Everything I knew
My first one-shot and song fic, so please be nice. After reading so many one-shot tragedies I decided to write one. Only took about an hour to write, two hours from when I first had the idea (from a song that came on my I-Pod). May I take this opportunity to thank ron/hermionetrooper for my first 3 reviews for my story Eternal Love, thank you so much - it means so much to me.
Disclaimer: I suppose I'd better point out that the song ain't mine, nor are the characters, so please don't sue…
I walk down the road, autumn leaves swirl around my ankles, I won't look at the varying shades of red. I close my eyes, memories consume me, his vivid hair shining in the morning sunshine, his freckles darkening after an hour by the lake revising. It was by the lake that he told me, or rather he muttered something indecipherable and kissed me. I smile to myself, remember running down to the lake after our last exam, when he proposed, and we fell in laughing, Harry was worried when we turned up to the common room completely drenched. I still wear that ring, it's the only part of my youth that I am prepared to hold on to.
Everything I knew just went out the window
Now I can't depend on you forever
And I never thought I'd see
My life walk away from me
I thought we'd always be together
Voldemort had always been there, an omnipresent threat, never there, never gone. We knew that the last battle would come, and the fate of the prophesy would be decided. We all wanted to be there for Harry when it came, but it was worse then we expected, after being subjected to the Crucio curse for hours on end, Voldemort turned to me, holding his wand high. I braced myself for the green light, too exhausted to fight back, I saw the flash, I heard the rush of speeding death. But I was still alive, Ron had dived in front of me, Ron had died for me, he was lying at my feet, anger, fear and love clouding his face. I wiped away a tear and closed his mouth, before breaking down completely, sobbing on his chest, unable to think, or breathe, I was numb with pain and grief, my mind had turned to ice.
Notice you didn't have to pay
For every word I say
And I wish I could change your decision
And you know that I try
To tell you what its like
But you just wouldn't listen
I loved Ron. We had so many fun times together. He was my best friend, my boyfriend, my fiancée, my angel, my life. When I go to bed at night I curl into a ball under the covers and remember the times we fell asleep in each others arms in front of the common room fire. Dancing together at the post-Quidditch-match parties, doing prefect duties together. He was always willing to risk something for me, belching slugs, his integrity, his dignity, his life…
Lets go back lets rewind to the days that remind me
Of all of the good times that we spent together
And I don't know why we just let it all slide
When we both knew inside we were right for each other
I don't know what to do
Cos you're everything that I knew
I wasn't ready to give him up for the Gods. Why do I have to suffer? I was a good girl, what did I do to deserve this pain? Was a bad in a previous life or something and have to be punished now? 17 years is too short, hardly any time to appreciate life, all the memories were so similar - too much time in school, not enough time having fun. These were still the best 7 years of my life, I'm never going to forget them.
Everythings the same
Its like tomorrow never came
We used to talk about whatever
And the seasons never change
We never used to act our age, everytime we were together
Why you? Why couldn't I have died too? I would be spared this pain, and I'd be with you - forever.
Notice you didn't have to pay
For every word I say
And I wish I could change your decision
And you know that I try and tell you what its like
But you just wouldn't listen
I finally reach the cemetery, silent tears are falling. A dark haired man stands up, tears forming in those brilliant green eyes are magnified in his glasses. I have to be strong, I can't leave Harry. He doesn't deserve to be alone in the world, he has been alone for too long. He pulls me in a tight embrace, tears rolling down our faces. I utter 6 worlds that never lost their meaning, over his shoulder, towards the headstone.
"I'll always love you Ronald Weasley."
I don't know what to do
Cos you're everything that I knew
How can you just walk out of my life
Without even giving a reason
And how can you look so good
The day I watched you leaving
I have to go back - back to being me, plain old Hermione Granger, bookworm, straight O student. But I'll never be me again, I wan only ever me when I was with Ron.