The light of love flickers
In comes the darkness
Leonard hates how he can't work or focus on anything. He hates that Jim thinks he'll be able to fix him. Hates how Jim still loves him. Hates himself for surviving. Hates that he has no answers to anything. Hates that he lost so much time. Hates that Jim waited for him. Hates at how everyone looks at him. Hates how Spock looks at him. He hates it.
Jim hates how Leonard won't let him in or help. He hates that he can't do anything. Hates that he'll never be able to truly help Leonard. Hates that he ever let this happen to him. Hates how Leonard pushes him away. Hates that he knows Leonard is purposely pushing him away. Hates how Leonard lies to him. Hates that he just accepts it. He hates it.
Spock hates how he can't control or suppress his emotions. He hates these feelings that are breaking through. Hates that he ever read that file. Hates that he can barely look at Uhura in the eyes. Hates how every time he's even near Leonard he could feel it. Hates that he doesn't even need to touch the man to feel the pain. Hates that he knows the truth. Hates that all he wants to do is protect Leonard and Jim from any more pain. He hates it.