True Identity
So that's why Ayanami is always alone in her own world. That's why I feel a close connection to her.
She's a clone, of … my mother.
When I realised that, I was astonished and afraid. It scared me enough to know that Ayanami, my friend, is a clone. Yet imagine my shock to know that Ayanami's body is a clone of my mother's.
After I had found out that Ayanami was a clone, I had pestered Misato to tell me about Rei's true identity, even though she knew no more than myself. Eventually Ritsuko told me everything about Ayanami. Although her body is a clone of my mother's, Ayanami's soul is a clone of Lilith's. My father created Ayanami for the Dummy Plug.
How could he do such a thing? How could my father just 'create' someone for a stupid experiment? Who would have the heart?
Yet it all makes sense now. I understand now why my father cares so much for Ayanami. She's all that's left of my mother. I never thought that Ayanami was a clone. I mean who would ever suspect that their friend is a clone.
I admit, when I first met Ayanami it surprised me that someone could be so unemotional, but I thought that was just Rei. And as time went on, Ayanami started to open up more and more. Sometimes we would actually even have a decent conversation and she even smiled once.
But now I don't even know how to face Ayanami anymore. I'm afraid of being around her, like I was yesterday when I met her after finding out the truth.
*Flashback*
There standing in front of me was Ayanami, her face expressionless. I froze on the spot, unable to move away. She was standing just across the road from me. Usually I would have run over to greet her, but today I didn't.
My mind kept saying to me that this isn't Rei. This isn't the same Ayanami that I know. The Ayanami that smiled at me and sacrificed herself for me. This was just an empty shell with a soul put into her.
Her blood red eyes stared at me and I could almost feel myself tremble. I didn't know what to do. Memories of Rei flashed through my mind. Turning my head away, I ran towards Misato's apartment. "Don't look back. Keep running!" I yelled in my mind. And I didn't look back.
*End of Flashback*
Her expressionless face still leaves an imprint in my mind. I didn't know why it scared me so much, but it did. Maybe because it was a lie. Because everything about Ayanami has been a lie.
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Hey! This is my second Evangelion fic and my first one that is in Shinji's POV. I hope that I didn't go OOC, but if I have, I'm sorry. Please review everyone. I really do appreciate all reviews. ^^
So that's why Ayanami is always alone in her own world. That's why I feel a close connection to her.
She's a clone, of … my mother.
When I realised that, I was astonished and afraid. It scared me enough to know that Ayanami, my friend, is a clone. Yet imagine my shock to know that Ayanami's body is a clone of my mother's.
After I had found out that Ayanami was a clone, I had pestered Misato to tell me about Rei's true identity, even though she knew no more than myself. Eventually Ritsuko told me everything about Ayanami. Although her body is a clone of my mother's, Ayanami's soul is a clone of Lilith's. My father created Ayanami for the Dummy Plug.
How could he do such a thing? How could my father just 'create' someone for a stupid experiment? Who would have the heart?
Yet it all makes sense now. I understand now why my father cares so much for Ayanami. She's all that's left of my mother. I never thought that Ayanami was a clone. I mean who would ever suspect that their friend is a clone.
I admit, when I first met Ayanami it surprised me that someone could be so unemotional, but I thought that was just Rei. And as time went on, Ayanami started to open up more and more. Sometimes we would actually even have a decent conversation and she even smiled once.
But now I don't even know how to face Ayanami anymore. I'm afraid of being around her, like I was yesterday when I met her after finding out the truth.
*Flashback*
There standing in front of me was Ayanami, her face expressionless. I froze on the spot, unable to move away. She was standing just across the road from me. Usually I would have run over to greet her, but today I didn't.
My mind kept saying to me that this isn't Rei. This isn't the same Ayanami that I know. The Ayanami that smiled at me and sacrificed herself for me. This was just an empty shell with a soul put into her.
Her blood red eyes stared at me and I could almost feel myself tremble. I didn't know what to do. Memories of Rei flashed through my mind. Turning my head away, I ran towards Misato's apartment. "Don't look back. Keep running!" I yelled in my mind. And I didn't look back.
*End of Flashback*
Her expressionless face still leaves an imprint in my mind. I didn't know why it scared me so much, but it did. Maybe because it was a lie. Because everything about Ayanami has been a lie.
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Hey! This is my second Evangelion fic and my first one that is in Shinji's POV. I hope that I didn't go OOC, but if I have, I'm sorry. Please review everyone. I really do appreciate all reviews. ^^