A.N. Came across this old piece and thought I'd share-Been doing a lot of that lately. I do not own Sailor Moon.
They need me. As much as they hate to admit it they need me...
Yes, the fiercest warriors in the universe need me. Need ditzy little Usagi Tsukino.
They need my smiles, my laughs, my whiny voice... They need me because I give them a little humanity. Without me, there is only fighting endless battles.
We all fight though, against people who are supposedly evil. But... The "bad guys" are people too. Fighting for what they believe is right. I know that they plan to do what we call evil, but is morality ever definite? And yet we clash in the name of good.
Why? It's our duty. Pretty guardians of the Earth, Sailor Senshi. Warriors, protectors...
But are we so much different? Are our methods so much better? Do we honestly have any less blood on our hands? Sure, they're not human. Neither are we though, not really. We are aliens in human skin, planning a future where free will will be stripped in favor of peace and tranquility.
I won't point this out though. That's not what I'm here for.
I'm here to make them feel better. To seem pure and innocent so they can "defend" me and not feel guilty.
In the end I'm worse than them, despite my "cute, innocent, childlike ways." Because I let them believe what they want to believe.
Then again it's my duty. To play the sweet and innocent princess of the moon. To fight with them as a guiding light, a beacon leading them on to our peaceful white-washed future in Crystal Tokyo.
Every night I tell myself that. When I can, I steal from the liquor cabinet and I drink until I can't think anymore, so I sleep. Other nights, I just lay in bed and wonder. Either way, I'm kept from the sleep I crave til well into the night.
Whether I sleep late or not, I 'm never on time. I have to scrub my tears away.
Innocent princesses don't sob all night with revulsion.
And in the end, I can only be what they want of me.