Okay so what do you need to know? This is set just after Emma and Matt split up. It's my first attempt an Emma centric fic. Emma/Will. Not sure how long this fic is going to be…
I wasn't too sure whether I liked this or not, so please read and review and let me know what you think to it, and also whether you'd like a sequel. Thanks to all the people who've reviewed my latest fic updates. Tis muchly appreciated!
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TO LOVE AGAIN
Chapter One – Reflections
Emma POV
I thought we were made for each other… everyone did. Well except for one person. Will saw right through Matt, he knew what he was really like. He tried to warn me, but I wouldn't listen. I just assumed he was jealous of what (I thought) Matt and I had…How stupid could I be?
Everyone's saying it isn't my fault, but I don't agree…I've always prided myself on being a good judge of character, so how is it that I got him so completely wrong? Maybe it's because he's changed. People may not believe me when I say that but it's true. The Matt I saw that night isn't the man I fell in love with two years ago.
When we first started dating, he used to buy me flowers and chocolates all the time… we used to curl up on the sofa together to watch movies… he used to make me feel like I was the most special girl in the world.
All that changed when I started at Sun Hill. He started to become more possessive…controlling… he started ringing me ten times a day, meeting me out of work and on occasion – before getting the job as DPS lawyer at the station – coming out for drinks with the team.
It wasn't that I actually minded this to begin with. I was glad that he was trying to adjust to my new working hours. It just got to the point where it felt like I had no room to move… that he was suffocating me. I needed my own space… that's why I ended it. That and the fact that I'd kissed Will the night before.
I don't know what made me do that… I didn't plan on it happening, it was just one of those things… a drunken mistake. At least that's what I told Will… that's what I tried to fool myself into believing.
But now, after months of being submissive to my 'husband' I can't deny it any longer. Kissing Will…it felt so right… it was perfect but I turned him down… I turned him down in favour of saving my forthcoming marriage to Matt…why did I even think it was worth saving?
A few months… That's how long it's taken for him to show his true colours. When I met his ex I was horrified. He'd turned her into a downtrodden wreck. Looking at her, I knew that could be me in a few years and that I had to get out… I tried to leave and he went for me… I never ever dreamed that he'd hurt me… I had to fight back – there's nothing else I could have done… it was him or me!
Emma leaned back against the locker door, her shoulders trembling as she struggled to contain her tearsFlipping through a photo album, she found the photo she was looking for. Her wedding photo. Tears slipped silently down her cheeks; she pulled the picture out of the plastic sleeve and slipped it into her pocket. Picking up her bag, she walked over to the sink and splashed cold water over her face before exiting the female locker room.
She walked through the interview room corridor, and out into Sun Hill reception. "Emma!" She heard a voice behind her and spun round. It was Will.
"Hey," she said softly.
Will leaned over and hugged her. "Are you okay Em?" He asked gently. "I'm worried about you."
His concern almost brought Emma to tears again. She buried her face in his shirt and clung to him tightly. He seemed to understand, and stroked her hair softly. After a few moments she pulled away. "Thanks," she said. "I'll be okay… really!" She added unconvincingly.
At that moment Dan walked through the swing doors and Will – catching a warning glance from Emma – decided to say no more. "You coming down the pub?" He asked Will.
Will shook his head. "Maybe later, I'm going to the gym…"
"Emma?"
"I think I'll pass on that!" She said quietly. "I'm just going to go home, have a bath and go to bed. Another time though yeah?"
Dan nodded. "Sure… see you tomorrow!" He said to them, before walking out the front doors to the nick.
Will turned to Emma. "Do you want a lift?" He offered, "You can pick your car up tomorrow?"
She shook her head. "No…" She paused. "It's ok!"
"If you're sure?"
"I am…" Emma replied. "Thanks for the offer but… I just want to be on my own tonight."
"I understand…" He said gently. "But if you ever need someone… you know where I am right? Just give me a call…yeah?"
Emma leaned up and kissed him quickly on the cheek. "Thank you…" She answered. "I'll see you tomorrow Will." Heading out of the station, she drove home to an empty house.
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