So I have Wattpad but this is my first time on this website, and first published Chicago PD story. Hopefully its okay :)

Jay Halstead sat waiting in the car for Hank Voight who was trying to talk some sense into Erin Lindsay. Jay understood why she went off the rails, she lost her best friend, but this wasn't Erin and both the men couldn't let her hang around her junkie mother. Hank Voight came storming out of the bar, he was furious and in his hand was a badge. Jay didn't need to know who's that was.

"Just drive." Voight shouted.

"No, Voight let me try."

"Halstead, she's going to break your heart."

"Look i'm not saying you had no effect, but honestly if I have to punch Bunny in the face to get to Erin I will."

"Jay" Voight spoke his eyes glazed with unshed tears.

"What did she say?"

"It doesn't matter what she said, its what effect that bitch has on her."

"Please just let me try."
Hank nodded.

Jay exited the car towards the bar. He ordered a drink as soon as he walked in and Bunny immediately recognised him.

"Erin doesn't want to speak to you."

"How bout she tells me that herself." Jay bit back.

He approached the table.

"You know, if you want to quit that's fine by me, but don't punish Voight for caring about you, he's your father Erin, I've never seen your mother care about you as much as that man out there does. I understand your hurting, grieving, but doing this to yourself, drinking yourself till you don't even know what sober feels like, taking drugs from a sleezebag then sleeping with him, this is not the Erin Lindsay I know."

"Jay just leave me be."

"Nadia wouldn't want this for you Erin, she wouldn't want you to sit here and blame yourself."

"Don't play that card on me. I thought you loved me Jay."

"I do love you Erin and you know I'd be with you in a heartbeat, but your the one that called us off."

"See, i'm the problem. I bought Nadia into my world, I broke your heart. It's all my fault."

Jay couldn't speak, did she really blame herself.

"Why do you blame yourself Erin?"

"I let Voight get to me, I was so scared to seek his approval of us and I broke your heart in the process and then Nadia. It was my fault she was even out in the first place, she was getting my birthday cake."

"I sent Nadia out to get the cake, if you want to blame anybody blame me." Jay shouted tears streaming down his face as he realised he was the reason the young girl was out in the first place.

"I can't blame you Jay because I love you." Erin shouted back.

"If you love me then let me help you, let me be there for you, don't go down this road. Erin if you really want to break my heart, what your doing right now is a sure way to go about it."

Erin threw her arms around Jay, she clung to his body, as sobs racked her body. Jay could do nothing but hold her and let a few tears slide down his face.

This was what it felt like when your the real reason someone was dead and you have to hold her best friend in your arms and listen to her heartbreaking cries.

Jay managed to get Erin out to the car, Hank Voight watched on in absolute shock.

"Is she okay?" Voight asked.

"She's just processing." Jay spoke.

"You?"

"I'm fine."

"Let's just go."