I'm at the fork in the road.
I've been waiting for this stop forever it seems,
I anticipated it
and I dreaded it.
Consequential fate is staring me straight in the face,
laughing at me,
taunting me.
Two very different choices,
both waiting for my decision.
One is a sham of a marriage,
a sham that could be fixed,
maybe.
I though would last a lifetime,
it was golden,
full of love,
trust,
lies.
An oxymoron.
We trusted one another,
yet we held in our secrets,
Why?
I don't want it to end,
it's not time yet,
I can't bear to let go,
to let my life go,
to let him go,
to let us go.
My heart beats like no other when he is around,
but,
he is all I have,
or is he?
Another is a hidden love,
in the shadows it lurks,
an adulterous relationship,
full of love,
passion,
and secrets.
The firey passion equipt with the fear of unvailing,
the passion of love,
sex,
and lies.
They are both staring me in the face,
Rightousness,
Selfishness.
In fact everybody stares,
snickers,
snares,
at me,
my life,
my choices.
It's my time now,
the clock is ticking,
minute by minute,
my time is running up,
the alarm rings,
it's not a false alarm,
it's my time to choose,
my time to shine.
It's my life,
it's now,
or never.
I'm at the fork in the road.
What path should I choose?
What path would you choose?