Shattered Pieces of Porcelain Dolls
I'm really tired but I can't sleep, the last time I had a good nights rest was over 2 weeks ago. It's really frustrating, I'm to the point now that I would rather sleep less every day going to bed earliest 11 pm latest 1-2 am and then getting up at 6 am, then go to bed at reasonable hours like 9 pm because when I go to bed early I'm plagued by dreams, no nightmares. And when I get less sleep though I may be unbearably tired all the time and I might get sick and stay sick, and I'm still not better from when I got sick back in November, at least I don't have those crazy dreams from which I wake up scared and uncomfortable but can't seem to remember what happened in most of them. I don't tell the others cause they'd want me to go see a shrink or something and those guys don't do crap. I'm just worried that I might snap one of these days and no one would know why. The stress just keeps building and I know eventually I'm not gonna be able to handle it and I'm gonna break into a million pieces like a porcelain doll that some one dropped, cause I wont be able to hold my self up any more, and I'm the only one holding me up. But that's not what has me the most worried, I don't really care if I break, why should I if no one else does, the problem is that there are so many other people that I'm holding up, and if I break then I drop them and they'll get cracked and smashed and broken too. I don't want to see them fall.
AN: Ok I have no idea where this came from or where it's going, or if it's going anywhere at all. I just wrote this as an entry to my dairy then said wow that sounds Omi-ish. So I changed some stuff around and this is the result. I might just leave this as a one shot, but if you like it and want more r&r and I might continue it. If I do continue this it'll most likely be shonen ai. Please no flames I'll break just like Omi!
Disclaimer: I don't own Omi, or weiß. I'm making no money off of this either. bla bla bla… you get the picture they aren't mine.
I'm really tired but I can't sleep, the last time I had a good nights rest was over 2 weeks ago. It's really frustrating, I'm to the point now that I would rather sleep less every day going to bed earliest 11 pm latest 1-2 am and then getting up at 6 am, then go to bed at reasonable hours like 9 pm because when I go to bed early I'm plagued by dreams, no nightmares. And when I get less sleep though I may be unbearably tired all the time and I might get sick and stay sick, and I'm still not better from when I got sick back in November, at least I don't have those crazy dreams from which I wake up scared and uncomfortable but can't seem to remember what happened in most of them. I don't tell the others cause they'd want me to go see a shrink or something and those guys don't do crap. I'm just worried that I might snap one of these days and no one would know why. The stress just keeps building and I know eventually I'm not gonna be able to handle it and I'm gonna break into a million pieces like a porcelain doll that some one dropped, cause I wont be able to hold my self up any more, and I'm the only one holding me up. But that's not what has me the most worried, I don't really care if I break, why should I if no one else does, the problem is that there are so many other people that I'm holding up, and if I break then I drop them and they'll get cracked and smashed and broken too. I don't want to see them fall.
AN: Ok I have no idea where this came from or where it's going, or if it's going anywhere at all. I just wrote this as an entry to my dairy then said wow that sounds Omi-ish. So I changed some stuff around and this is the result. I might just leave this as a one shot, but if you like it and want more r&r and I might continue it. If I do continue this it'll most likely be shonen ai. Please no flames I'll break just like Omi!
Disclaimer: I don't own Omi, or weiß. I'm making no money off of this either. bla bla bla… you get the picture they aren't mine.