It was like waking up from a dead sleep. How long have I been sleeping? What time is it? I didn't know what was going on. What is all this noise, it is so loud. Why do people insist on mowing their lawn in the morning? Finally I open my eyes, I see Stefan draped over my bed staring at me all concerned.
" What happened? Stefan what are you doing here?" I asked.
" Elena I need to tell you something, when you went over the bridge you had vampire blood in your system." Stefan tells me.
"You mean I am dead." I am freaked out this better be some kind of a joke. I was fine right.
" I am so sorry, you told me to save matt and I did. I thought you would make it." Stefan seemed very emotional.
I look over by the window and there is Damon sitting there staring at me also. He does not look too happy.
" Elena you need to finish the transition or else you will die." Damon declared.
I am so confused as too what is really going on I need to get out of here. I get up and dart toward the door. Stefan and Damon try and find out where I am headed. I just need to get away from them. As I leave the house all I hear is Stefan say, " Lets give her some space."
The only place I can think of where I can think is the cemeteries I will go visit my mom, and dad. I don't want to die, I know at some point I am going to have to feed but at the moment all I can think about is the things I am going to miss out on. As much as I want to sit here and write I cant shake this feeling like I need to be somewhere else. I need to go where all of this happened the Wickery Bridge. As I walk up to the bridge I notice the guardrail ripped off with signs everywhere telling people to slow down. It was really as bad as I thought. As soon as I sit down on the bridge I get flooded with scenario's going on inside my head. They seem vividly real. Damon and I meeting before my parents died. No, this is not real. This is fake. Why am I thinking about this? I need to get out of here. I walk all the way back home to try and forget what I just saw.
As I walk into the house I get flooded with people. Stefan, Damon, and Jeremy they are all sitting in the living room and as soon as I walk into there they bolt up in front of me.
" You can't just leave like that it is not safe when you are in transition." Stefan says.
Damon just gives me the look like he is trying to figure out what is on my mind. Which now I know is that he is trying to figure out if I know what he had done to my memories.
" I just needed to clear my head of everything that was going on. I'm sorry" For once in my life I was trying to figure things out for myself. Every one is always trying to protect me maybe now they will stop.
" Are you okay?" says Jeremy. I quickly hug him.
" I am fine, sorry I had you all worried."
" Are you sure, I know how difficult this is I saw Vicky go through it." Jeremy insisted.
" I am not Vicky I can handle this!" For some reason I lost my temper and just went upstairs.
Once I am up there all the bright lights are so loud and irritating, I have the worst headache I need to lie down and get some rest. By the time I lie down Stefan is back at my side checking on me.
" You are going to have to feed, I don't want you to die." Stefan says.
" Just let me rest for a little bit and then we will talk about everything."
When I wake up I am flooded again with memories, this time from my bedroom. Damon told me he loved me. Deep down I knew he did. I just didn't want to accept it I have made a choice I cannot keep changing my mind.