Summary: She never once had a family-somewhere she belonged, she was always moved from one place to another. From one house to another, and another school to another school. Will she ever find where she belongs? Set in the 20th century.
ONE-SHOT
~Year 1987~
Bella's POV
I was back….back to this awful place. My home, my "adoptive" parents had given up on me, and sent me back to this awful orphanage. At 11 I've been through at least a 100 foster parents who had eventually given me up because I wasn't "what they wanted", so they called Mary and she came and picked me up and brought me back to the orphanage where I would sit and sit in the corner by myself as the "parents" looked at the other kids who would love to be with the right family.
"Mama! Mama!" a little girl squealed pulling her mother towards another room
It was adoption day, I've gone through hundreds of them…ever since I was a baby. Mary told me I was left on the steps in a box. My mother hadn't wanted me, I stayed there all night in the box while it was raining until Mary found me and brought me in. I never wanted to know my real mother, if she had wanted me I wouldn't be here right now.
She probably has a new family now and more kids, brothers and sister that I would share blood with.
"Who's this?" I heard someone ask
"This is Bella, she's been in and out of adoptive families because they decided they didn't want her. She's not a handful. She's quiet and loves to read at her young age with whatever she can find in a small library" Mary said
They didn't say much else and I knew it was yet another family who would want a better child.
"We want her" a man said
"That's great, let me go get the paperwork. Make friends with your new daughter Mrs. And Mr. Cullen" Mary said
I lifted my head and look at the beautiful people standing at the door, the lady wasn't very tall, maybe a 5'6 height with auburn hair and the greenest green eyes. The man was a lot taller than the lady at a possible 6'3 with blonde hair and green eyes also. Why would those beautiful people want me? Plain old Bella?
"Hi sweetie" the lady said kneeling down to my level
I hid away from her curling up closer to the wall, I didn't like this.
"She's scared Esme" the man said putting a hand on her shoulder
The lady –Esme- frowned at her husband (I think?) and talked again.
"Hi sweetie, I won't hurt you, you know what? I love you already and I barely even know you" she said
That couldn't be possible, no, it couldn't no one loved me. I knew this for a fact.
"You can't" I whispered
"I can't what Bella?" she asked
"Love me," I whispered again
"Oh baby, I love you so much. You seem like the perfect daughter, you'll always be my favorite child" she said
"No one loves me, you don't know me" I said
"I do know you a bit, and I do love you Bella. Now let's get you to stand up and get going" she said standing and holding her hand out to me. I looked at it like it was foreign before taking her hand and standing up on my feet. I was up to her waist with my height, it made me blush and Esme giggle.
"Don't worry sweetheart, I'm quite short for my age" she said
I smiled at the lady and just….I knew that maybe I could have home for once, maybe this will be permanent. We walked out to the room where Mary was with my paperwork and she smiled at me,
"Now before I let you sign these. Bella's been in a lot of foster homes lately and has been hurt when they've sent her back to us. She usually doesn't forget these things, I need to know if this girl with be safe in your home" she said
"Of course! This girl is very precious to me already Mary, I love her already and I know this girl may deny that no one has ever loved her and no one ever will but I do. I love this girl like crazy Mary and if I sent her back to this place I'd beat myself up. Don't you think honey?" Esme said looking to her husband
He nodded
"She really does. We can't have kids, neither of us, so we've adopted children. Emmett is our only child at the moment, but Bella here, will be a great addition to our family" Carlisle said
"I've heard this from a lot of families and she's ended up right back up here—"she said
"Mary" I said quietly
She looked over to me with a sour look on her face, I don't want her to do this again. She does this everytime I go somewhere new.
"I'm sorry for the misunderstandings, sign here" she said passing them a paper
Esme signed and Carlisle soon after
"And here" she said pointing somewhere else
They signed. After signing a few more papers and it taking forever she finally smiled.
"She's yours for now. We'll be inspecting your home on surprise and we won't be giving you any warning" she said
"Of course" Esme said turning to me
She smiled at me, but I didn't smile back. I wanted to be happy but I never smiled at them because I knew that one day I would be back in this place, people hate me. Esme grabbed my hand and we walked out of the home to a car, a station wagon. It was an expensive car now days. I was put in the backseat and my seatbelt was put on before they got in the front, smiling.
"You're going to love Forks Bella, and your new brother Emmett is 12. He's a really fun person" Esme said
"What is forks?" I asked
"It's the town we live in, we actually live outside of town but we live close to forks" she said
"Where is….your son now?" I asked
"He stayed over at a friend's house" she said
"Oh" I said
I had no friends, I probably would never have any friends.
"Forks is a few hours away from here, so if you want to there's a blanket and a pillow and you can take a nap" Carlisle said
"I'm okay" I said
I don't know how long it was before I felt so tired that I used the things they had and slept in the back on their car.
Bella's dream
I sat in a room, waiting, patiently.
"Bells it won't be too bad" Em said
"You're not the one who will have to go through this if it's true Em" I said
"Bella" he whined
"Emmett enough!" I snapped at him
"Sometimes I wonder if this is true or not, you've had a really bad attitude lately" he mumbled
I smacked his arm and he burst into laughter.
End of dream
I woke with a start, and we were going through a town. It looked strange.
"It's good to see you're awake again" Esme said smiling back at me
"How long was I asleep?" I asked
"Two hours or so, we just arrived in Forks. We should be home in a little, we just have to pick up Emmett" Esme said
As she said that we pulled into a driveway where two boys stood playing basketball….it looked….weird. Carlisle got out of the car and Esme looked back to me.
"Emmett is a very nice person but when it comes to his friends, he likes to keep things to himself Bella" she said
"Okay" I said
Carlisle was talking to some people why the boy who I suppose is Emmett was walking over to the car. He put his things in the back of the car and slid in the car and looked to me,
"Hi I'm Emmett" he said holding out his hand
I didn't say anything and just stared at his hand,
"Emmett honey this is Bella, she's really shy" Esme said
I looked down at blushed, she was so embarrassing already and I barely knew her. Emmett just laughed,
"It's okay mom, she can't be the best out there" he said
I didn't like that, I was so…not happy.
"Emmett!" Esme scolded
He just rolled his eyes and turned the other way in the car as Carlisle slipped into the car again. He drove off and I just wanted to cry, but I didn't show any weakness to this…boy. We pulled into another driveway a few moments later, I knew this would be my home for now, well that was until I went back to the home.
Emmett jumped out of the car and Esme looked back at me,
"Come on Bella, let me show you your new room" she said
I slipped out of the car and took her hand as we walked into the house. Their house was….amazing. It was so high up and you could see the steps as they walked up to the other rooms in the house. It was so amazing, I would miss this place when I left.
"We didn't know if we would be adopting legally a boy or a girl and how old they would be so we left the room neutral colors with a few dressers in there. We can get you a bed today" she said
"Thank you" I said
She just smiled and lead me up the stairs, there were so many! When we finally got off of the stairs (it felt like forever) she led me down the hall,
"This is Emmett's room here, he usually spends time in here or outside" she said pointing to a closed door
I think I'll leave him alone,
"And this here is the powder room, Carlisle gets up at 5 for work and I usually take a shower after him. If you need to, you can take a shower whenever" she said
"Thank you" I said nodding at her
She grinned and walked over to another room, though this door she opened. The rooms in the colors were light yellows, and no bed, I had a very big feeling this is my room.
"This is your room" she said
I walked into the room, and saw no bed, some dressers and something with another door.
"That's your closet" she said
"Why do I have a dresser and a closet?" I asked
She smiled and shook her head
"The closet could be for things you shouldn't fold" she said
"Of course" I said
"Our room is right down the hall, if you ever need anything you can just ask, just knock first. Do you know how to get back downstairs?" she asked
"I think I'll manage" I said
She walked out of the room and I pulled my bag from my shoulder taking the few things of mine I had in it. There wasn't much, a book which Mary gave me, and some pictures of my old families. I don't know if I wanted to put those up or not, they never loved me anyways. Why did I keep all these pictures? It made me wonder.
There were frames on the dressers already actually, so I grabbed one and went and looked through my pictures and found my favorite family so far. They were an amazing couple and they didn't have any other kids, they did love me, and if they wouldn't have died I would have stayed with them. I miss them….I really miss them.
Can't life just be normal for me….for once? I sat by the window in the room just closing my eyes. I wanted this day to be over. It wasn't long before Esme came into my room and smiled at me,
"Hi honey" she said
"Hi" I said quietly
"You missed dinner honey" she said
"Oh" I said
"If you want me to bring you something…" she said
I shook my head,
"I'm….I'm okay" I said
"Bella you can't sit in this room forever you know" she said
"I…" I said
"Bella come on," she said holding out her hand to me
I took her hand and we walked out of the room and down the stairs where the boys were both sitting, in what I suppose was the living room. She took me into the kitchen and sat me down at the table, before going over to the fridge and pulling out a plate of food. She grabbed a fork from a drawer and sat it down in front of me.
"Here, eat" she said
I took the fork from her and looked down at the food, it had been a while since I had some good food. The place I was at before didn't have much good food and we had to suffice with what we had at the time.
"Bella?" she asked
"It's…." I said
She sat down next to me, and turned in her seat.
"What is it?" she asked
"Just…different" I said
"You must not have had the best food at that place" she said
I shook my head, she just smiled.
"Well you live here now, so you'll have whatever you need" she said
"Thank you Esme" I said
She just…smiled, again.
"You're very welcome sweetheart" she said
~6 years later~
"Beeellllaaa!" my best friend yelled in the middle of the cafeteria
God she's embarrassing! I wonder why I'm friends with her. Oh yeah….because she's my sister.
"Alice" I hissed at her as she sat down at the table
She just…grinned,
"What's up big sissy?" she asked
"Why do you have to be so embarrassing? Can't you just….I don't know, be normal?" I asked
She rolled her eyes,
"Since when am I, Alice Brandon-Cullen, normal?" she asked
"Not once since I met you" I said
Alice is my age, and we're in the same class, seniors. She came to the Cullen's when I was 13, so 2 years after I came to their home. She was 12 ½, and very….chirpy. I don't know why, but we immediately became best of friends.
She shook her head at me
"You know Bella, I thought I saw Edward today" she said winking at me
Edward Masen, Emmett's best friend, was….well how do I describe him? He's super tall, 6'4, to be exact. His hair, the odd color of bronze/auburn shines in the summer and becomes darker in the winter. Ever since I met him, after I turned twelve in September, I've….he's just been a fascination of mine. I admit it, I like the guy, and my sister knows this.
He graduated last year, with our brother Emmett, and went off to college in Seattle. No one really sees him around, so when Alice mentioned she saw him today I was surprised. Why would he be here?
"What do you mean?" I asked
"I mean I saw him! He's in the school" she said
"Why?" I asked
She shrugged, and looked away, I knew she was hiding something from me.
"Alice, you're hiding something from me" I said
She sighed
"Emmett called last night" she said
"So?" I asked
"He knew Edward was coming up to Forks today and informed me about it….he said something…about Edward" she said
"What about…?" I asked being cut off by the bell
"I'll tell you later" she said
We headed to our lockers, the same one's we've had since freshman year, and pulled out our books for our next class. Which happened to be English, we were lucky enough to sit next to each other.
"So, tell me" I said
"I told you I'll tell you later" she said
"It is later!" I said
She giggled and shook her head at me,
"It's nothing major, Bella" she said
"Liar," I said
She rolled her eyes at me and class continued like it normally did, we had a partner project and obviously Alice and I paired up. We worked on the project quietly without saying a word about what was said at lunch to each other and only focused on the project we had to do.
The rest of the day went by quickly and I was thanking god, it was Friday. We were one week closer until Christmas Break! When we got in my car I looked at my sister,
"Tell me" I said
"Edward likes you" she blurted out covering her mouth
My jaw dropped,
"What?" I asked
"Emmett said, he likes you! Also, Emmett says he knows you like him too and you'd be the perfect match…and…and…" she said
"Back up a minute Alice, did you say he l-I-k-e-s me? Plain ole Isabella Cullen?" I asked
"You are not plain! If Edward Masen, the football quarterback, likes YOU then you are far from plain. You're a beautiful girl Bella," she said
I sighed and started the car before driving off to our home, which had changed so much in the last 6 years since I got here. With more additions to the family, Alice, the house had grown. There were more rooms and the dining room was HUGE, we were lucky dad was a doctor.
When we got home, I noticed a truck, Edward's truck in our driveway. He was obviously visiting with our parents.
"See, maybe this is meant to be" she said winking at me
I blushed and smacked my sister's shoulder turning off the car and getting out. When I walked into the house, I knew he was here, I….I could just tell. When I walked into the living room my mother stood up and smiled at me.
"Welcome home Bella" she said
"Mom" I said
I looked over and saw the face of Edward Masen,
"Edward" I said
"Bella" he said
~a year later~
I sat there, waiting. I was nervous, super nervous to be exact.
"Bells" Emmett whined
"Shut up Em," I said
"Oh come on Bella, it can't be that bad" he said
"You're an idiot!" I snapped at him
"I kind of believe this stupid thing is true, about how you are acting" he said to me rolling his eyes
"Well keep your mouth shut! I don't really want this to be true, do you know how much this would ruin my future?" I snapped at him again
"You think it will just effect you? Bella, this is going to effect everyone" he said
"Though Emmett, it'll effect, me the most" I said
"And my best friend" he said
"Yes, and Edward" I said rolling my eyes
"So, why couldn't that dude come with you? Should….Does he know?" he asked
"Not yet" I said
"Isabella Cullen" the nurse called at the doors
I stood from my seat and walked toward the nurse, she just smiled at me.
"Hi sweetheart, what are you doing here? You're dad took the day off today, and you know you could have said—" she said
"I'm here to see a doctor" I said
She looked…confused,
"You can't be…" she said
I bit my lip
"Are you a senior?" she asked
"Freshman in college" I said
"I didn't even know you were seeing someone" she said
"Yeah….it was kind of a secret" I said
"I see, now it might not be so secret anymore" she said
"I guess" I said as she led me to a room
She told me to sit and wait and went over to cabinets, pulling out a few things. She pulled out a cup,
"I need you to pee in this, and come back" she said handing me the cup
I did my business came back and gave it to her, without even hesitation.
"Give me a minute and I'll be back, the doctor will be in soon" she said
It wasn't that long before she came back into the room and the doctor followed,
"Hello Isabella" he said
"Dr. Crowley" I said
"We've done the home test, according to the test, you are….indeed pregnant" he said
I curled up into a little ball and just….sobbed. I wasn't ready to be a mother….and I knew for a fact Edward Masen wasn't ready to be a father.
To Be Continued….
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