Chapter 1- Tuesday
Spring 2005
Sara sat at her desk, working on her resume, sipping on a beer, listening to music. She knew she was fired. You don't get to blow up at a supervisor like that and not lose your job. Well, technically a Supervisor AND an Assistant Director. This was worse than the DUI. She was sure the gossips at the lab were happy to have some new fat to chew on. She hated being the center of office gossip. It wasn't the first time though, and probably would not be the last.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
Sara turned off her stereo. There was a soft knocking at the door. She peered through the peephole. Grissom. Well, she knew it now. She was fired. Why else would he be here?
What happened next was not what she had expected. She had never imagined ripping her heart open and sharing a peak of it with Grissom. "I wanna know why your so angry."She would never forget the look in his eyes. Something had changed. He was her supervisor, sure, but he really was concerned, as a friend. They had been close once, but still, she had never shared this part of her life with anyone, especially Gil Grissom.
Sara sat in a chair, curled up, telling her story. Her PEAP counselor had wanted her to do this months ago. No time like the present. She never imagined he would be so gentle and kind. She expected him to turn and run when he learned the true horror of who she was and where she had come from. She sobbed and he held her hand. He had done that nearly a year earlier when he picked her up at after her DUI. But that time was different. He pushed her then. He lectured her. Now, he was quiet. He was just THERE.
He got up, still holding her hand, and pulled on her arm in indication to stand. She turned her teary eyes up at him questioning him. "Come here" He had said, opening his arms to her. She silently stood and allowed him to embrace her. She wrapped her arms around his waist and buried her head in his shoulder. His one hand settled on her lower back while the other one languidly slid up and down her back to comfort her. He leaned his head in on hers. They stood that way for what seemed forever. It felt so good to be held. To be comforted. It had been so long since she had experienced true affection from someone. Her heart swelled with affection for Grissom. He had a way of knowing what she needed. And right now, she needed a friend.
Grissom had kept his distance as he listened to Sara tell how her mother had killed her abusive father. To say he was surprised would be an understatement. He had a feeling she had some type of abuse in her past, but he had never imagined this. All he could think of was how he admired her for how strong of a woman she had become despite the foster homes and absent parents. He wanted to be there for her. His only thought was, I need to hold her and let her know I care. The lines he had so long ago drawn between supervisor and Friend were slowly beginning to blur. With each tear and caress given in response, his resolve was melting away.
Just then Grissoms phone went off, sounding he had a text message. He muttered some choice words under his breath and pulled away from Sara to yank his phone off of his side and read the message.
"Ecklie. He wants to talk to me about you." He slowly moved towards the door.
"What are you going to tell him?" she searched his face for any indication of what he was thinking.
"Im not sure yet, but I'm not losing you." He smiled a crooked smile at her. "If he wants to fire you. He has to fire me. But he wont."
"How can you be so sure?"
He put his hands on either side of her face and made sure she looked him in the eye. "You aren't going anywhere. Trust me."
Something about the way he was looking at her then, she knew she could always trust him. "OK"
Grissom sighed, letting out a deep breath. He was still standing in front of her. His hands were still on her face, now gently rubbing his thumbs across her cheeks. Sara closed her eyes, enjoying the feel of him on her skin. He suddenly dropped his hands to his side. Her eyes flew open, missing the feel of him.
"Sara...I...ummm..." Grissom was doing his typical Grissom thing, pulling away. Sara always seemed to let him off the hook. But this time she wasn't going to let that happen.
Sara moved her hands to his face mimicking the gestures he had made, running her thumbs along the line where cheek met beard. He sucked in a quick breath of air when she touched him and closed his eyes. YES, SEE WHAT IT DOES GRISSOM? Her mind yelled. She ran her left thumb over his lips, then her right thumb. Grissom was having a hard time controlling his breathing, she could hear it.
"Open your eyes, Gil" His eyes flew open when she used his first name. Had she ever called him that before?
"Sssara.." He let out on a sigh.
Then she was there, pulling him in for a gentle kiss. She pulled back slightly. Licked her lips, and sent him a questioning look. His eyes were wide open. The blue shimmering brighter than she had ever seen in his eyes. Then his face changed. He was struggling with his emotions. Then he made a decision. His look changed again. Determined. Strong. Lustful. Loving. She had seen that look so many years ago.
He reached up and pulled her back to him, this time not so gently. He started to devour her. And she let him. She moaned when he slide his tongue into her mouth. This was what she needed. This was what she remembered from 7 years ago. This was home. She began kissing him back in earnest. And when she slid her tongue into his mouth, he let out a groan. They stood there kissing, bodies barely touching but hands roaming over arms, hips, backs. Grissom moved his hands lower to gently rub her ass, pulling her closer. She moaned out loud.
"God, Sara. Feels so good" he said between kisses.
"So right. Soooo, good." She let out on a moan as he rubbed his now growing erection into her center, his lips never leaving her face. "Holy Fuck, Gil! GAHHH!" She was lost in the feel of him. She let her hands rest on his ass, pulling him closer to her.
Grissom chuckled at how she was swearing. He loved that he could make her lose control like this. Then again, he was just as lost.
"Sara.. What you do to me." He moved them then so that she was pinned between him and the wall in her entryway. He moved his hips slightly, grinding into her a bit more. "So good!"
Sara let out a loud moan, grinding her hips up at him again and again. "OH! YESS!!" She ground up one long last time. "Gil." She planted kisses on his surprised face. He involuntarily ground against her again. "GAAAHD! Sara.." He hugged her close to him and kissed the top of her head as they stood there catching their breath.
"What was that?" he still held her close.
"That was...a long time coming. Pardon the pun." They both chuckled.
"I think this changes things, huh?" Grissom asked of her.
"Yeah, I think so." Sara pulled away slightly looking up at him now. He stared back at her, love in his blue pools.
His phone rang!
"Dammit!" He reached for his phone.
"Grissom." "Yeah, Conrad. I will be there as soon as I can." "Im in the middle of something here!" "Whatever, Conrad. See you within the hour."
Sara stood back, arms folded across her chest, feeling a bit vulnerable and open at all that had happened.
"Sara, I have to go deal with him. He wont let this go. But don't worry. You still have a job. You will have to take the suspension he gave you, but that's all." He opened the front door, standing in the hallway now. "I will see you later. Ok?"
"Yeah, Grissom. Later. I appreciate everything." She smiled seductively at him. "And I MEAN everything, Gil"
He smiled a wicked boyish grin back at her. "No problem. What are friends for?"
And with that he sped off down the hallway, out the door and into his SUV.
Grissom hurriedly took a shower and changed before going back into the lab and having it out with Ecklie. But it had gone better than he had anticipated. Except Catherine. While Ecklie said "she's all yours" he knew that Catherine was not so sure about it. He didn't want to deal with her just then, so he turned and left and retreated to his office.
A few hours later, Greg popped his head into Grissom's office.
"Hey, Grissom. Ummm, so what are we gonna do about Sara?" Greg stood in the doorway, but kept looking down the hall as if looking for an easy escape route.
"WE aren't doing anything Greg. She is on ones week suspension. That's all you need to know. If Sara wants to talk to you about it when she gets back (yeah, right. He was thinking.) Then that's up to her."
"Ok, Grissom, ok." Greg slowly backed out of his office and made his way to the break room.
"Hey, Gil!" Catherine was at his door. Now what.
"Yes, Catherine. How can I help you?" He gave a fake smile.
"Look. I know you and Sara go way back. And I know you two haven't been on the best of terms the past couple years, so I hope however you are dealing with this makes it better not worse. We can't handle WORSE!"
Grissom just stared at her for a moment. No indication of emotions on his face. He was always so hard to read. Catherine just waited until he was ready to speak.
"It will not be worse, ok. Sara has some things to work out, and I think I can help her. Somehow over the past couple years we have grown apart, probably my fault, but I think that we can be civil and try to become the trusting friends we once were. Things just get in the way. But you know that. You and I aren't as close as we used to be."
"Also, your fault. But I am not one to point fingers." Catherine shot him a playful grin. "If you say so, Gil. Maybe this week off will help her regroup and focus. She just needs a distraction, you know? You cant just be here and sleep and be here! If we all did that, we would go insane."
"She knows this Catherine. I've told her that before."
"Well, see what you can do about it, huh? FIND her something to get distracted with!" She flashed him a wicked grin.
Grissom just coughed at the thought of what he could FIND for her to get distracted with.
"Yeah. I'll do that, cath." He smiled at her.
"Ok, Gil. Look, tell Sara I don't hate her, ok. I know we all lose it every now and then. I just hope that she can get over her anger or whatever and work as a productive part of a team."
"I will definitely let her know."
"Ok, see ya later. I gotta go." Catherine left his office and headed home.
Grissom sat there thinking about his conversation with Catherine. Did she know what he was thinking he could do to DISTRACT Sara? NAH! She couldn't! Could she?
Grissom shook his head and stood to go give out assignments. He had a B&E for Sophia and Greg to work on together. She was good for Greg to work with. Sophia had a sharp eye for detail and a love of law enforcement and Greg needed to work with a variety of people, not just Sara all the time.
Assignments taken care of, Grissom had a mountain of paperwork waiting for him and reports to fill out for Ecklie about Sara. Sometimes he wondered why he took the job as supervisor. But he didn't want to take a step back now. So, he begrudgingly forged ahead.
Grissom jumped when his cell phone rang. He had been so involved in the paperwork and quiet.
"Grissom" He answered in his usual tone.
"Hey, its Sara."
"Hey!" His voice softened. "I should have called you before, but I didn't know if you were sleeping or what."
"That's ok. I was sleeping. Woke up about an hour ago. How did it go with Ecklie?"
"Surprisingly well." He sighed. "But he did call you a loose cannon. But he said you were all mine to deal with. So, it will be fine. Even Catherine said to tell you she doesn't hate you and understands that things can get edgy sometimes."
"You didn't tell them what I told you did you?" Anger was at the edge of her voice now.
"God, Sara, no! I would never do that. What you say to me is between us, no one else. I need you to know that, Sara. You can completely trust me."
There was a long period of silence on the other end.
"I trust you, Grissom." Her voice was soft and gentle. Grissom ached to be there and hold her and show her the trust in his eyes.
"Don't ever doubt that, Honey." His voice was low and held a seductive edge that did not go unnoticed by Sara.
"Why don't you come over after shift? I can make you breakfast."
This time it was his turn to be silent.
"Griss? Grissom? GIL!" She was practically shouting into the phone.
"Yeah, I will be there." He shook his head to get the thoughts of Sara as his breakfast buffet out of his mind. "Should I bring anything? Some bagels or juice or something?" Condoms. Did I say that out loud?
"Sure. Orange Juice sounds good." Ok, so it wasn't out loud.
"UHHH...yeah." He laughed out loud and hung up the phone.
He tried to concentrate on his work, but his mind kept wandering back to Sara. He closed his eyes and leaned back in his chair. Sara's eyes. Sara's eyes crying. Sara's lips. Her lips playing games with his lips and turning his mind to mush. Saras hands...oh those hands! On his face, his chest, his backside. Her tongue. GOD HER TONGUE. He loved the way she dueled with his tongue and the way she tasted in his mouth. Sara's ass. Got what a great behind she had. He loved the way it felt and moved against him when he pinned her against that wall. Sara's moans when she came. The way she swore. His moans as he ground his need into her...MMMMMMMMMMMM!! When he groaned aloud, he jumped, eyes shooting open. He scanned the room and hallway to see if anyone heard him. He was safe.
He got up and grabbed his coat. He needed to see Sara. They had to work out a system of how to deal with "THIS". He found Sophia and Greg in the layout room.
"I have some things to do, so im heading out a bit early."
"Ok, Griss" Greg just waved at him.
Sophia walked to the door way where he was. "No problem. Go DO whatever it is you are DOING. Don't let us stop you."
Grissom looked at her in total confusion. His face all scrunched up in question. But she just looked at him. "We will fill you in on the details tomorrow. Oh, and by the way." She leaned in closer and spoke in a whisper, "I wont tell anyone about your erotic dreams." She walked back over to Greg and began working again, leaving a dumbfounded Grissom standing there in the doorway.
This had definitely been one Hell of a Tuesday!
A/N: So, what do you think so far? I had originally written this and posted on the CBS message boards but I am redoing it and adding to the end, so stay tuned for many more chapters!! Please leave a review!! Wendy