They Call Me Insane

They call me insane.

They whisper behind my back; their voices, ever present, call me crazy, deranged, mad. They wonder to themselves, to each other, what made me this way, what took away my sense of rational thought, what effected me so much that my mind has been unhinged ever since.

Some of them think that Azkaban is the culprit. I will not say that that prison, that miserable hovel, didn't affect me; that would be a lie, and despite what people say, despite my actions, I do not lie. I do not pretend. So I will not pretend that before being jailed, I was in my right mind.

No. What people call "the right mind" is a place I have never been.

Could it be my parents' fault? Possibly. They raised me to believe in pureblood supremacy, that I was above those filthy Muggles and all their kin. This is true. This is fact. It did not drive me insane.

Perhaps the pressure, day by day, of being a Death Eater? This, to most people and their ignorant minds, is the worst occupation there could be. I disagree. I think that their mundane jobs, useless in the grand scheme of things, are the worst occupations there could be. I am a Death Eater; I do what I love for a living. What is so bad about this?

So what is it, then? People ask me this; the brave ones, the ones foolish enough to think that they will escape afterwards, they question me, interrogate me as to why I am the way I am. Why I am insane.

I do not think I am insane.

I have always been this way. It isn't something that happened over time. Since I can remember, my mind has been cracked, derailed. I do not mind it. There is nothing wrong with me. I see the dramatic tragedy we call life in a different way than others. I see it from a different viewpoint, just as a bat sees the world through sound. What is wrong with that? They say everyone is different; so who are they to call me abnormal, maniacal, unhinged?

They call me insane.

What are they?

I should be working on my other stories, I know, but I don't have any ideas for them; however, this idea came to me while I boredly looked up various Harry Potter characters, and I knew I had to write it.

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Joelle8