THIS IS JUST AN IDEA I CAME UP WITH WHILE WATCHING DEFYING GRAVITY. IT WAS A TV SHOW ON ABC, BUT THEN IT GOT CANCELEDA YEAR AND A HALF AGO. IF YOU EVER GET A CHANCE, LOOK IT UP. IT WAS REALLY GOOD.

DON'T OWN IT

Deeks had thought about the conversation he had had with Kensi. He felt bad about not letting her shoot his gun. It was just one of those things that bugged him. The reason he didn't want to let her shoot his gun was because of one of his partners. She had ended up being killed because she shot his gun.

"Deeks!" Julia screamed, panicking as the bolt refused to slide back into place.

"What!" He yelled back, barely managing to dodge a bullet himself.

"It's jammed!" She yelled. Julia had ended up with his gun because hers had ran out of bullets, and Deeks was better with a knife than her. So, he gave her the gun. And now it didn't work.

"Hold on, I'll be right there!" He yelled. The two were currently situated in a tight spot. The people who were shooting at them had big guns. They were chasing them, but fell into a trap. Stupid Russians, Deeks had thought. Julia couldn't wait. She risked sprinting from her safe place behind crates to go to Deeks. He stared in horror as a bullet ripped through her chest, and she went down.

"Marty!" She cried as she took her last breath. The bullets had stopped flying for the moment, so Deeks sprinted across to fetch the gun then went back. He was able to get the bolt down, and killed all of the Russians. Sadly, Detective Julia Briatz didn't make it.

He decided that Kensi at least deserved to know why. Maybe she didn't tell him everything about her personal life and her past, but she was basically straightforward with him. She kept her past a secret because that was how she dealt with things, and that was who she was. Deeks just didn't talk about it because it hurt. It just scared him to let another female partner shoot his gun. If it was a guy, it wouldn't matter. But girls shooting his gun, that freaked him out. Kensi wasn't exactly like Julia. They were similar, though, more in the way that most girl cops/agents are. Julia hated to be seen as weak, just like Kensi. Other than that, he knew they were different. Julia was more apt to ask for help. If Kensi had been the one with the jammed gun, she probably would've forced the stupid thing into place. She also wouldn't have been so stupid as to run into the middle of a firefight (or knife/firefight), but still. Kensi also wouldn't have wasted all her bullets.

He was just worried that he wouldn't be able to save Kensi, just like he had failed Julia. He also had to remind himself that Kensi is a heck of a lot tougher than Julia was, and she isn't some damsel in distress who needs to be saved. It was just hard for him.

Hesitantly, he walked up to Kensi's desk.

"Hey, Kensi?" Deeks asked, hoping she still wasn't mad.

"Yeah?" She replied, not looking from her paperwork.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Fine." She said, dropping her pen.

"Look, about my gun, I just want you to know why. And don't interrupt, please. A few years ago, I had a partner named Julia. We were in a firefight, and her gun ran out of bullets. She took mine, and in the end, she ended up getting killed." Deeks said.

"Oh. Look, I wasn't mad. I mean, I know I seemed like I was, but I was just annoyed. I felt like you didn't trust me, and I know we have that issue." She said.

"Yeah. Which is why I was wondering if maybe you wanted to go shooting, and you can use my gun. Maybe I could use yours if you wanted." Deeks suggested.

"I thought you didn't like it when other people used your gun." Kensi said, an eyebrow raising.

"It's hard. But you're not like her. Julia, well, let's just say she wasn't the most self sufficient person in the world. Really, she shouldn't have been a cop. And you're perfectly capable of taking care of yourself. I think maybe that's why I trust you. I don't have to worry about you. I also know you have my back." Deeks said. Kensi didn't know what to say. So instead, she just smiled.

I'LL PROBABLY JUST LEAVE IT A ONE SHOT, UNLESS THERE'S LIKE A REVIEW EXPLOSION AND PEOPLE WANT MORE.