"I wasn't sure that love could survive everything we put it through, but you were. You were sure, you were always sure."
—Boy Meets World
"I DO"
Dear Nagisa,
Sometimes things don't always go to plan, but that's okay. Because when things don't go to plan, but you're still beside me, then everything is okay. Okay? 'Cause you are my sunshine, my rainbow after the rain, the shoulder to cry on, the person who greets me when I come home.
Today is the day. Our wedding day. Yet why do I feel so hesitant?
I pace back and forth the room reserved for the groom, a frown painted upon my face. Ignoring the fact that I was wrecking the hair that the stylists spent so long on, I ran my fingers through it. My hands are shaking, knees are wobbly and my breathing is coming out in short bursts, as I fail to make myself feel any calmer.
Sitting down on the leather couch in the room, I place my face in my hands.
I'm getting married today…
"Don't get married Karma! This is your last chance to step out of this building and leave this all behind!"
What?
Right in front of me was another me. An older me. His hair was dishevelled, eyes were red-rimmed and the bags under his eyes were soot black.
"Don't get married Karma! You need to not get married today, not to Nagisa, you don't deserve it. He doesn't deserved it!" The tired Karma screamed desperately, hoping to get his message across.
Shell-shocked, I stuttered, "What…what are you saying?"
"I'm from the future Karma. You, no we, we are the same person. And I need you to cancel this wedding and leave this place, before… before..." Future Karma couldn't finish his sentence, as the memories surfaced and made him unable to think properly.
I was having none of this. Grabbing future Karma by the shoulders, I shook him violently. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?"
"His smile was so bright." A lone tear streaked down his face.
I stilled, dropping Future Karma onto the floor. "Was? As in the past?" Then realisation dawned on my face. "You mean… Naigisa dies?"
Future Karma nods his head sadly, "He died in a car accident yesterday." Slumping onto the floor to join Future Karma, I was at a loss for words.
"Do you miss him?" I hesitantly ask.
"Every day more than the last." He replied. "Because every day after his death, I would remember a new experience I had with him in the past. Even though he is gone, I still feel him. Here, he's here", he says, pointing to his heart. "So what are you going to choose?"
You see, life stumps me with a lot of questions. And don't get me wrong, the answers are never easier than the questions. But looking at the memories I made with you, my beloved, after getting married, I instantaneously knew the answer I was searching so desperately for.
"To get married of course." Future Karma's smile could not be brighter.
My Nagisa, have I told you how beautiful you looked on our wedding day and how your smile will be forever ingrained into the recesses of my mind? I miss you so much it hurts you know. I don't plan to stop loving you.
This is so cheesy, but I love you. I really do.
And if I had the chance, I would say "I do" a thousand times over.
Hello everyone, millieashford here. This is actually inspired off a youtube video I watched a couple of years back, kudos to those who know which one I'm talking about.
Hope you enjoyed it!
~millieashford