A/N: I've hesitated to post this for weeks, but if I don't now I never will. My idea of a post-EMPTY scene in verse.
Perhaps some day I'll be able to fix the wrong
Perhaps some day I'll find where I belong
Perhaps some day I'll come to terms with the past
Not sitting here trying to silence ghosts at last
And someday soon I hope he will see
Just why I make promises that I can't keep
Why I let myself run blindly into peril
Why I go to the needle when life becomes sterile
I've faced so much there's little left that I fear
But I'm scared that he might disappear
Maybe by midnight I'll be able to sleep awhile
Instead of watching him doze with a smile
I thought I'd be able to sleep better here
But what I didn't realize is becoming clear
I should have written him and told him my fate
Now my regret sets on me like a weight
I wasn't here for him so why should he be
Ever-ready to come and assist me?
He's far too selfless for me to understand
Now I can only pray he stays close at hand.
I can only hope that one day it'll fall into place
I'll know what I'm doing for the human race
I'll be sure of my course and sure of his aid
I won't have to question if there's a debt unpaid
What if I hurt him too much to forgive?
And what if he never accepts the way I live?
What if I must choose between friend and career?
I can't live without puzzles, or without him near
The clock strikes one and he stirs in his sleep
I cover him carefully with a blanket I keep
To my surprise he opens his eyes
Sees me awake, and asks my why
Why I'm still awake when it's late at night
If I was injured in this evening's fight
If I'm bothered that he's stayed overnight
Why it took so long for us to reunite.
To the first no answer can I think to say
To the second I reply that I am okay
To the third I hastily refute the thought
To the fourth I become distraught
I admit my reasons seemed wise at the time
But now they are no longer quite as sublime
I've hurt my friend, who didn't deserve that pain
Not foreseeing that the hurt would remain
I'm quietly sitting while he expects a reply
I don't know what do say, but I have to try
To mend the past filled with hurt and regret
I know this is something he can't just forget
I mumbled an answer that he doesn't hear
I'm hoping a good reason will suddenly appear
A reason why I didn't sway his false belief
A reason why I didn't silence his grief
There is none forthcoming, I must admit
There is no good reason to do what I did
So I tell him I haven't got the answer he seeks
I would never form one if I thought for weeks
He looks at me calmly, then to my surprise
Starts to smile and gets bright in the eyes
He tells me that is what he needed to hear
I am speechless, but have lost all fear
He was glad I wouldn't excuse my oversight
That I could admit I wasn't always right
A mistake he could forgive, but not my pride
That refused to let me admit to my weak side
The part of me that needed to overachieve
That was the part of me that needed to leave
I needed to say I was wrong and full of remorse
And let forgiveness come from the right source
And with his selfless and caring heart
He forgives me and lets us restart
By the fire we are sitting in 221B
And evermore happy together are we.