I'm alive

by Lily Ruthven

This is my first poem in english. After having seen the first two episodes of season six I just had to write this. I hope to recieve comments from you .. so go ahead and critizise :-)

I'm alive
roaming the streets
in search of myself
I'm alive
around me
demons
destroyed houses
cars in flames
chaos
I live
or am I dead?
Everything seems so unreal
or is it yet reality?
I'm alive
but where am I?
Is this hell?
No, not hell,
but hellmouth:
Sunnydale.

The tower.
A drop of blood
opening a dimension gate.
Dawn.
My sister, the key.
I see how I jump.
Jump into death.
I recall it again.
I am Buffy,
the vampire slayer.
And I'm alive.
I'm back !
But
I wish
I would be dead again.
Because I was in heaven
and not in hell !