You think you have a hard life right? Try being me, Haku Yuki Momochi. To be honest I do love my dad, and little brother, Neji. But he is a handful and our father, Zabuza, just whines about mothers death.
It was a tragedy, of course Neji and I are heart broken as well, but Neji is only two, and I only seven, we still need father. I try my best to care for Neji but, well I'm not exactly the best for that. I am pretty good at it but father needs to get over it and move on. He needs to take care of us.
I walk towards fathers study, Neji in my arms. I hear him crying, again.
"Father?" I ask walking in.
"What is it Haku?" he asks, still crying.
"I was just thinking that…" I pause carefully choosing my words not wanting to hurt him further "That you should get a date." I finish.
He turns to face me. His stunned look concerns me. "Give me Neji." I do as he says and hand him Neji. Father walks over to the couch holding Neji close to him, then motions for me to come sit on his lap. I don't hesitate and I quickly walk across the room and he pulls me onto his lap.
"Why do you want me to get a date, Haku?" he asks "Do you miss mom?"
"Of course I do! But that isn't it. I miss you." I hesitate to finish "Miss me? But I haven't gone away" he says before I can finish.
I open my mouth but Neji interjects "Daady, Neji hungee!" he whines.
"Alright lunchtime." he announces setting me down on the floor. "Are you hungry too, Haku?" genuine concern in his voice.
"No" I yell as I storm off.
I understand I am over reacting in your eyes. But to mine I am just scratching the surface of ignorance. You need to know I was going to say 'Yes you have! You've been missing for three months! After mother passed away it's like you went with her! I care for Neji and for the first time in what seems like forever you're taking responsibility for your own son's. Mother would've wanted you to keep life steady and stable for Neji and I! but instead of caring about us all you care about is wishing she'll come back but we all know she won't! I said you should get a date so your life can be steady again and me and Neji wouldn't have to pay for your screw ups anymore!'
Now that is ignorant. I'm glad I didn't say it. Like I said I love my father. Maybe too much. I don't want to lose him too.
I am sitting on the floor in the center of my bedroom listening to the ocean waves crash on the shore outside. I start to think what life would be like if father passed away as well. It sounds horrible. Neji and I would be given up to our uncle and god father, Haishi Hyuuga. He is very stern and mean so I really don't want to go there I barely want to even visit but I love going there to play with cousin Hinata, she is six so we always used to play together, at least when mother was around and wanted to see her brother.
Hinata usually visits now though.
As I realize how horrible life would be I start to cry. And a few minutes later father walks in. "Haku, what's the matter?" he asks.
"Nothing." I say "Just thinking, that's all."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"no"
"Are you sure?" he asks as he starts to sit down on the floor next to me. Then he does one of the most unexpected things. He picks me up and puts me on his lap, and just holds me tight.
I cry into his shirt for a while. "I don't want to live with uncle Haishi"
"Why would you say that?"
"what if you die too? Mum said that's where me and Neji would live."
"I am not dying any time soon." he leans down and whispers "And I can't go on a date, because I've got two little boys who need to be loved."
From one second to another my heart gets so fast and I am so happy now I never thought he would understand what I meant.