Confidence kept in a mind so undefined
You sit and you stare as your mind grinds
Pail away the darkness as the rust turns to dust
Gears that unwind just to tighten up
They twist and turn as you yearn
Yearn for power
Yearn for love
You cant see let alone breath
Screams escape out of shallow breath
You cant blink
To blinded by rage
You cant talk
Your mind just walks
As you drift away in a sea of ugliness
Sought out by no one
Seen by all
A force full feeling of regret
Kept and slept in your head
Thoughts of other
Not your own
They scream your no one
They wont leave you alone
A poison dart in your head
Pistons turn and smoke revokes
As the truth slicks away and nothing but heart lurks
To lose what little you were proud of
Love and glory decays
Were fear awakens a deeper hatred
For the concern of other diverts you
As you deny what was given
You claimed nothing could come between them
You find yourself forgetting their names
Is it loneliness you await
It is love you disregard
To know you don't feel the way you once did
Dose it hunt you
The way you got things done
Although evil and demented
Effective in the least
Can you do it again
Can you stay in the past
A snivel man awaits in the present
To be covered in darkness like a soared night
To be something you were
To be something your not
To know by the look you see in their eyes
You wont stand around and watch yourself cry
You cant force them to be the way you love
You cant change it
You cant replace it
You fought it back
But the evil since returned
Leaked threw the mental blocks
Like gas under a door
Ready to igniteas you choke out a voice of love
Replace it with hate
For you didn't make evil
You just became a byproduct of such
A shadow in the gray
You push it but it runs
You're a stranger to your self
A reflection in the mirror
As you fall to your knees
Screaming but never hearing a sound
You charge looking ever so proud
A shroud dropped like a cloud
Your pain slowly slips away as your mind betrayed itself
You fall to the ground
Helpless to move
Destroyed by self saboteurs
Justin price "vegeta rewind" July 3 2012
