Title: Silent tears, sleepless night
Author/Artist: Lunezx
Beta : Juin.
Disclaimer: Love Mode it's not mine. If it where there will be no women in the story and a lot more bxb love...wait, there are no women in the story and there is a lot of bxb love... sorry wrong disclaimer. Any way Love Mode belongs to Shimizu Yuki so go and bow before her.
We are lying in bed, you and I. I'm in your arms and you are by my side. We are very close, so close our skin melts into one. Yet even in this closeness I can't help but feel you are far. Years have passed since we first met. Do you still remember? Me almost drowning and your cockiness. I fought so hard to get close to you. And even knowing that for you it was all just a game, I couldn't help but want you. I passed the test and got to have you, even if just for one night. And it was perfect, it was all I had wanted and I knew, even then, that it would not last. I got the chance to stay close to you, and so I did. Silly me, bastard you. I was just a toy you wanted to keep. And so we stayed together even though we were apart. Days turned to weeks, weeks to months, and before I knew it years had passed.
How did I end up this way?
I love you, you know? Of course you do, that's your best weapon against me. You know I can't leave you, that I never will. And so you do as you please. Hurt me once, hurt me twice. And no matter how much it hurts I can never fight back. It rips my heart apart, you know? Seeing you with them. Smiling, flirting, going all the way.
How did I end up this way?
A long time ago I used to think you loved me too. Silly me, bastard you. You only love yourself. And you hide behind your arrogance, your so painful past to justify yourself. I'm at your mercy and you know it, and unfortunately for me, you don't have any. Thinking back, I can see when it all went wrong. And even now I don't see any way I could have made it right. And so, through the sleepless night you are with me, even when we are miles apart.
How did I end up this way?
I can't remember, you know? When was the last time I said I love you. I know for sure you never have. Not once in all these years. And so I cry, without any tears. Tears are a sign of weakness, and if I want to survive, I can't be weak, not at your side. I cry and hurt and scream and curse. Me, you, both of us. We're equally guilty. At least I know that much. I cry my silent tears, I yell without a sound. And through this sleepless night, with you right by my side, I let the loneliness take me, one more time.