Dani POV

Who would have thought your life could change so much in a short space of time. I went from being married to my childhood sweetheart Laura, had a great job working as an accountant, and had my family around me. Then after 2 years of marriage, something terrible happens and I lose everything. My wife, my home, my job and my family.

That brings me to where I am today, I upped and moved across state, with my 6 year old son and another baby on the way. Nico looked so much like me, he had a dimple in his chin and had my eyes and mouth but he had my ex-wife's hair colour which is mousy blonde colour.

I brought a cheap 2 bedroom apartment with the money I got from my marriage. I have now been living in Miami Florida for about 4 months now, and I am still struggling with finding a job, after what happened in my old hometown. I am also struggling making sure my 6 year old has everything he needs and paying off bills.

I was just lead in bed thinking about what had happened when all of a sudden my bedroom door swung open and Nico came running in and jumped on my bed.

"Good morning baby boy, did you sleep well" I smiled at Nico as he snuggled into my side. I leant down slightly and kissed his forehead, moving some of his hair out from his eyes.

"Yes mummy. Did you and the baby sleep ok" Nico moved slightly so he could kiss my tiny bump then leant up and kissed my cheek. I enjoy times like this, lead in bed in the morning just snuggled up, before we have to get ready for the day ahead of us.

"We slept very well thank you" I can't believe how polite and how well behaved my son is. After everything we have been through. Only thing I worry about is he hasn't asked about his other mummy, see those 2 had bond a bit like father/son as Laura was different to other girls and was born with a penis.

Before Nico came in I had to see if I could get a doctor's appointment this morning, for after I had dropped Nico off at school as I wasn't feeling well at all and I'm worrying there might be something wrong with the baby.

"What would you like for breakfast baby boy" I rubbed Nico's back waiting for a reply

"Can I have coco pops please mummy"

"Of course you can. Come on then, let's go get some cereal before we have to get ready to leave" Nico jumped up out of bed and left my bedroom. I got up out of bed went to make my bed when I noticed blood on the sheets, I looked down and noticed some blood on my pyjama shorts.

I quickly stripped the bed and put it in the laundry basket before grabbing some underwear and a pair of sweats from the draw before going to the bathroom to tidy myself up. I quickly grabbed a pad and putting that in my underwear, before grabbing my phone and calling one of Nico's friends mum. The phone rung and rung before she finally answered

"Good morning Dani, how are you this morning" I could hear the smile in Julies voice. She wasn't like those other parents who just look down there nose at you, because you're a 24 year old with a 6 year old son.

"I'm ok thank you. Would you be able to help me with a big favour this morning" I wasn't trying to sound panicked but I couldn't help it

"Dani what's wrong, I can tell by your voice there is something wrong, Is it Nico, or is it you" I took a deep breath before replying. Trying to keep my breathing steady

"Nico is fine. I've been feeling unwell last couple of days and just thought I was coming down with something or it was to do with the baby, so booked a doctor's appointment for after I dropped Nico off at school. I got out of bed and realised there was blood on my bed sheet and on my PJ shorts, so I was wondering if you could take Nico to school and I can go to the hospital" I could hear Nico calling me so made my way to the kitchen so I can get his cereal sorted.

"Oh Dani, I'm coming to pick both of you up, we can dropped the kids of at school and I'm going to take you to the hospital. OK?" I really looked up to Julie like an older sister. She has helped me a number of times since I have been in New York.

"Ok thank you. Will you take Nico in as well and just explain to his teacher what's happening" I was really worrying now

"Yes Dani of course I will. I'll come and pick you up in 20 minutes. OK?"

"Thank you. See you soon"

I went on and tidied the kitchen whilst Nico was eating. Once Nico had finished I put his bowl and his Iron Man cup in the bowl, I can wash them later when I get home from the hospital. Nico went into the living room and started playing with his toys like he usually does after breakfast, even though I tell him he can play for 10 minutes, but this morning he can't as we need to be ready for when Julie picks us up.

"Nico come on please, you need to get ready, JJ's mummy is picking us up in 20 minutes so we need to get ready super-duper quick" As soon as I told him we were going with his friends mum he quickly put his toys away before running to his bedroom. I got him out a pair of chinos and an iron man t-shirt for him and a blue jumper. I left him to get dressed, because he always tells me that he is a big boy now he doesn't need help. I went to my bedroom and finished getting dressed, just putting on a bra and a vest top and just wearing a baggy hoody over the top.

I went back to check on Nico, to see that he is ready and messing around with his hair, I walked over and grabbed the styling gel, getting some on my hands before styling his hair how he likes it. Nico recently had his hair cut so he asked for a big boys cut so he had short back and sides, with his hair spiked back in a quiff. I was just finishing sorting his hair out when there was a knock at the front door. I quickly grabbed Nico's little back pack and my hand bag from my room, before going to open the front door.

"Hey Dan, good morning Nico, you ready to get going" I was about to reply yes, when I realised I haven't sorted out Nico's lunch. Nico was too busy talking to JJ about monsters or something so he wasn't really listening to mine and Julie's conversation.

"Shoot, do you mind waiting 5 minutes so I can quickly make Nico his lunch. I've completely forgot" Julie smiled at me

"Don't worry, I knew you had too many things to deal with this morning, so I made a Nico a packed lunch just in case. Come on boys let's get going" I smiled at Julie, I am so grateful to have someone like her around.

"Thank you so much Julie. I am incredibly thankful for you doing this" I replied quietly so the boys couldn't hear. We got to the lift just waiting for it the boys still talking about random things now.

"No worries Dani. Like I told you when we first met, I'll always be here to help you out if you ever need it, you just need to ask" I smiled at Julie and just left it at that. The lift arrived and we entered the lift, not really talking, just listening to the boys talk.

We arrived at the school, just as all the other parents were going into the school. I told Julie I was going to stay in the car, not wanting to deal with parents looking down at me and talking about me. I said by to Nico and just waited for Julie to come back. During that time, I had a text of an unknown number

****Text Convo*************

Unknown: Hey Dan, mum doesn't know I'm speaking to you but I know what really happened that night at the club. My friend showed me the CCTV. Really think Mum should know about this as its clear you didn't want anything to happen. Your big sis Cara

Unknown: If you want to get in touch call or text me on this number 561-396-0063 I really miss you Dan, please call me. I just want to know you're OK

To Cara: Hi Cara, How did you get my new phone number. Also why should I tell mum, she won't believe me? She has a new daughter now she can suck up to. Please don't contact me again.

From Cara: I know one of the parents at Nico's school and they had it. Look I don't speak to mum as much now that you're no longer around. I only see her when I drop Ciara off and pick her up.

To Cara: Tell me who it was, they have no right in doing that. I know it wouldn't be Julie which means I know probably who it was. No I'm not contacting her. I'm not her daughter any more remember. No daughter of hers would ever cheat on their loved one. That's what she told me. Or did you forget

From Cara: No it wasn't Julie. Ok well I still want to have something to do with you. Ciara misses you, she always asks when she will see her Auntie Dani and Nico. Please call me sometime so we can sort out a time I could maybe come and see you

*******end of Conversation***************

I didn't bother replying as I seen Julie walking back to the car. I was fuming now, that one of the parents knew my sister and gave her my number. I left Texas for a reason. And that was to get away from every one and to start a new life.

Julie got back in the car and we made our way to the hospital. Just listening to the car radio. I was still thinking about my older sister and her wanting me to speak to my mum. I could feel Julie looking over at me every so often

"Was Nico's teacher understanding on why you brought him to school today?" hoping to forget about the pain I'm feeling and the messages of my sister

"Yeah, she wanted me to pass on the message that she hopes you're feeling better soon, and that she is happy for me to pick Nico up from school if you want me too" I nodded at what she told me "Do you want to tell me what's on your mind, you seemed in a world of your own when I got back in the car"

"That's very kind of her, she was so lovely when Nico had just started at this school as he was worried that nobody will like him and that he will be left out of everything" I took a deep breath, Julie knows what happened before I moved so I wasn't scared of telling her "I had a text of my older sister whilst you was dropping the boys off, she got my number off of another mum and told me she had seen the CCTV from the club and it was clear I didn't agree to having to sex and you could tell by actions I didn't want it to happen, and that I should tell my mother the truth"

"She is a very kind teacher, JJ can't stop talking about her when I pick him up. I got to sit in on one of her classes and the kids loved her. I can tell that she would be a fantastic mother one day" I nodded, and realised we were nearly at the hospital "Well, only you can decide what to do hun, but maybe think of the pros and cons of what could happen if you were to do so"

I just nodded, not bothering to reply as we pulled up into the hospital. We got out of the car and walked into the A&E department and went to the reception to tell them what is wrong. They put me on the system and I went to sit down.

Not long after I had sat down a doctor came out and called me through. I grabbed Julie's hand not wanting to go through this on my own. I could tell already it's something bad.

"Ok, so Ms Rodriquez what can seems to be the problem" This doctor doesn't look old enough to be a doctor, he looks about 12 but I guess I better be nice as he is hopefully going to tell me what is wrong.

"I've not been feeling well the last couple of days, I've been getting some stomach pains but just thought it was from where something I ate disagreed with me but the pain is getting worse. I also woke up this morning and when I got out of bed there was blood on my pyjama shorts and on my bed sheets" I really hope I don't have to spell it out to him that I'm pregnant, I mean come on there is a small bump and I've took my jumper off because I was getting so hot.

"Well could it just be that time of month. I mean that's usually a sign of your menstrual cycle starting" is this doctor actually for real, is he blind can he not realise I have a small bump or does he think I'm just fat. I looked over at Julie and she was just shaking her head at the doctor trying not to say anything.

"Hmm well considering I am pregnant and I thought this small bump might have gave that away" I was getting annoyed now. That I could see Julie was going to say something

"Can we actually have a doctor who knows what they're doing? Considering you never actually asked if she could be pregnant you just assumed it was that time of month" the doctor was taken aback by Julie's comments and went off to find another doctor. A couple minutes later, another doctor came in and took over.

"Hello Ms Rodriguez, I'm Doctor Lopez, what seems to be the problem" I went on to tell him the same I told that other doctor. And whilst I was telling him I could tell he was listening and nodding his head "Ok, and how far along you are in your pregnancy"

"I'm just coming up to 17 weeks, so just entered my second trimester" Dr Lopez nodded his head and went to get an ultra sound machine.

"Ok, this maybe a little cold OK?" I nodded, Dr Lopez squirted some Gel over my stomach and placed the Doppler on my stomach, moving it around just spreading the gel, just trying to find a heartbeat. Dr Lopez tried again for another 2 or 3 minutes before stopping. I could tell straight away that I had miscarried, I could tell by his facial expressions.

"I'm really sorry to tell you but you have sadly lost your baby. Because you are 17 weeks into this pregnancy, you are going to need to be moved to a hospital room, and will be given some medication which will induce your labour, and you will have to give birth to your stillborn. Do you have any family who can be here with you" I can't believe I've lost this baby, ok maybe the timing isn't right, but it was another life.

"I don't have any family" I had tears in my eyes. Dr Lopez nodded. He disappeared then came back with a wheelchair. He helped me of the bed and into the wheelchair. Julie stayed with me as we made our way up to the maternity ward and into a side room. Away from all the babies so I won't get even more upset.

"I'll stay with you Dan, don't worry" Julie place a hand on my shoulder and rubbed it softly to let me know she was there. Times like this make me think that if Cara got in touch sooner then maybe she would be here with me.

"Thank you Julie, but what about work and picking JJ up from school" I was worrying now because Nico didn't have anyone to pick him up, like family.

"I have this week off, so I don't need to worry about work today, I'll call my mum and see if she can pick the boys up, and I'll call the school just to let them know that Nico is to go with my mum" I nodded and just shut my eyes, thinking about what had happened. Maybe I should get Julie to phone my sister just to let her know what happened.

"Ok, thank you. Um could you call Cara just to let her know what's happened, also tell her not to tell my mum what had happened" Julie nodded still rubbing my shoulder

"Ok, I'll call your sister and I'll call the school at the same time" I nodded my head. Julie left the room to call my sister and to phone the school to let them know what had happened. Just as she went out a nurse came in and gave me a tablet to take. I took the tablet and just laid in bed. I was just lead there thinking and dosed off to sleep.

^^2 hours later^^

I woke up having contractions, I guess it's time I give birth to my baby. I looked to my right and Julie was sit in the chair reading a magazine. I let Julie know and she went to get a doctor. Julie told me that my sister is going to fly out as soon as she can so she can be here to look after me, she said that her mum was happy to pick the boys up and that Ms Lopez will let Nico know.

My contractions were getting worse so it was time to deliver my baby. As soon as it was delivered I just wanted to curl up and wish the world away. It's going to take some use to, and it's going to be so hard. I'm just going to keep blaming myself for this, why else would I miscarry.

As the day went on it was getting later and later and I told Julie to go home and be with the boys, I'll be alright here tonight, luckily I get to go home tomorrow morning so Julie will pick me up after she has taken the boys to the hospital, she also said I could stay with her for a couple of days until I can get back on my feet which I thought was really sweet for her.

One more bill I'll have to add to the list I have already.