You Look So Young
I walked down the streets of Honoha. A slight chill went through my body. I was all alone. Sasuke has left years ago, getting power. It had affected me more than I had thought it would. To this day I'm not sure if I was really ever in love with him. He was cold. Uncaring. He hurt me bad. really bad. He put me down, I would even go as far to say that he made me hate myself. But if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have thrived to be stronger.
Naruto... He was gone training. We, the village, wasn't sure when he'd be back. So much had happened. He, I guess, needed to be alone. With Jiraya's death being not so long ago he snapped. So here I was... alone. Again... of course there was Kakashi... but of course He had recently left on another S-class mission.
Kakashi had become very reckless these past few months. He would take the most dangerous missions Tsunade-shisho could find. This only genin team was in ruins. The last Uchiha. The demon fox. And me. He hated me, I was sure. After what I had told him before he left on this last mission.
You're lonesome in the morning. In the morning where you lay. Toss your head against the window. Beads form like crooked trains.
I had told him I didn't want him to think of me as a little girl anymore. I wanted him to see me as his equal. I wanted him to see me as a woman. I... I wanted his love. Not just a friendly love. I wanted him to be in love with me. It seemed impossible now. I don't even know what I was thinking. Someone like me having the nerve to even think he would love me.
I wasn't nice. I had hurt many people. Including my teammate. I was selfish. I was an awful person. I mean I was a silly excuse for a kunoichi. I had pink hair. I was to skinny. I was weak. I was annoying. There was no way I could be as strong as Tsunade-shisho.
Not only that but he was once my teacher. He was 14 years my senior. I being 17 and himself 31. It was wrong. It was right. Every fiber of me wanted him. I wanted him more than I had ever wanted another man. He was everything I wanted to be. I wanted him to be apart of me. I wanted him to accept me to love me
You look so young. Have you ever been afraid? You look so young. And I'm feeling so ashamed.
Oh how I wished that he would come home, that he would walk right up to me and tell me he thought about what I had said and that he loved me too. That was wishful thinking. My eyes perked up seeing the silver hair I longed to see. "Kakashi!" I yelled. The villagers who where walking around the market glared at me. I paid no attention and ran after the man who continued to walk.
Why was he avoiding me. I was starting to get really angry. That man knew the affect he had over me and here he went just walking along. I finally caught up to him when he had made it to the stone that had all the ninja's names on it who had died in the line of combat. "Kakashi!" I yelled almost out of breath from trying to catch up with the man. "Didn't you hear me yell for you?" I asked.
He glanced at me, and than looked back down at the stone.
Selfish thoughts ad selfish reasons lead to my own demise. Once this world is taken from me. Stripped bear my soul will rise.
He still didn't answer me. "Is something troubling you Kakashi. Are you injured. I didn't think you'd be back so early from your mission."
"Sakura." I looked up at him shocked by how strong his voice sounded. He was so serious right now. Nothing like the man I knew who would joke about anything even being late. "Promise me that you're name will never be on this stone." He sounded sad.
"Only if you do." I smiled at him, my hands crossed behind my back.
"I'm... I'm sorry but I can't make you that promise Sakura-chan."
I was shocked, he called me Sakura-chan. I was so excited I looked up at him to see his mask was down, no longer covering his face. My breath was taken away he was beautiful. He was amazing. Not a single flaw was on hi face.
You look so young. Have you ever been afraid? You look so young. And I'm feeling so ashamed.
He stepped closer to me. He lowered his face to mine. I could feel his warm breath on my lips. My eyes fluttered open. My body was screaming. My stomach was doing flips, and finally I felt his lips mesh in to mine. So soft. So warm. I felt lik I could die at this very moment.
"Kakashi does that mean...?" I stopped talking when his finger touched my lips.
"Yes Sakura-chan, this means I love you too." He smiled and gave me another a peck. His eyes saddened. "I have to go now Sakura-chan."
"Wait why!" I yelled running after than man, only to find him gone. I searched all over for him. I sighed maybe he had to go to the Hokage tower and report to Tsunade-shisho his mission. I started to make my way out of the forest.
I see farmiler faces. Been down this road before. Like steer, we're lead to slaughter. Why fight what's carved in stone.
I stopped walking feeling a chakra right next to me "Yes?"
The Anbu who stood next to me "Tsunade-sama want's to see you. She seems hasty so you should hurry." And than he was gone. It must be important if Tsunade-shisho was hasty. I quickly hurried to the Hokage office. When I arrived Tsunade sat at the desk kicking back another cup of sake.
"What's going on Tsunade-shisho?" I asked. She didn't answer but just poured another cup of sake.
"you need to look at this." She said, holding out a scroll for me. I grabbed the scroll from her hands and opened it. I felt my breath hitch in my throat. It read...
Hatake Kakashi: KIA..
My knees gave out ad I sat in the middle of Tsunade's office for what seemed like hours. I didn't move. I don't even think if I wanted to I would be able to. I felt like I was going to throw up. I don't think I'd ever cried so much in my life. I loved him with everything. How could I go on without him.
He didn't want me to be KIA... So I wouldn't. I would stay safe for him. So one day... I would be able to tell him I had kept his promise.
A/N
I know its sad :( I hope ya all liked it.