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This was a stor that just popped into my head, I've an idea where it's going but lets see:D

Inside I'm Breaking

Sakura's POV

"I've something to tell you!" Tomoyo screamed into the phone.

"What's wrong?" I said half yawning as it was half seven in the morning and Tomoyo knew I was not one to arise early.

"I'll tell you later! Syaoran and I are leaving now from the airport but do you want to meet for coffee?" Her voice was cheery as usual but I couldn't help but mentally sigh. I forgot they were coming home early.

"Um yeah sure where do you want to meet?" My attempts to match her tone were to no avail.

"The usual place? Around three? It's nothing really I just haven't talked to you in forev- What? Sakura who else? I know she's not a morning person but- yeah ok." I could hear the low pitch of his voice in the background saying something incoherent. I swallowed nervously hearing him.

"Sakura I'll take to you later ok?" she said in a rushed voice.

"Yeah fine." My mood dropped in an instant to slightly sour.

"Yay! Ok I'll see you then and you BETTER cheer up by then!"

When I hung up I slumped back into my kitchen stool. It's been eight days since I've spoken with Tomoyo since she and Syaoran went on their romantic vacation to Austria.

I suppose in a way it was a relief not hearing from them as to be honest they were kinda in my face being all 'loved up' and what not. Unintentional of course but nevertheless their romance has put a depressing cloud over my pathetic single status. I was still young I guess.

Getting dressed into my sweats I lazed about the kitchen. Sitting again on the kitchen stool I looked around my empty apartment. It was quite big and cosy considering it was only me who lived here. I must admit I did splash out though getting an apartment right in the centre of Tomoeda but hey, being an architect pays well I suppose.

I glanced at my watch seeing it was only 8:30. Gee Tomoyo thanks for unnecessarily waking me up. I decided mopping around the apartment would do no good so I decided a brisk walk was needed. Before I left I wrote a reply e-mail to my good friend Eriol who was currently living in London.

Walking through the refreshing air of Tomoeda there was something bugging me, this nagging feeling that was really starting to irritate the crap out of me. Even as I power walked through Tomoeda it was still there and I had no idea what it was.

Ok I knew what it was but I was too proud to even admit it to myself. To admit that it might have something to do with him. The uncomfortable feeling that has come over me since their plane left Japanese ground. Not hearing from them made me uneasy as well. Why? I don't know I guess I'm just use to speaking to Tomoyo every day and Syaoran every second day.

Syaoran Li.

Just the though of him and Tomoyo made me walk faster to the point I was nearly running. Running from something maybe.

Glancing back at my watch I saw it was now half two which gave me just enough time to get ready. I was actually dreading this. I know Tomoyo only wants to catch up but I guess I wasn't in the mood for Syaoran this and Syaoran that. I'm being bitter I know. I have my reasons.

But only for the fact Tomoyo was my cousin and I've known her since she was born five months after me do I say nothing. She was my best friend through thick and thin and right now she was happy. I wouldn't ruin that for her for my own spiteful ways.

"Just suck it up." I mumbled to myself.

Before I left towards our usual place I did not forget to paste on a fake smile on. God it was going to be a long day.

xxxxxxxxx

Tomoyo was sitting outside the café with a pair of thick Prada sunglasses with a huge mug of coffee in her hand. A latte was perched in the seat opposite her. Typical Tomoyo never forgot my usual. When she saw me through those thick glasses she squealed and waved frantically at me.

"Sakura!" She screeched so loud neighbouring customers were looking at her.

She stood up to embrace me. Hugging me tightly I was wafted by the smell of what was probably a ridiculously expensive perfume.

"I missed you!" She said before ripping off her sunglasses and saw her almost lavender eyes gleaming.

"You too, you look great." I noticed. It was not a lie. Tomoyo was always fashionable but not she looked like an export from Milan. She was obviously wearing designer from head to toe making me intimidated to sit in front of her in a mere knee length summer dress. Her hair too was thick and black and rested like a silky curtain at her shoulders.

"Thanks, its Chanel," She said beaming.

I laughed nervously not knowing why this situation was off. We eventually launched into our regular talk. She talked about Paris, designer shows she went to and how she had a lunch with the Governor of Brittney. I nodded keeping a plastered smile on not knowing what the hell she was talking about. She didn't mention Syaoran yet which was odd because usually he ended up in the conversation. I had to admit as much as I was uneasy about meeting her I realised how much I missed her. Before she moved in with Syaoran we were roommates. Lately she's been spending a lot of time with Syaoran and I declined any offers to hang out as I hated being struck down with a case of the 'third wheel'

I had to say I was glad not hearing his name though, it was nice it just being us. But at the same time I wondered how he was.

"It was amazing Sakura! I wanted to call so bad but time difference and all you know? Did you get my e-mail? Cause I think I sent you an e-mail, did I send you one?"

Yeah she did. One.

I was happy she thought of me but had it been two or three years ago she would have called at any hour not caring whether or not I was asleep. She just cared that way.

"Yeah I got it. Thanks." I said while sipping my hot latte.

"You never replied!" She pouted jokingly but I knew really she was curious as to why I didn't reply.

"I was busy." I lied. It was a lousy e-mail. I remember it perfectly actually.

Hey Sakura!

Paris is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!

Hope your not missing me too much! Just wondering if you could pick up something for me in the dry cleaners I forgot to! I have the receipt in my second drawer thanks!

Talk soon

Tomoyo.

"I made time for you." Tomoyo seemed genuinely sad. Little things like this always got to her. The poor girl for as long as I remember has always gotten upset for things that weren't her fault or meant nothing. Take for instance, not replying to an e-mail.

"Sorry Tomoyo don't take it personally."

She was fine after that but yet still did not mention Syaoran. Where was he anyway? I thought he'd go with her to see me. Guess not. No doubt Tomoyo told him it was a girl's only meeting up.

"So um… how's Syaoran?" I asked not even looking at her rather I focused on my peach painted nails.

"Um…" She said.

I glance up at her seeing a smirk play on her face. She placed the cup down slowly and pinched the top of her leather gloved. It slid of to reveal a huge diamond rock on her finger.

My heart stopped.

No…. please God no.

"He proposed!" She screamed and started clapping her hands so fast the ring became a sparkly blur.

She stopped clapping to gage my reaction. I said nothing. I simply stared at the diamond with my mouth agape. I felt the blood drain from my face and settle in a pool at my feet. This is a dream. Actually no, this was my worst fricking nightmare!

"Sakura?" She asked in a worried voice and leaned in as to check if I didn't have a stroke.

Oh my God this was happening.

I knew I had to say something! Say anything! But no words came from my mouth. I was a complete blank.

Blinking some sense into myself I started to laugh loud. Loud enough to shield the sound of my heart brake. "That's… That's….Amazing!" I said really loud.

Thankfully she did not notice the fact I was over trying. Instead she squealed once again saying "Oh my God I'm so happy you're happy for me! I thought you.. well I don't know."

"Tomoyo of course I'd be happy for you! This is the best news I've heard in years!"

Lie.

"I knew Syaoran was going to propose sooner or later."

Lie.

"I can't wait for the wedding!"

Lies, lies, lies, lies, lies FUCKING LIES!

"Me neither! You know I thought it would never happen I mean we're going out like nearly four years!" I cringed when she said that. She sighed happily and smiled twirling the ring round and round her finger. She looked so happy. So happy I thought she forgot I was still here.

"I best be going." I said suddenly jumping up from the table almost knocking the contents of the cup over.

"What? Oh I thought maybe we could go back to my house and you me and Li can talk again like it use to be! Except Eriol's not here." She said saddening her tone.

"I can't!" I said a little too hesitantly. She stared wide eyed at me not understanding my weird reaction to her news.

"Um… Toya's out so Kero must be lonely.. and hungry."

She scratched her head not understanding me. "But… he's a cat Sakura. He'll be fine."

"Om… you got me." I started to laugh. "I just really want to break the news to Toya and Dad. They'll be so thrilled."

"Oh I see! Oh ok well come by tomorrow pleeeeease!"

I agreed to keep her happy. I just needed to get out of there so fricking bad. How did she not pick up my mood? This was not ok with me yet, she was too happy in Daidouji world. I couldn't stay here anymore. I need to get out. After I promised her I would call by tomorrow to have a mini celebration with her and him she hugged me and we headed our separate directions.

I rain as I walked home. Strike that, it pissed down from the heavens. I didn't even notice the rain soaking through my cloths. I didn't pay attention to anything. I just kept seeing that ring. I saw Tomoyo's face overjoyed for the life she was to get. She'd have everything she could ever want. I never cared about money or cars or clothes or even the security that came with the possibility of marrying a Li. All I would ever want is him.

Syaoran Li.

My short brown hair clung to my wet cheeks. I walked past my apartment. I didn't want to be there, alone to think about everything. Instead I kept walking straight until I arrived outside the gates of a very familiar yellow house. The gates did not creak as I opened them for once. The automatic light flicked on as I approached the door. Under the black clouds I felt safe under the yellow light. The door was locked. I rang the bell and held my breath praying dad wouldn't answer the door.

It wasn't. It was Toya.

"Heeeey what brings you here?" He said cheerful. Behind him the t..v. blared and I saw thankfully that Yukito wasn't here either.

"Sakura?" he said when I didn't reply.

A lump rose in my throat. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't need to as I combusted into tears. The rain eased slightly around me but I felt numb.

"Hey, hey." He said putting the bowl of popcorn down and putting an arm around me. He brought me out of the porch and into the kitchen. "What's wrong Kura?"

Whimpering a little my words wobbled from my mouth.

"It's Tomoyo and Syaoran. They're engaged."

Hey guys um... this is my first ever fanfic so hope ye enjoyed :)

There will be plenty of different POV's in the following chapters so Syaoran will make an apperance :D