone was silent and people had tears in their eyes. Thats when I saw Wilson, he had tears dried on his cheeks and red puffy eyes. He was slowly jogging towards me.
" House! You need to get to ICU right away!" A confused look came on my face, which Wilson immediately saw. " House, it's Cuddy…" He didn't need to say anything else, I tried to run, which was extremely difficult, but I reached the ICU in a matter of seconds. When I got to the door, my heart skipped a beat.
On the bed she laid. She was all bruised and bloody, but she was still beautiful. Thats when I turned to the rapidly approaching footsteps, it was Wilson. When he reached me he cleared his throat. I turned back to the door, and just watched her.
" House, she doesn't have long, you should go to her." I nodded, and slowly walked into the room.
Her eyes immediately met mine. I didn't know what to say, but I know one thing that needed to be done. I pulled up a chair, and took her hand. She cleared her throat.
" House...I..I'm sorry." I sighed.
" Cuddy, you have nothing to be sorry for, it wasn't your fault.'' The tears started to form in her eyes, and I could feel one sliding down my cheek, but I didn't even care.
" I'm sorry. House, I'm not going to make it." She reached up and wiped away the tear from my cheek.
" Look, don't talk like that, I don't even want to think about you not being in my life." This can not be happening, there is no way, I must be dreaming.
" House, I need to tell you something." I knew what was coming next.
" I know, you don't have to say it Lisa." That was the first time I had called her that in years, it felt wrong.
" No, you don't know, you don't know how much I love you. I wish I would have just had the guts to tell you, now we only have minutes together. You're my only regret. I love you so much Greg House." I lowered my head and planted a kiss on her lips. I slowly pulled away.
" Lisa, you need to hold on and keep fighting, you can make it through this, I have faith in you." I never thought I would ever hear the word faith come out of my mouth like this.
" Greg, it hurts, you need to let me go, but promise me something." No, she can't die.
" Anything."
" You can't use my death as an excuse to give up or to get back on the pills. You need to get over me, and live. " That would be impossible to do.
" I don't think I can ever get over you. It's not worth living without you. I love you so much." She smiled.
" You need to try. I will always love you, and I will always be with you." I reached down to kiss her one last time, then I heard the beeping get faster.
"Lisa? No!" The grip on my hand loosened, and then there was that dreaded constant beep, she was gone. I couldn't take just sitting there, I got up and left the room. I just started walking, and soon I was at a familiar place, her office.
When I walked in a cloud of familiar scent hit my nose, vanilla, her favorite perfume. I closed the door and locked it and pulled down the blinds. It felt like the whole world had came crashing down on me. My life no longer had meaning, my only reason for existing is gone, and she would never be able to come back. She would no longer be able to yell at me, I could no longer make inappropriate jokes to her to hide my feelings. I just felt numb, unable to feel any type of emotion at all. I realized I was still crying, but who cares? No one is here to see me, not that I would care if they did.
I stayed there the entire day and night, just thinking about our past.
We met at Michigan, at this tiny book store. I was attracted to her from the start, those beautiful bluish- green eyes drew me in. Then we had a one night stand, then nothing, until nearly ten years later. From then on it was history. Almost every day we made jokes at each other, both trying to hide our feelings for eachother.
I think we both always knew that we were meant for one another, but now its too late. I have nothing left to hold on to, the only thing I have ever loved is gone forever.