Ugh.
I hate school. It's just so boring. The dyslexia doesn't help. I feel like every day it's getting worse and worse. I'm trying as hard as I can, but nothing is working. The doctors don't help. My parents think I'm improving, and I've got to make sure they keep thinking that, I sure as hell cannot let my dad know. He'd blame me for not trying hard enough.
It's not like it's my fault my life sucks. Ever since I found out it was Unique that was catfishing me, I've just been filled with so much rage, and I have NO idea how to show it. And no, I'm not going to sing about it. I just wish I could have stayed away from the Glee Club.
"After Regionals I'm officially leaving New Directions."
Yeah, that lasted about a month. Unique apologized, more than once. But I didn't want an apology. I just want her to leave me the hell alone. The part that bugs me the most, though, is that ever since I rejoined the Glee Club nobody's given a crap about the whole thing. Kitty even made a joke about it, and it took everything I had not to go off on her. And, sure, I'm pissed off at Unique but she still gets bullied by the jocks and it makes me mad, because I did promise to protect her. Standing up for her makes everyone think I've forgiven her, so they don't care, which also pisses me off. Some people are even siding with Unique in the whole situation. Like Marley. I actually thought I'd gotten over Marley. But there's just something about her that keeps me from getting over her. To be completely honest, a small part of me was glad when Marley said she was Katie, because I thought that meant I still had a chance.
I feel like kicking something. I tend to do that when I'm mad. Some of the seniors in New Directions used to tell me that I reminded them of Finn, especially when I kicked things. I really miss Finn. He was like my mentor, he was the reason I joined New Directions, and now I feel like I'm disrespecting him by not wanting to stay.
My train of thought gets derailed easily, but the bell knocked me out of my trance. 6th period was over; I didn't have much longer until I could go home for the weekend. I just wished I could have gotten to my next class in peace. Is that too much to ask? Of course it is.
"Hey, Bieber."
"What do you want, Kitty?"
"Jeez, someone's upset. You still mad that Unique made you think she was somebody that you actually thought you were in love with and then turned out to be a boy?"
That's it.
"Go to hell, Kitty. You and your "jokes" are one of the main reasons I almost didn't come back to New Directions-"
"But you came back anyways. You just can't stay away from Marley, can you?"
I have no idea what to say.
"What's the matter? Kitty got your tongue?" She laughed at her own joke, I rolled my eyes and tried to walk away. She caught up. "Look, I'm gonna give you another chance here. We're gonna go out tomorrow night, to Breadstix again. I know for a fact that Marley and Jake are planning on going to Breadstix tomorrow, so it'll be a good opportunity for you to get over her in the moment. Pick me up at 7."
And with that, she walked off.
What just happened?
I had a date with Kitty tomorrow at Breadstix.
Ugh.